Just wanted to thank you all for the lovely replies I got today (so quickly!!!). Really means a lot to me. Still feeling rather ill, and because they won't allow me any serious pain killers, i am SORE and so exhausted, but somehow i do feel kind of relieved.
I had a good talk with my Dad today and I'm glad everything's out in the open. I never thought he would be so understanding!! He even offered me to come and stay with him for a while, or at least untill i've fully recovered from hospital. I don't know how long im gonna stay afterwards, but it's really good to know he's there.
I should hear from the rehab centre within the next couple of weeks. It's good to know that i've started something good, but on the other hand it's really scary to realize to have to give up on something you have done for years. And what if i loose motivation in the weeks in between? Having to go to hospital scared the s*** out of me, but i'm not sure how I'd feel when i'm physically feeling better in a couple of days....and what if i fail? What if I don't want it enough?
You've all been there,huh? please keep writing. Today's been really good with all your replies. Thanks for that!
Bub
Hi Bub, that's great that things are still on track for the rehab. Your fear is totally understandable. We've all had a case of the "what ifs." Just take it a day at a time and you'll be alright. Also glad to hear that you have the support of your father. You shouldn't have to do this alone.
Hi Bub, saw your post yesterday, welcome! Here you will find all the support, encouragement and information to help you. Just take what you need and what feels right for you. That must have been very scary ending up in the hospital like that and I bet it scared your dad too. I;m in the early stages of my recovery, 2nd day today without anything so I am no expert on long term recovery, but I will say that each day-each moment of your day, will be different. There is good and bad and you just have to kinda let it flow through one side of you and out the other and then move on. Try not to get caught up in your thoughts, that is the most difficult. Get busy doing something, anything, when you feel out of control. Write, walk, call your dad and/ or come on here and type your heart out. There is always someone on here to listen and offer support. I've heard many good things about inpatient rehab if that helps. Good luck and keep posting. Prayers and blessings are sent your way.
Bub, yep, most of us have been in a similar spot as you. It is scary, but it's also exciting to think about getting that demon off you back, huh? You have to really want it in order to make it happen. If you fail, you try again. There is no shame in failing, only in ceasing to try.
You can do this, and it's great you have family support now. Hang on today, it gets easier every day. Good luck, and keep on smiling! : )