I was / am addicted to opiates (pain pills, mostly Norco) in increasing doses (got up to 300mg / day - a whopping amount by most peoples' standards -- as in: anyone without tolerance would literally fall over dead ingesting the doses I did - 100mg hydrocodone at a time.
Went through hospital in-patient detox last weekend, only 3 days, with decreasing doses of Suboxone, with valium and muscle-relaxers thrown in, and it wasn't bad. Now on Suboxone for unknown period of time - but consider myself clean and sober (as does my program) as this is not a narcotic that makes you high, just keeps you from getting sick.
My spiritual teacher has a phrase I love: "You finally get to the point where you realize you will never be a happy alcoholic or addict - once you get to that point, and only then, you become willing not to be one".
I was spending SO much of my time, energy and money chasing pills AND feeling out of integrity spiritually (not in a moral good / bad sense --- just in a "buffering from reality" and Truth don't go together -- because addiction does entail suffering, and Truth frees us from suffering).
So, just wanted to "say hey" to everyone, and mostly to remind us all: THERE IS HOPE -- something even I, with all my spiritual immersion, had forgotten.
If you're interested in subuxone-based detox, just do a web search on that word, and a directory of docs all over the country (maybe Canada, too, not sure) will pop up.
Good to meet you all; Peace.
PS - As part of my program, I am starting 12-step ... and willing to "immerse" (go to a lot of meetings, get a sponsor, work the steps, etc.) -- I've always considered 12 step "not my thing", but it's a requirement of my outpatient treatment, so this time, I'm surrendering, and not fighting it ... but flowing with it. The outpatient group is great, too ... I've been alone (feeling) in this (addiction) for a long time.
I welcome all comments!
Welcome to the board. You sound interesting and like somebody who will have much to contribute. I look forward to hearing more from you. Love, Kat
Hey Satyadas,
Welcome to the Board. Seems like you're hooked in to a good after-care program, and your attitude sounds great. Glad to have you contributing here. M.
Welcome to the Board. Seems like you're hooked in to a good after-care program, and your attitude sounds great. Glad to have you contributing here. M.
Good morning and welcome this is a great spot and I myself have learned alot from mostly everyone here like my 2nd family....my name is mollyjean or mj whichever is easier
Sat,
Nice to meet you! Wow you did take a lot of hydro at one time... I would be climbing the walls if I took half that amount. Anyway, I am glad to see your life is on the right track now and you had the courage and willpower to do something about your additcion. That is wonderful and you should be very proud of yourself.. Have a nice weekend and this is a great place to come and share your experiences..... Rae (Rachel)
Nice to meet you! Wow you did take a lot of hydro at one time... I would be climbing the walls if I took half that amount. Anyway, I am glad to see your life is on the right track now and you had the courage and willpower to do something about your additcion. That is wonderful and you should be very proud of yourself.. Have a nice weekend and this is a great place to come and share your experiences..... Rae (Rachel)
Good morning and welcome! Your mention of the time and energy we spent chasing these pills and the high really hit home. It was all-consuming, from morning till night, and I'm so glad now to have this time back to try and work a life on purpose. Sounds like you have a really good foundation and plan in place, not only to get clean but to stay clean. In the past I've always missed the second part, but this time I've finally surrendered and admitted that "I can't do this alone", and find tremendous support and comfort in NA/AA rooms. Take care, Jim
Thanks for the wonderful, warm welcomes!!
Please see my other post (for more detail & info) under " Thank You / Resources " -- gotta run (doc appt; the right kind ... [smile]) -- but just wanted to say THANKS!!
My spiritual teacher has a phrase I love: "You finally get to the point where you realize you will never be a happy alcoholic or addict - once you get to that point, and only then, you become willing not to be one".
This point hits the nail on the head.
Welcome
JohnDee
This point hits the nail on the head.
Welcome
JohnDee
Hi Sady,
Welcome to the board, I did the sum of what you were taking at a time and all I can say is THANK GOD YOUR HERE TO BE ON THE BOARD!!!!!
Welcome, we look forward to getting to know you.....
Briar
Welcome to the board, I did the sum of what you were taking at a time and all I can say is THANK GOD YOUR HERE TO BE ON THE BOARD!!!!!
Welcome, we look forward to getting to know you.....
Briar
