Well the snow thatwas promised has not arrived where i live which is such a shame cus i know how mike loves to go out in the cold to make me a snowman (not lmao) I was plaining a trip to see my daughter today but dont seem to feel like it ummmmmmmm having a bad day i guess. As some of you may or may not know ive been estranged from my family fo round 15-20 years after my mums death, my dad (who molested me) ive not wanted to see, well a round a month or so ago my only sister contacted me via family tree (which im trying to create) talk about emotions gezzzzzzzzz lol the only thing we have in common is our pasts we dont know each other so emails have been flying back and forth phone calls etc remember this and that and how sad that was etc. Well im totally drained now in fact exausted my sister (after we talked about dad molesting me) actually asked me if i was going to see him DUHDUH lol are you thick i thought, theni remembered how selfish she used to be as a child and actually although she is now older she as not changed, she never listens to what im saying oh yes she hears me all right lmao. Now my dilema is this im always honest and i dont like what i see so do i go forth with thi sister relationship or do i say no thx? just because she is my sister dont mean i got to like her right? and i dont im affraid, we are just too different i would not even sit with her for long in a bar etc so do i become faulse to help her deal with her past or what ????????????????????????? ummmmmmmm says i lmao as i do to myself. Wheni told her i was addited to pain pills for 20 years her reply was oh lmao ive just brought a new washing machine DUH DUH anyway enough venting im off now. answers on a postcard lmao jaxxxxxxxxxx
omg Jacky,
We have the same sister I think, LOL..Mine is always selfish and self centered too. I told her a few years ago that I may end up on the streets because I have no place to live. She said, Hmmmmm, Do you know what Rick got me? LOL, Rick is her husband. So, I understand what you mean. That's a tough call Jacky and I think you're the only one going to be able to answer it. I don't have any contact with my father at all, Same goes with two brothers. My sister, Well I tolerate her some. We don't speak much and she lives in another state, which is nice. lol.
I hear you too about family members saying, Remember this? Remember that? I hate it. I just keep a distance really. It works for me.You need to find what works for you. You have to know what you can deal with if one day you find out they had passed away, ya know? Will you feel guilty? or, would you just understand that you did what you had to do for your own sanity? I'm sorry for what you went through Jacky. I share a simular experience, someday I may speak about it. Right now, I find it impossible to deal with so I blank things out. I hope you have a great day. I can't sleep again...
Love,
Liz
We have the same sister I think, LOL..Mine is always selfish and self centered too. I told her a few years ago that I may end up on the streets because I have no place to live. She said, Hmmmmm, Do you know what Rick got me? LOL, Rick is her husband. So, I understand what you mean. That's a tough call Jacky and I think you're the only one going to be able to answer it. I don't have any contact with my father at all, Same goes with two brothers. My sister, Well I tolerate her some. We don't speak much and she lives in another state, which is nice. lol.
I hear you too about family members saying, Remember this? Remember that? I hate it. I just keep a distance really. It works for me.You need to find what works for you. You have to know what you can deal with if one day you find out they had passed away, ya know? Will you feel guilty? or, would you just understand that you did what you had to do for your own sanity? I'm sorry for what you went through Jacky. I share a simular experience, someday I may speak about it. Right now, I find it impossible to deal with so I blank things out. I hope you have a great day. I can't sleep again...
Love,
Liz
Well liz between me posting and being here again ive rung her and said im paying her a visit ummmm talk about fickle lol the way im looking at it (positively like i do) is if it helps me then all well and good if it dont then il keep my distance. right off now to finish irioning welllllllllllllll someones got to do it eh lmao jaxxxxxxxxxxx
Just popped in to say hi and hope you are all enjoying the weekend..it's freakin cold here and I can't wait to get the heating bill!!!! Have a good one, Love Sharonn
Good Morning to everyone...it's cold here in Northern Cal...30F.
Have a great day everyone.
Pammy
Have a great day everyone.
Pammy
