Evening people... Well had an absolutly ace weekend with the concert and all... what a night...even behaved myself. But nothing is ever good for long eh? Split up with Clare on Monday, without going into it as it would take too long i had to as i've not felt his way for someone ever but i know for a fact she would end up, well, hurting me as i don't think she is ready to give up the you know what.( she has been taking it) I do miss her but it is for the best, eh? recovery before all..... eh? Not got much else to say, but it was the best i've felt in years..... BUT, can't go out wth someone who makes smack their first priority, eh?
Hope everyone is well. Peace, and ( i wish i can say P vibes) Kev
I should have listened.....
Oh mate, it sucks doesn't it? But you are putting yourself first which is a good thing...you gotta be your number one priority...I hope the s*** you're feeling now subsides soon...we all feel these holes in our hearts cos of this damn drug...holes...it's like an emptiness...you're in my thoughts...if that helps even a tiny bit...
Maddy x
Maddy x
Cheers Maddy, yeah it does hurt, not experienced this sort of feelings .... but i'm not away to get broken hearted 6 months down the line. I've not seen her since last week and miss her but she made a comment last week about something and by that i know she will still continue( maybe just a little) to use. I can't put up with that... I've given her my all.BUT, i'm like zebedeee..... got lot of bounce. Hope you're well Maddy, Kev
Aw, Kev, such a hard thing to do. I have a poster hanging in my 4th grade classroom: "Doing what's right isn't always easy, but it's always right." So true, for all of us. Some girl will be real lucky to get you one day. Hang on till then.
Peace and Healing~MomNMore
Peace and Healing~MomNMore
It's never a good ideal to date/talk to/ hang out with/ a using addict while in recovery. There are So many people i miss that i used with and one ex boyfriend....... that stuff hurts but, they had to go for ME to be okay. You know you did right.
Kev, I do understand a bit of what you're going through. I left someone after a seven year relationship for the same reason. It's better you do it now. You absolutely have to put recovery before anything or anybody. I ain't gonna say any stupid platitudes. Yes, it hurts like f***, but in a while you will feel better, you'll meet somebody else who isn't on the gear, and you'll be glad that you were strong enough to do this. It would be suicidal to throw away everything you've worked so hard for. No matter how much you love, you can't sacrifice yourself for somebody who won't even try to help themselves. I'm not being judgemental about her. I know from my own experience that for the first few years of my addiction I had no respect for it, I thought it was a bit of a laugh, I wouldn't have given it up. Put simply, I was more in love with the gear than I was with anything else. If Brad Pitt had rolled up at my door and asked me to choose, well, it would have been bye bye Brad. You have to be an older head to fully appreciate what you're dealing with. For a long time you think you can have your cake and eat it, you think you can have it all, and when you can't, you've always got the old domestos for the soul - kills 99% of all known pain. Dead. It's only when you get to be like you and me, and that little 1% that it just can't kill totally overwhelms you, and cripples your life completely.
Be nice to yourself. If you were a woman I'd tell you to eat as much chocolate as necessary to alleviate the crisis, but I'm not sure that chocolate has the same effect on men. Just look after yourself.
love
Diff xxxx
Be nice to yourself. If you were a woman I'd tell you to eat as much chocolate as necessary to alleviate the crisis, but I'm not sure that chocolate has the same effect on men. Just look after yourself.
love
Diff xxxx
Awww, Kev.......I'm sorry.
Hate to resonate the ol' "Ya did the right thing".........but I think ya did.
We can't help who we love.........I mean to say we feel.....when we love someone..........but we can love us too...........enough to save ourselves.
Kind of think ya did that, Kev.
Hate to resonate the ol' "Ya did the right thing".........but I think ya did.
We can't help who we love.........I mean to say we feel.....when we love someone..........but we can love us too...........enough to save ourselves.
Kind of think ya did that, Kev.
everyone already said what i would say--usually i would also say time heals all wounds, but today im feeling like you--ouch its sure painfull to lose oout in the love department--i wish iwish i wish iwish-- hopefully the pendulum of love will swing our way soon or i guess when its supposed to atleast..... you are not alone
