Hi everyone, I haven't posted in quite a while. Last time I spoke to my addicted son, listed as homeless son, was 2 months ago. He hasn't called or came by, so I know he's still mad at me. For refusing to help him more. Thing is, I don't care if he's mad. I have had my fill of him. It would be different if he was a lot younger, but he's 40, still homeless, still needing medical attention,dental attention, all of the things that go along with these kinds of addicts.
Problem is--- now I feel terribly guilty because I have been happier not hearing from him. It's like I'm kinda free. I love him as much as I ever have, I just didn't realize the pressure he put me under. I still worry,not as much, but somehow I have let go. If that's wrong, God please forgive me!
I know at any time a call could come in with bad news, but that can happen anyway.
Meth has probably touched everyone, in one way or another. none of it good.
I am a Christian and I know it is said we aren't supposed to question God,but I hope someday to understand why.
My thoughts and prayers to everyone.
Hi, I know how you feel. I feel the same and it makes me feel guilty too. But what else can we do to try and turn their lives around. I'm just sick of trying and like you,I have let go! I don't know how I got here but it's like all the worries have been lifted off my shoulders. Sarah.
I know we're you are coming from my son has been arrested and I feel worried guilty relief that fact that I am not coming home to watch him waste away every day . I still love him to bits but at the same time I am very angry with him for wasting his life to this drug and not fighting for his children as they are beautiful kids which I love to bits . I think we have all been put through the grind so much that you get worn down . Guilt can be so soul destroying be strong and know that any feelings you feel are all right to feel .keep strong and know how many of us there are feeling the same .
Thank you Pooh, it's good to know we aren't alone. Sarah
