Goos everyone,I wanted to start a Goos post though I wont be here long.I have a 9am therapy appt.Today I get to see what kind of treatment plan they have for me & than Ill need to deside if Im staying at this place or finding a different place.There are reasons for this which Ill explain when I get home.Either way I AM NOT giving up on therapy.Ive learned too much & HAVE much more to learen.So my friends GOOS to you & Ill write when I get back...Love...mj
Hey MJ
Good luck with the treatment plan. Keep an open mind and you'll be fine.
Good luck with the treatment plan. Keep an open mind and you'll be fine.
Goos Morning and Goos Luck MJ!
I'm fixing to rev up the car and get Dylan to school.
I pray that all goes well with you. Are you going to see a woman counselor? That made it easier on me. Just remember, you are making yet one more big step in your recovery!
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I'm fixing to rev up the car and get Dylan to school.
I pray that all goes well with you. Are you going to see a woman counselor? That made it easier on me. Just remember, you are making yet one more big step in your recovery!
{{{{{{{{{hugs}}}}}}}}}
Goos Morning Everyone,
Well we have lots of liquid sunshine here in Fla. today.Yuck. I'm on my way to find a new job this morning!! Good luck on your meeting M.J.and everyone have a great day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Suzie
Well we have lots of liquid sunshine here in Fla. today.Yuck. I'm on my way to find a new job this morning!! Good luck on your meeting M.J.and everyone have a great day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Suzie
Goos morning, MJ and everyone.
MJ, if you are talking about counseling therapy, good for you! I have been going for 5 sessions now and it feels so good. Just find a therapist you click with, that is key. Luckily, I clicked with my first one. At the place I go, they state on the paperwork, and verbally, that if you do not feel totally comfortable with that therapist, ask for a new one. Do not be shy, this is your health, and they do not take it personally anyway. Good luck, I'm so happy for you.
Love,
Atlas
MJ, if you are talking about counseling therapy, good for you! I have been going for 5 sessions now and it feels so good. Just find a therapist you click with, that is key. Luckily, I clicked with my first one. At the place I go, they state on the paperwork, and verbally, that if you do not feel totally comfortable with that therapist, ask for a new one. Do not be shy, this is your health, and they do not take it personally anyway. Good luck, I'm so happy for you.
Love,
Atlas
Quick question. MJ how and where did go to find counseling? What kind of counselor are theym Maybe they would help me?I'm willing. I just don't know where to start.
Suzie
Suzie
Good morning everyone,im at work and only have a minute.Ive missed this place,never seem to have enough time lately.MJ,i hope your appointment goes well.I too would love more info about how you went about doing this.Im seriously thinking of doing the same.Talk to you all later,i hope.Take care~KIM
Hi everyone Im back.And I have a MAJOR desion to make.I really feel as if I need some input so I will get to all that in a minute.I wanted to answer the questions first.
My therapist is a man(an old hippy type)& I feel comfortable with him so THAT is good.But after today I found out if I deside to do this I will have a new therapist.Not sure if Nikki is male or female yet.
As far as finding this place....a couple years back my oldest daughter took that ambulance ride thar Cgs son did.Thankfully it ONLY involved drinking,but it was enough drinking for her to land in the hospital.Well theres a place up the street from where we live that deals ONLY in addiction.Drug or drink.So when I realized saying Im in recovery & actually BEING IN recovery were 2 different things this was the first place I went figuring that beings they only deal with addiction it would be a good choice.To anyone even thinking about starting therapy I say DEF try it you have nothing to lose & so much to gain from it.I myself realized that after 20 years of usen & abusing that it was time to STOP running from whatever it is that has always wanted to make me block things out.I realized(alot from being here)that to go any further I need to face the pain,feel it deal with it & go from there.So I hoped that answered the questions that were asked.
NOW for me the hardest part.My therapist told me what kind of treatment plan they have in mind for me & Im so befuddled about it.So Ill let you guys know what they want from me & I really could use your honest input ok?
They want me to go there EVERYDAY from 10:30am til 2:30pm.This will include meditation.& being in with a group.guys thats the hardest thing for me is being around people.I have a fear of it so bad that I cannot even explain what it feels lke.I was told that if THAT is too much contact they can work around it & figure a different plan.They also want me to be totally clean & I let them know about the Suboxone & how Im slowly weaning off.I explained that its not something you can just jump off of & they seem to undetrstand that.,so I guess my problem is Im not sure if throwing into a group is for the best.I DO understand that group support can be very helpful,but I just dont think Im ready to do it just yet.I guess I was hoping for private therapy 2xs at least a week.That way I could work my way up to being around people.
I know this may all seem so odd to you guys because on here Im friendly,helpful,& all the other nice things you all say,but in my world Im so scared of people.When I am around people I cant even look them in the eyes.Funny I never discussed this with too many of you on here.But being online is ALOT easier than seeing & talking with people.
So I asked my therapist if I could please have some time to think this out,I need to deside if going there for that long EVERYDAY is what would be good for me.Or should I just go to a private therapist where I can deal with these issues One On One.I know the desion is mine & part of me wants to try it,if only 1 or 2 times than the other part of me is so scared.I alsmost feel like I want to go get buzzed.I wont because I know I can no longer run from stuff but thats how I feel right now.
Anyways I realize I need to deside but I feel such a bond here & value your input on this so PLEASE if you have any input I will gladly listen
Sorry this is such a long post but I needed to try to get it all out.Thank you guys for the support you have given this far & I feel so safe here with you....Love mj
My therapist is a man(an old hippy type)& I feel comfortable with him so THAT is good.But after today I found out if I deside to do this I will have a new therapist.Not sure if Nikki is male or female yet.
As far as finding this place....a couple years back my oldest daughter took that ambulance ride thar Cgs son did.Thankfully it ONLY involved drinking,but it was enough drinking for her to land in the hospital.Well theres a place up the street from where we live that deals ONLY in addiction.Drug or drink.So when I realized saying Im in recovery & actually BEING IN recovery were 2 different things this was the first place I went figuring that beings they only deal with addiction it would be a good choice.To anyone even thinking about starting therapy I say DEF try it you have nothing to lose & so much to gain from it.I myself realized that after 20 years of usen & abusing that it was time to STOP running from whatever it is that has always wanted to make me block things out.I realized(alot from being here)that to go any further I need to face the pain,feel it deal with it & go from there.So I hoped that answered the questions that were asked.
NOW for me the hardest part.My therapist told me what kind of treatment plan they have in mind for me & Im so befuddled about it.So Ill let you guys know what they want from me & I really could use your honest input ok?
They want me to go there EVERYDAY from 10:30am til 2:30pm.This will include meditation.& being in with a group.guys thats the hardest thing for me is being around people.I have a fear of it so bad that I cannot even explain what it feels lke.I was told that if THAT is too much contact they can work around it & figure a different plan.They also want me to be totally clean & I let them know about the Suboxone & how Im slowly weaning off.I explained that its not something you can just jump off of & they seem to undetrstand that.,so I guess my problem is Im not sure if throwing into a group is for the best.I DO understand that group support can be very helpful,but I just dont think Im ready to do it just yet.I guess I was hoping for private therapy 2xs at least a week.That way I could work my way up to being around people.
I know this may all seem so odd to you guys because on here Im friendly,helpful,& all the other nice things you all say,but in my world Im so scared of people.When I am around people I cant even look them in the eyes.Funny I never discussed this with too many of you on here.But being online is ALOT easier than seeing & talking with people.
So I asked my therapist if I could please have some time to think this out,I need to deside if going there for that long EVERYDAY is what would be good for me.Or should I just go to a private therapist where I can deal with these issues One On One.I know the desion is mine & part of me wants to try it,if only 1 or 2 times than the other part of me is so scared.I alsmost feel like I want to go get buzzed.I wont because I know I can no longer run from stuff but thats how I feel right now.
Anyways I realize I need to deside but I feel such a bond here & value your input on this so PLEASE if you have any input I will gladly listen
Sorry this is such a long post but I needed to try to get it all out.Thank you guys for the support you have given this far & I feel so safe here with you....Love mj
Bump please really need advice & input Love mj
I usually skip the Goos Morning threads, Molls, because by the time I get up, you all are gone and my posts go unanswered.
It sounds like a really cool thing that you are doing. Anything you can do to further your recovery is a good thing. And if it gets you out of your comfort zone, it's ok! It'll do you good to experience life outside of your home and this board. You might even feel comfortable enough to go to a meeting one of these days...<beg>
Love you
Lisa
It sounds like a really cool thing that you are doing. Anything you can do to further your recovery is a good thing. And if it gets you out of your comfort zone, it's ok! It'll do you good to experience life outside of your home and this board. You might even feel comfortable enough to go to a meeting one of these days...<beg>
Love you
Lisa
...Mollyjean..Good Mornin to you aswell...How you feelin this mornin...thanx for yesterday..you really helped me keep myself together..i hope you have a good day..and take care of yourself..thanx again..i,ll be around if you wanna have a chat or sumink...
...Good Mornin to everybody else...Enjoy your day wotever your plans are..Robbie..
...Good Mornin to everybody else...Enjoy your day wotever your plans are..Robbie..
Dear Robbie Anytime I can help.I have found that when I reach out & try to help others I inturn am also helping myself.But really Robbie you are the one who pulled yourself through.I was just some shoulders to lean on until you felt stronger.Im glad you are a bit better.Keep on hanging on,THAT ALL ANY OF US CAN REALLY DO...mj
MJ, it sounds very similar to the Outpatient rehab I was in. It helped me immensely. I think it would definately be to your benefit to do this program. Remember, this is a disease of isolation, so that is why they are having you work in a group program. I say go for it!
Go back and reread my rehab diary. Maybe that will help.
Reading your post to Robbie made me want to mention the fact that in this setting you will also be helping out others and in turn helping yourself. You can only keep what you have by giving it away.
Go back and reread my rehab diary. Maybe that will help.
Reading your post to Robbie made me want to mention the fact that in this setting you will also be helping out others and in turn helping yourself. You can only keep what you have by giving it away.
See???!!! I post on the goos morning thread, and I'm ignored!
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Sorry Lisa, Goos Morning darlin and how are you feeling today?
HEY LISA?????I AM HERE I READ YOUR POST!!!!! LOL I wasnt ingornig you just waiting to get more input from people.I have such a fear of people in general.Thats the scarey part.Maybe if he would of said group or 10:30 -2:30 every other day or even 2 days aweek I wouldnt be as worried.I just dont know if I can handle being around people in a group setting EVERYDAY like that.Plus I have 2 daughters who need there mom here.Anne gets home at 2:30 so it wouldnt be so bad.I may try it tomarrow & see how it goes.If I feel I cant deal with doing it everyday Ill have to be honest & tell them.I like the place itself & I know I have so much to learn I just cant or I dont want to go 5 days a week.I just dont feel I could handle that.
I hope things are better for you though what Im reading it doesnt sound like it much.As your friend I really wish I could do more,as a mom (like yourself)I can only imagine what your going through.As always my support & love are here for the taking....mj
I hope things are better for you though what Im reading it doesnt sound like it much.As your friend I really wish I could do more,as a mom (like yourself)I can only imagine what your going through.As always my support & love are here for the taking....mj
I'm a bit late today, but goos morning everyone!!
mj - I think that you absolutely should do it!! I know that it is very scary for you,but I think that you will benefit from it SOOO much!!!
MJ
Just give it a try once or twice. You aren't court ordered. You can quit if its too much for you. But I bet you'll like it. I bet ya a quarter.
Just give it a try once or twice. You aren't court ordered. You can quit if its too much for you. But I bet you'll like it. I bet ya a quarter.
LOL I just answered your other post.Ill bet YOU a dollar your probaly right.I wont repeat what I put on the other post but I will say I know I have much to gain & NOTHING to lose by at least trying it.But 5 days a week for 4 hrs at a time???Im not sure I can deal with that,but Ill give it a try.Ive started to think of recovery as so much more than just NOT usen I realize its a whole new life style to live sober & Im trying to do the best I can.I hate that Im so insecure & shy HATE it.Why am I ???Beats me Ive been like this for as long as I can remember..Thanks Kat I always like when you take time for me.Take Care...mj
MJ, just remember honey, you ARE able to communicate to us online. You CAN do the same thing in a group setting.
If it is anything like my experience, you will do assignments and have general education about addiction. Also you will share your experience with the group. It will not be as difficult as you think, once you begin to hear others experiences. You don't have to come out and tell others EVERYTHING, that you can do with a counselor. You will mainly discuss your addiction and hopefully they will be able to find out your specific triggers.
I just got off the phone with an Attorney's office, and all of my dr's. I am going to try and file for SS Disability and have to have documentation from all of my drs saying that I will be unable to work for the next year. I sure hope they will give me this documentation, because I am really at the point that I do feel that I am unemployable. This has been a hard decision to make. I truly do not think I will be able to hold down a job, if I can even locate someone who would employ me. I know from past experience that I will not be able to operate at full capacity because I am constantly sick or suffering from my fibromyalgia.
Wish me luck...
If it is anything like my experience, you will do assignments and have general education about addiction. Also you will share your experience with the group. It will not be as difficult as you think, once you begin to hear others experiences. You don't have to come out and tell others EVERYTHING, that you can do with a counselor. You will mainly discuss your addiction and hopefully they will be able to find out your specific triggers.
I just got off the phone with an Attorney's office, and all of my dr's. I am going to try and file for SS Disability and have to have documentation from all of my drs saying that I will be unable to work for the next year. I sure hope they will give me this documentation, because I am really at the point that I do feel that I am unemployable. This has been a hard decision to make. I truly do not think I will be able to hold down a job, if I can even locate someone who would employ me. I know from past experience that I will not be able to operate at full capacity because I am constantly sick or suffering from my fibromyalgia.
Wish me luck...