Hello all-man i wish i had the fortitude and patience to write more when i come here-you all seem so close. Anyway last night i watched a movie called Candy and i think its very loosly based on a book by the same title. Its a movie about an heroin addicted couple and how dope is tightly intertwined in their relationship--its very realistic and reminded me too much of the things i went through with my x and it also depicts the hell you go through during withdrawl, it was crazy during a scene where she delivers a stillborn i cracked and all of a sudden i had all my old feelings of fear, anger ,pain, even thinking i was sick--isnt that nuts it was like it thrw my mind into another deminsion--our minds really do have control i didnt even know i was carrying around all this still and its good in a way because after you are away from the lifestyle for awhile you do forget the depth of pain you walk around with everyday--thats a scary way to live--you are so inprisoned by the fears of withdrwal and all the other consequences of using heroin. I wouldnt suggest watching the movie unless you are really strong in your recovery or you have a support person with you. I live in a transitional housing and they turn the alarms on a 11pm and of course i had to have my little attack at 11:15 and couldnt use the pjone or come out of my room. Im struggling with being here--all you inner negatives are out on disply in a treatment setting and up for grabs to anyone who wishes and thats not easy for me but im trying to have faith in my higher power that as long as i keeping acting in faith all will be well--maybe not happy and great but well--ANY SUGGESTIONS?????????thanks for being out there you all
""""""""as long as i keeping acting in faith all will be well--"""""""""
Just keep on doing that Amity and all will be well, i hope everything works out for you. What is transitional housing?
I remember watching some film years ago and the character on it was going through heroin withdrawl, i was off it at the time, but watching it made me feel like i was rattling, i had to leave the house i was in cause i couldn't watch it anymore. mental how that happens, eh? Keep the faith, Kev
Just keep on doing that Amity and all will be well, i hope everything works out for you. What is transitional housing?
I remember watching some film years ago and the character on it was going through heroin withdrawl, i was off it at the time, but watching it made me feel like i was rattling, i had to leave the house i was in cause i couldn't watch it anymore. mental how that happens, eh? Keep the faith, Kev
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In Neil Armfield's CANDY, Heath Ledger (BROKEBACK MOUNTAIN, TWO HANDS) and Abbie Cornish (A GOOD YEAR, SOMERSAULT) play Dan and Candy, two young bohemians who fall madly in love while shooting heroin together. In the beginning, the couple's days are occupied with making love, shoplifting, and having a strung-out wedding day that ends with a lot of giggling over a couple of Big Macs. Despite Candy's disapproving parents, they cling to each other with a fierceness that shuts out any and all outside criticism. When funds or drugs are low they pop by the house of a pharmacology professor named Casper (Geoffrey Rush), who uses his professional expertise to supply them with pharmaceutical-grade heroin. As the reality of their addiction creeps to the forefront, they must turn to desperate measures to get their fix. Candy becomes a prostitute, and Dan a thief and con man. When Candy discovers Amity......does this write up sound like the film your talking about, jus am gona buy it for myself but not sure this is the correct one???
she's pregnant, they decide to go cold turkey, but the horrific side effects of withdrawal result in a miscarriage. The two tumble into despair, and opt to move to the country to try methadone treatments. Candy's depression soon blooms into a full-blown nervous breakdown, and as her parents finally usher her into rehab, Dan returns to his friend Casper for comfort, only to find him dead of an overdose.
Heroin abuse--with its soaring highs and inevitable crash--has been well-documented in many films. However, CANDY brings something fresh to the story with its focus on the doomed junkie love affair. Candy and Dan tumble into each other much in the same way they descend into addiction--with a white-hot, desperate need that blinds them to reality. It's a moving, realistic portrait of how that kind of all-encompassing, obsessive love can sometimes be just as powerful as any drug, and just as hard to kick.
Thanks...Lyndsay xx
In Neil Armfield's CANDY, Heath Ledger (BROKEBACK MOUNTAIN, TWO HANDS) and Abbie Cornish (A GOOD YEAR, SOMERSAULT) play Dan and Candy, two young bohemians who fall madly in love while shooting heroin together. In the beginning, the couple's days are occupied with making love, shoplifting, and having a strung-out wedding day that ends with a lot of giggling over a couple of Big Macs. Despite Candy's disapproving parents, they cling to each other with a fierceness that shuts out any and all outside criticism. When funds or drugs are low they pop by the house of a pharmacology professor named Casper (Geoffrey Rush), who uses his professional expertise to supply them with pharmaceutical-grade heroin. As the reality of their addiction creeps to the forefront, they must turn to desperate measures to get their fix. Candy becomes a prostitute, and Dan a thief and con man. When Candy discovers Amity......does this write up sound like the film your talking about, jus am gona buy it for myself but not sure this is the correct one???
she's pregnant, they decide to go cold turkey, but the horrific side effects of withdrawal result in a miscarriage. The two tumble into despair, and opt to move to the country to try methadone treatments. Candy's depression soon blooms into a full-blown nervous breakdown, and as her parents finally usher her into rehab, Dan returns to his friend Casper for comfort, only to find him dead of an overdose.
Heroin abuse--with its soaring highs and inevitable crash--has been well-documented in many films. However, CANDY brings something fresh to the story with its focus on the doomed junkie love affair. Candy and Dan tumble into each other much in the same way they descend into addiction--with a white-hot, desperate need that blinds them to reality. It's a moving, realistic portrait of how that kind of all-encompassing, obsessive love can sometimes be just as powerful as any drug, and just as hard to kick.
Thanks...Lyndsay xx
thanks kev makes me feel a little less crazy to know im not the only one transitional housing is any dwelling that consists of people who are trrying to better their lives and get strong enough to live on thier own-the one im in is for women with childtren who have abused drugs and one of the requirements is you have to have been in a treatment facility and in a 12 step program (along with lots of other requirements) ive seen so many people go back out over seemingly small things and the saddest part is that they are dragging their kids right with them--but im not judging i did it too-but its still sad to see its so crazy living in immersed in estrogen 24/7 WOMEN ARE CRAZY LOL-men not allowed to agree with that :)
don't got time to read all the reply's to this. I just rented CANDY today i've only watched 1st 30mins. Not sure what i think about this flick. I knowr about the love/heroin mixed up thing.... i thought i was in love with the guy who turned me onto H. Funny thing i did not care to much about him before i got hooked!. When he split my brother told me i never loved that guy i only loved his dope. Which was true i mourned losing my supplier. I do think i cried more over having to score and get my own cash then him screwing me over. I'll get back on this post later got to watch the rest. I had to turn it off when the kids came in. I just told my fiance tonight i needed a job at a rehad of methadone clinic to have that reminder of my dark days. After being away it's all to ez to forget it was crappy that's why ya left!
I watched that movie one night several weeks ago and felt the same scarey feelings. I have a relationship of 10 years . on and off again with my sons dad that is similar in many ways. Sometimes I wonder if it is him I love or the dope?? Then sometimes the two just seem to blend together.
I am still using but very ready to quit. Even the heroin just seems to make me edgy nowadays. The old euphoria is gone..just staying well enough so I can keep my job.
Thank you guys for letting me post here in this community. I am so glad to be here and your posts help me feel not so alone....
love north
I am still using but very ready to quit. Even the heroin just seems to make me edgy nowadays. The old euphoria is gone..just staying well enough so I can keep my job.
Thank you guys for letting me post here in this community. I am so glad to be here and your posts help me feel not so alone....
love north
Yo, Amity.....I thought they weren't giving ya computer time or something.
I had mad respect for you when you posted your in transitional housing........all them women and kids........it seems you're stronger than anything cause you truly are dealing.......with bull*hit.......a pack of women in itself is bad enough.....but with kids.........and under stress........your kid hit my kid.....somebody stole my only bra.........you got some willpower.
Glad to see ya here again Amity.......if ya get a little extra puter time hop on....otherwise you're close.........close to us........you're in the gang.....plus us women here........we don't have to live with eachother.......just laugh or cry.
Hang in there Amity.......and all y'all should watch a musical or sumptin.
I had mad respect for you when you posted your in transitional housing........all them women and kids........it seems you're stronger than anything cause you truly are dealing.......with bull*hit.......a pack of women in itself is bad enough.....but with kids.........and under stress........your kid hit my kid.....somebody stole my only bra.........you got some willpower.
Glad to see ya here again Amity.......if ya get a little extra puter time hop on....otherwise you're close.........close to us........you're in the gang.....plus us women here........we don't have to live with eachother.......just laugh or cry.
Hang in there Amity.......and all y'all should watch a musical or sumptin.
haha-thanks bryn-you seeem to know exactly what my days consist of-LOL but im here for the recovery and for the structure -its a 6 month program and thats not very long so i think itll all be good if i can just let go of my control and give it over then i may "feel" a little less crazy. and yes miss zero--thats the one you should really consider a career in movie review--that was excellent writing and i never even made the connection about the relationship mimicing the same qualities as the heroin addiction-i guess i got too caught up in myself to be very analytical. I have to mow the lawn in a little bit because they found "contraband" in my room---4 candy bars haha they tore my room apart--saying when we find anything that tells us you may be using--ahhhhhh i almost exploded on that one-but i know there will always be situation where i have to keep my composure no matter what. I just keep telling myself that all will be well-as far as my life its all good ive gotten a job i actually like im paying bills-as much as i can--rent here is 540-18 dollars a day and im making my way around without any help--life is good i keep telling myself to chill--count to ten and breath deep (giggle) anyway--thanks for the responses--y'all are awesome!!!!!!!
Amity you sound so positive about life, that's awesome and I'm sure that positivity is what will keep you doing so well when you come out of the transitional housing. Good luck and keep that fantastic faith in you!
About Candy, I'm gonna see if I can get hold of it. Watched Trainspotting recently for the first time in years. It gave me cold shivers thinking about what my boyfriend goes through. But apparently it was that dam film that got him into it in the first place. He and his mates thought it looked cool! Sheesh!
Maddy x
About Candy, I'm gonna see if I can get hold of it. Watched Trainspotting recently for the first time in years. It gave me cold shivers thinking about what my boyfriend goes through. But apparently it was that dam film that got him into it in the first place. He and his mates thought it looked cool! Sheesh!
Maddy x
Yeah--we can be really stupid when it comes to wanting to do "cool stuff" i think everyone who tries illicit drugs does it initially because off peer pressure or wanting to fit in or look cool-then you do it to escape reality--but usually theres some instability to begin with--if hes still using--be careful if he watches this--he will want to use asap anyway im sure you know all about that--but be carefull not to get caught up in the romanticism that comes along with being with someone on H or even doing H thats how i started my bf was addicted and after awhile it seemed less of a big deal to me--just watch your self--keep your boundaries--excuse my boldness but its so hard to love someone in full addiction because sadly they will always pick the drug over everyone and everything else--speaking from experience--good luck and thank you for your kind words-i wish i felt more positive
