Hi my friends.My gosh the weather here is nasty.I got back from the Dr empty handed.....not.He is happy about how I am dealing with this whole program.I swear the man treats me with such respect.Its nice.i also told him I think Im ready to start therapy.The more I think about it the more I feel comfortable with it.I know I have alot of issues that need to be dealt with.things Ive long ago pushed down.Keeping all that crap down inside is Not going to help my recovery.and ya know whayt???I think today was one of the forst days that Ive truley feel proud of myself.Why is that?Anyways Ill probaly be on for 1/2 hr if anyone would likje to chat....mj
I am proud of ya MJ,
You have come such a long way. How many days now have you been clean from your DOC??? How's the family?
You have come such a long way. How many days now have you been clean from your DOC??? How's the family?
Hey Rae,I just counted & its 48 days.I have come aways huh?I know Im alot happier for it.The family is good.The BF stayed home(sucks for $$$$ but great for me)so he could take me.Little one is behaving herself.How about you?Hows your son?I cant belive I forgot his name.I remember the girls.Isnt that odd?I know your son was sick And I know you & the sweet little bunny was sick.Hows your WD comming?Im glad to hear youve been trying to get out more.I never drove a 4 wheeler but I did have my own dirt bike when I was a kid.It was GREAT Id get lost for hours....mj
Mj, i'am also proud of you, you should feel very good, your on the right track, just stay on it, girl!!!!!!!!! How much snow did you get? Abby
Hey MJ,
Yeah Alex was sick last week but he is better. The baby and I have had it bad this weekend but I am a little better today she is still sleeping. She kept me up every hour on the hour last night, She couldn't breathe out of her nose to drink her bottle so she wasn't a happy camper.
Anyway, I take the 4 wheeler out sometimes. I get all my frustrations out driving it like a mad woman,lol. We have about 3 acres here so plenty of room to ride it but I hardly do. Just like when I had an inground pool hardly ever got in it.
So your BF is home today to take care of you isn't that sweet. My BF went to the fair yesturday and I stayed home sick with the baby. I did get a carmel apple and some cotton candy out of the deal,LOL wasn't that sweet of him.
Congrats on 48 Days yes you have come along way baby and I am so proud of you girly girl! Rae
Hey Abby, how are you?
Yeah Alex was sick last week but he is better. The baby and I have had it bad this weekend but I am a little better today she is still sleeping. She kept me up every hour on the hour last night, She couldn't breathe out of her nose to drink her bottle so she wasn't a happy camper.
Anyway, I take the 4 wheeler out sometimes. I get all my frustrations out driving it like a mad woman,lol. We have about 3 acres here so plenty of room to ride it but I hardly do. Just like when I had an inground pool hardly ever got in it.
So your BF is home today to take care of you isn't that sweet. My BF went to the fair yesturday and I stayed home sick with the baby. I did get a carmel apple and some cotton candy out of the deal,LOL wasn't that sweet of him.
Congrats on 48 Days yes you have come along way baby and I am so proud of you girly girl! Rae
Hey Abby, how are you?
Hi abby First how are you feeling?Alittle better I hope?I think we got so far about 4-41/2 in.but its still comming down steady.I gotta go back out after the pharmacy gets their delivery.I didnt realize that so many people in my area were on suboxone.So how are you...mj
I can't imagaine being in snow right now. It is 75 here and it's only 12~noon.
Rae hows the WD comming.Are you over the major hump.I think you must be such a strong woman to do what you have done(methodone at home) and now this.I dont say that lightly.I am very much in awe of you...mj
Hey girls, i'am just fine, getting ready to take the little girl to get her hair cut, its so long, we fight everymorning before school, sometimes i feel like taking the hairbrush upside her head,no!!!!!, i was just joking, really!!!!!! But seems like her hair tangles so easy and its so thick. she is tenderheaded, so that doesn't help any. So, how was everyones weekend? abby
MJ,
Yeah I am way past the withdrawl. I have not taken ANY pain medication since Feb 2..I am doing really good as far as that goes. Sure I still think about it but nothing I can't deal with. I was only taking 5-10mg a day for like 2-3 months before I stopped. I know that helped me a lot. I would do 20 vicodin withdrawls than 1 methadone one. Seriously I really think I have always had that one horrible meth withdrawl in the back of my mind and that's why I was able to control my vicodin intake so well. Sometimes with each withdrawl you get a little smarter, well at least in my case.
What I had this week was not withdrawl related it was the flu, I had a high fever and all. You are funny you are in awe of me,lol I am nothing special I just put my mind to it and did it like I have done a few times in the past. Hopefully I won't pick up again but only time will tell. I live one day at a time. Rae
Yeah I am way past the withdrawl. I have not taken ANY pain medication since Feb 2..I am doing really good as far as that goes. Sure I still think about it but nothing I can't deal with. I was only taking 5-10mg a day for like 2-3 months before I stopped. I know that helped me a lot. I would do 20 vicodin withdrawls than 1 methadone one. Seriously I really think I have always had that one horrible meth withdrawl in the back of my mind and that's why I was able to control my vicodin intake so well. Sometimes with each withdrawl you get a little smarter, well at least in my case.
What I had this week was not withdrawl related it was the flu, I had a high fever and all. You are funny you are in awe of me,lol I am nothing special I just put my mind to it and did it like I have done a few times in the past. Hopefully I won't pick up again but only time will tell. I live one day at a time. Rae
We just stayed in.My daughter slept over a friends so the BF & I had some much needed time alone.Sometimes it feels good just being a couple instead of parents ya know.So what movie are ya gonna go see.
Abby,
LOL my mom used to wack me a good one with the hoar brush up side the head when I didn't hold still.LOL She didn't do it hard but enough to piss me off.
LOL my mom used to wack me a good one with the hoar brush up side the head when I didn't hold still.LOL She didn't do it hard but enough to piss me off.
HEY I CAN BE IN AWE IF I WANT TO MISSY!!!! I just think you must be very strong to be as determined as you are.It gives someone like me inspiration & something to think about when I feel sorry for myself....mjSO BLAHHHHHH TO YOU!!!
Hey Molly,
That is great news about giving therapy a chance. Remember, if you don't like the therapist you can always get another one that suits you best. I had to do that and now I have one that I'm very comfortable with.
Yes, the weather here in NY is awful. Can't wait until spring gets here. Especially because that van I'm driving around in doesn't have heat. LOL. Good luck to you in therapy.
Love,
Liz
That is great news about giving therapy a chance. Remember, if you don't like the therapist you can always get another one that suits you best. I had to do that and now I have one that I'm very comfortable with.
Yes, the weather here in NY is awful. Can't wait until spring gets here. Especially because that van I'm driving around in doesn't have heat. LOL. Good luck to you in therapy.
Love,
Liz
Thank you Liz and just for the record I feel for your situation and understand how fustrated it must make you feel.I told you I had a feeling about you.I still belive your gonna do this.I dont know where that feeling comes from but I got it.If I can be of any help even just a mental tidy please let me know
Now about therapy yes for me that is a big step but One I know I have to do.Not only is my recovery about cleaning my body its about helping my soul,so what the heck I must GO FOR IT...mj
Now about therapy yes for me that is a big step but One I know I have to do.Not only is my recovery about cleaning my body its about helping my soul,so what the heck I must GO FOR IT...mj
HI EVERYONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
JUST WANTED TO POP BACK IN AND SAY HELLO TO YOU ALL.
MJ...DID YOU HEAR???
YOUR FRIEND, CHRISTINA*~~*
JUST WANTED TO POP BACK IN AND SAY HELLO TO YOU ALL.
MJ...DID YOU HEAR???
YOUR FRIEND, CHRISTINA*~~*
Yes Niblet I did & I know you can do this.Heck you know you can.Hey Ive been meaning to ask you How is poop dog doing>?????mj
Way to go Molly, I'm so gald for you, that wasn't so bad was it?
Hey abby, Liz and Rae, its nasty weather here too. I'm with you Liz, counting down to spring.
Redd
Hey abby, Liz and Rae, its nasty weather here too. I'm with you Liz, counting down to spring.
Redd
i would like to see winn dixie, tak, said it was good.Rae, i so wish i could tell my sister about you, detoxing from methodone at home, i would love her to know, but telling her means that i would have to explain why i'am a member of an addicitive board and i don't think i'am ready for that, everyone in my family on my mom side takes some type of med, and they all think that that i missed that part. i guess what i'am trying to say is that they think i didn't inherited it, but i did, and that is the scary part, i'am just living a lie day in and day out!!!! And please don't get mad, because i dont want to tell that i'am an addict!! abby
Yep, I totally agree. That is why I got in therapy too. Have to learn to clean out the old garbage that holds me down.
Thank you Molly for believing in me. I'm glad you are here and if you ever need an ear just know I'm here for you too.
Love,
Liz
Thank you Molly for believing in me. I'm glad you are here and if you ever need an ear just know I'm here for you too.
Love,
Liz
