Hi everyone, ain't been on this site for years but just had the strangest dream which made me come on to post this!!
I used to use this site almost everyday, I don't have an addiction but my partner at the time did! When I first met him I knew he had a problem but at the time I was too naive to know what he was using! Anyway top and bottom of it I gave him an ultimatum and he got himself clean whilst serving a bit time in HMP!
He moved in, I had a baby and things were great, after I had the baby we arranged the christening and some 'old' friends ov his came! I knew they had a problem with heroin but I put my trust into my partner! Sure enough he took some? From this day he was never the same! He didn't take it again for months but became very violent towards me! Sometimes I feared for my life he got that bad! Eventually he ended up back on it! After years of trying to help him I eventually came to sense and thought enough is enough, I walked out with my daughter and the clothes on our back!
I went to a friends house but he found me, started accusing me of stuff and then beat me to a pulp, then afterwards headbutted me and burst my eye wide open, he insisted on taking me to hospital and dragged me in his van then collected me afterwards (almost crashing the van because he was so out ov it). The worst feeling in my life was that my friend was watching my daughter and at any point he could ov went back and took her!! The longest few hours ov my life!
Anyway I returned, he rang all day, kept turning up begging for forgiveness but I knew this time I had had enough!! Next day I returned home for some clothes, his van was mo where to be seen so in I went to find him hanging from my loft!
I was devastated (and this may sound bad) but it was also a sense ov relief that it was all finally over! This next few years was even harder but I put every bit of strength I had into my daughter and her wellbeing! She was my reason to continue and fight!
I have now met someone else, who understood and supported me through everytime, we have went on to have another daughter and are getting married next year!
I wanted to share my story because I truly believe now I have eventually found my 'happy ever after' xxx
BUNNY!!! I am so happy to hear from you!!! I remember your story like it was yesterday, and yet here you are with another baby and a loving man, so it must have been a while. I have thought of you often over the time you've been gone, you and some of the others who have moved on...Diff, Tres, Emz.
I could not be any happier for you...much love coming your way little lady =)
(((Hugs))) M&M
I could not be any happier for you...much love coming your way little lady =)
(((Hugs))) M&M
Wow, what an amazing story...to find him like that, I am so sorry. But so happy that you're life is happy now and that you're children and you are safe.
You must of had a guardian angle looking out for you...
You must of had a guardian angle looking out for you...
Awww thanks did you miss me lol! Yeh a really wasn't in a good place but this site kept me going, it seemed like I could connect to not only people in my situation but some also in his situation!
His addiction became my addiction and made me very ill :(
I am so happy now tho, I would change my past because it's made me so much of a stronger person, I believe it's all part ov a learning game and my life wouldn't be how it is now if it weren't for this experience!
I am not over the anger towards him, my eldest daughter has a stable father figure who absolutely adores her and she does him and now a lovely (yet very noisy) 2 year old sister :)
I just thought by posting this it may give people some hope! I know it wasn't a happy ending for my ex partner, but I truly believe his pain has gone! He was a very troubled man from being young and he is now at piece!!
I truly believe and have learnt this that you gotta really give it everything to overcome an addiction and those who do overcome it deserve a medal because I have seen the pain addicts go through everyday of their lives! They are all given the same 'smack head' names and 'thief' etc and it's not fair to judge these people!! Everybody makes mistakes and no body is perfect :)
His addiction became my addiction and made me very ill :(
I am so happy now tho, I would change my past because it's made me so much of a stronger person, I believe it's all part ov a learning game and my life wouldn't be how it is now if it weren't for this experience!
I am not over the anger towards him, my eldest daughter has a stable father figure who absolutely adores her and she does him and now a lovely (yet very noisy) 2 year old sister :)
I just thought by posting this it may give people some hope! I know it wasn't a happy ending for my ex partner, but I truly believe his pain has gone! He was a very troubled man from being young and he is now at piece!!
I truly believe and have learnt this that you gotta really give it everything to overcome an addiction and those who do overcome it deserve a medal because I have seen the pain addicts go through everyday of their lives! They are all given the same 'smack head' names and 'thief' etc and it's not fair to judge these people!! Everybody makes mistakes and no body is perfect :)
Congratulations Bunny, it was great to read an update from you...
Don't miss a thing ;)
Don't miss a thing ;)
