I'm sure that I'm not the only one dreading Sunday's upcoming holiday celebrating mothers. As moms of addicts we second & third guess ourselves all the time. We comb back through our addict's childhoods and engage in woulda, shoulda, couldas and ponder if we could have changed the course of events. We miss our pre-addict kids and all of their lost potential & wasted talent. . . And see the death of our dreams and hopes for our kids.
I don't know about y'all...but I've secretly wondered if I am a good mom....if I should be celebrated on or celebrating Sunday, too ... or should I just hide in bed & let the day pass by. If you have wondered this too, I want to be the first to tell you that you are one kick a$$ mom. It takes a special kind of mom to love an addict ... to love an addict in active use. . . To love your addict child so much that their addiction almost consumes you...to love them in spite of themselves. To pray for him/her even tho they have stolen from you, lied to you and manipulated you. to love them enough to stop enabling. And to hope that they choose sobriety...and be waiting for them on the other side of rehab with open arms and big hugs.
As Mother's Day approaches, I hope each of you celebrates how wonderful& special you are. Each one of you is a fantastic mom .... a bad a** thick skinned warrior princess .... but with hearts of gold. I want to tell each of you: HAPPY HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY TO YOU GREAT MOMS!!!!
Enjoy your weekend!
Lynn
xoxo
Lynn--
You always have such a way with words that you give me such comfort and peace of mind! I wish all Happy Mother's Day too!
God gives us only as much as we can handle and boy he must have really thought we all were tough ladies! When we doubted ourselves or fell short He picked us up, dusted us off, and sent us back in the ring!
God bless all of you on your special day! Make it all about YOU!
(((HUGS)))) Lori
You always have such a way with words that you give me such comfort and peace of mind! I wish all Happy Mother's Day too!
God gives us only as much as we can handle and boy he must have really thought we all were tough ladies! When we doubted ourselves or fell short He picked us up, dusted us off, and sent us back in the ring!
God bless all of you on your special day! Make it all about YOU!
(((HUGS)))) Lori
Thank you Lynn. YOU are a kick-a@@ MOM.... I believe you had done everything to help your daughter. like all of us - going to great lengths, jumping over hurdles and tall buildings.... and using as much of your finances as you could, putting your own needs aside.... a mere soccer mom is Nothing compared to the strength and stamina of us addict moms!
Love you ALL -- thank you all for being here at this site.... Happy Sunday.... I think I just want to stay home and make my own French toast and eggs and bacon.... the weather is going to be raining here -- Nor Easter ?
Love you ALL -- thank you all for being here at this site.... Happy Sunday.... I think I just want to stay home and make my own French toast and eggs and bacon.... the weather is going to be raining here -- Nor Easter ?
Lynn,
You are such a blessing, all of the lives you have touched, with your support and encouraging words. Kick@@@ Mom is an understatement. You are LOVE, you demonstrate the true definition of LOVE, Ive never met you but you have no idea how you helped me to mend my broken heart. Encouraged me to take the appropriate steps to protect myself and my daughter.
You didn't have to take time out of your life to do that, while dealing with your own issues but you did
I hope your Mothers' Day is kick@@@ You deserve it, you are the true definition of a Mother, sister friend, etc.! I salute you and all the MOTHER'S here on this site.
Luv :-)
You are such a blessing, all of the lives you have touched, with your support and encouraging words. Kick@@@ Mom is an understatement. You are LOVE, you demonstrate the true definition of LOVE, Ive never met you but you have no idea how you helped me to mend my broken heart. Encouraged me to take the appropriate steps to protect myself and my daughter.
You didn't have to take time out of your life to do that, while dealing with your own issues but you did
I hope your Mothers' Day is kick@@@ You deserve it, you are the true definition of a Mother, sister friend, etc.! I salute you and all the MOTHER'S here on this site.
Luv :-)
Lynn,
In case I don't always tell you. You are one in a thousand woman. Wise words, kind thoughts and even though our children didn't turn out like we had hope.
We can think back when they were ours before the drugs and relish and giggle at their antics. My son is here physically, but mentally has been gone 20 years now.
Love you to bits lady!!!
xxx Happy Mother's day to one in a million...
In case I don't always tell you. You are one in a thousand woman. Wise words, kind thoughts and even though our children didn't turn out like we had hope.
We can think back when they were ours before the drugs and relish and giggle at their antics. My son is here physically, but mentally has been gone 20 years now.
Love you to bits lady!!!
xxx Happy Mother's day to one in a million...
Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. This is just what the doctor ordered. I really needed to hear this . . . today. I went to visit Jillian today. This may have been the first time this year. Who knows. I don't keep count.
I had to sit in the car for a long time before I could go in. When I finally did, I just sat and cried. And then I sat, cried and talked. I apologized to her. I guess that's why I don't see her frequently. When I do, I always apologize. I have 2 jobs as her mom . . .to protect her and keep her safe. I apologized for failing her. I didn't protect her . . .and I didn't keep her safe.
Ok. Ok. For those of you who have been on this site with me since April 2016, you've read all about and lived through hubby's & my efforts to help her. I won't recount the list. Suffice it to say that we tried everything except voodoo and institutionalization. So, my logical mind knows and has known for a long long time that we did absolutely positively everything, depleted our savings/assets (thinking of my gofundme campaign), got ulcers from stress and worry, and scabs on our knees from praying. But my heart often forgets. . .that me, myself and I did all the "right" things . . .but none of this matters. I certainly don't feel like one in a million when I see her. I feel more like I'm worth 2 cents.
I should have read this thread and written this sooner. I'm sorry. I boycotted Mother's Day this year so I didn't read this thread until Mother's Day was a safe distance away. Y'all have been such a God-send to me. . . whether you gave me advice or I was giving advice. Sometimes when I'm talking to one of you, I'm actually talking to myself...or I learn something new about Jill or me or my feelings. So, I should be thanking you. For being the family and close friends I will never meet but honor me by sharing their lives and inner most secrets with me . . . and letting me do the same.
I'm also just trying to give back to y'all some of the strength, hugs, comfort, encouragement and advice that you provided me when Jill was in active use. . .living 1,000 miles away with her addict thug boyfriend . . .and doing unthinkable things to supply her AND lover boy's habit . . .even tho we were providing an allowance, buying food & paying rent. And . . .I write to make sure that someone learns from our experience & Jill's journey. As I've said before . . .life is too short to make all the mistakes yourself . . .learn from mine/ours/Jill's.
'Nough said. Thanks for the pick-me-up. Needed it today. Was feeling like this year's clear winner of "The Bad Mommy's Award."
Love you guys!!
Lynn
xoxo
I had to sit in the car for a long time before I could go in. When I finally did, I just sat and cried. And then I sat, cried and talked. I apologized to her. I guess that's why I don't see her frequently. When I do, I always apologize. I have 2 jobs as her mom . . .to protect her and keep her safe. I apologized for failing her. I didn't protect her . . .and I didn't keep her safe.
Ok. Ok. For those of you who have been on this site with me since April 2016, you've read all about and lived through hubby's & my efforts to help her. I won't recount the list. Suffice it to say that we tried everything except voodoo and institutionalization. So, my logical mind knows and has known for a long long time that we did absolutely positively everything, depleted our savings/assets (thinking of my gofundme campaign), got ulcers from stress and worry, and scabs on our knees from praying. But my heart often forgets. . .that me, myself and I did all the "right" things . . .but none of this matters. I certainly don't feel like one in a million when I see her. I feel more like I'm worth 2 cents.
I should have read this thread and written this sooner. I'm sorry. I boycotted Mother's Day this year so I didn't read this thread until Mother's Day was a safe distance away. Y'all have been such a God-send to me. . . whether you gave me advice or I was giving advice. Sometimes when I'm talking to one of you, I'm actually talking to myself...or I learn something new about Jill or me or my feelings. So, I should be thanking you. For being the family and close friends I will never meet but honor me by sharing their lives and inner most secrets with me . . . and letting me do the same.
I'm also just trying to give back to y'all some of the strength, hugs, comfort, encouragement and advice that you provided me when Jill was in active use. . .living 1,000 miles away with her addict thug boyfriend . . .and doing unthinkable things to supply her AND lover boy's habit . . .even tho we were providing an allowance, buying food & paying rent. And . . .I write to make sure that someone learns from our experience & Jill's journey. As I've said before . . .life is too short to make all the mistakes yourself . . .learn from mine/ours/Jill's.
'Nough said. Thanks for the pick-me-up. Needed it today. Was feeling like this year's clear winner of "The Bad Mommy's Award."
Love you guys!!
Lynn
xoxo
