I am not having the best of days here, first off, I'm sick, second I have a few confrontations to make with work that I have been putting off. I am not sure if the anxiety I am having is caused by paws (tomorrow will be 4 months) because I seem to get in these moods close to my "date". or if its just everyday pressure, I cant get myself to do some of the things I need to do, (like pick up the phone and call customers I have been putting off.) I just feel like crawling up into the fetal position and throwing my cell phone in a lake.
Regards,
Tom
some days are harder than others Tom, that whole one day at a time thing that AA boasts used to sound so, I dunno....so AA I guess, but that was before I was serious about really staying clean. Now I soooo get it.
A wise man and dear friend told me once that time heals all wounds, maybe just a day or two will be enough time.
It will get better. Just try to get through today.
Oh, and throw the phone if needed, you'll probably catch it in a few weeks anyway.
Redd
Tom
I don't remember ever reading a post from you where you sounded like you do in this post. What's up?, Just one of those days's I bet. hang in there, sounds like tomorrow will have to better than today. I have been lurking around hear so if you want somebody to listen, I can do that, otherwise, get your chin up and start doing some of those things you said you really didn't want to do and maybe that will take your mind off the other.
Good Luck
I don't remember ever reading a post from you where you sounded like you do in this post. What's up?, Just one of those days's I bet. hang in there, sounds like tomorrow will have to better than today. I have been lurking around hear so if you want somebody to listen, I can do that, otherwise, get your chin up and start doing some of those things you said you really didn't want to do and maybe that will take your mind off the other.
Good Luck
Redd,
You are absolutely right. Some days are harder than others, thank you. I guess I just needed to hear I am not alone in this, ya know.
Thanks for the laugh about the cell phone, I really did laugh out loud,
Best Regards,
Tom
You are absolutely right. Some days are harder than others, thank you. I guess I just needed to hear I am not alone in this, ya know.
Thanks for the laugh about the cell phone, I really did laugh out loud,
Best Regards,
Tom
Tom..sometimes that phone wieghs 1000 pounds. Instead of calling customers, can you call someone that is supportive? Someone who knows what you're going through?
At 6 months, I thought I would relapse. It was harder at 6 months than at 2 months. We live on a pink cloud for the first few weeks and then reality hits. We still need to learn how to feel and deal. Life is just that hard sometimes.
You are strong and you are worth this recovery. Tell yourself that everyday.
Love
CG
At 6 months, I thought I would relapse. It was harder at 6 months than at 2 months. We live on a pink cloud for the first few weeks and then reality hits. We still need to learn how to feel and deal. Life is just that hard sometimes.
You are strong and you are worth this recovery. Tell yourself that everyday.
Love
CG
here we are never alone, Thank God.
Redd
Trying,
I guess being sick (a cold) when I cant be sick is pressure enough. Its just some everyday crap that I am not willing to deal with, and it causes guilt, it turn, turns into anxiety, this too shall pass. Thanks for the ear...
Regards,
Tom
I guess being sick (a cold) when I cant be sick is pressure enough. Its just some everyday crap that I am not willing to deal with, and it causes guilt, it turn, turns into anxiety, this too shall pass. Thanks for the ear...
Regards,
Tom
Tom
What's that game I see you play sometimes, "Tag", well guess what,
TAG YOUR IT
What's that game I see you play sometimes, "Tag", well guess what,
TAG YOUR IT
Tom,
I am sorry to hear about your s***ty day. I am starting to think of stuff like what you are feeling today as simply the human condition. But there are so many wonderful feelings as well somewhere down the line it evens out. That does you no good right now. Sorry. But I get the exact same way. I sugest you call one of your customers. As hard as it is, and I know what you are going through, You might feel 1,000 times better if you can cross one thing off of your list of stupid s***ty things you need to do. I personally get so overwelmed with all the "stuff" that I don't do any of it and then I feel even worse because I know I need to do it. I might be totally off base. You just sounded like me when I get that way. I hope this helps in someway.
I am sorry to hear about your s***ty day. I am starting to think of stuff like what you are feeling today as simply the human condition. But there are so many wonderful feelings as well somewhere down the line it evens out. That does you no good right now. Sorry. But I get the exact same way. I sugest you call one of your customers. As hard as it is, and I know what you are going through, You might feel 1,000 times better if you can cross one thing off of your list of stupid s***ty things you need to do. I personally get so overwelmed with all the "stuff" that I don't do any of it and then I feel even worse because I know I need to do it. I might be totally off base. You just sounded like me when I get that way. I hope this helps in someway.
lol... trying I am still it from yesterday... so watch out...
Begood,
I have to say, you hit nail on the head.... When overwhelmed I sometimes do nothing, and that makes me feel worse, it is self detructive I think, buy why the hell I do it, I dont know.
Thanks CG, I know what your saying, but I really do not have a urge to use, unless it was a pill that would clone me... But you are right, you call it a pink cloud, I refered to it as the honeymoon period, but it does take work.
Regards,
Tom
Begood,
I have to say, you hit nail on the head.... When overwhelmed I sometimes do nothing, and that makes me feel worse, it is self detructive I think, buy why the hell I do it, I dont know.
Thanks CG, I know what your saying, but I really do not have a urge to use, unless it was a pill that would clone me... But you are right, you call it a pink cloud, I refered to it as the honeymoon period, but it does take work.
Regards,
Tom
Hey Tom,
Sorry about you having a tough day, curious though. What is Paws?
I am not sure if the anxiety I am having is caused by paws
Hope you feel better soon.
Love,
Liz
Sorry about you having a tough day, curious though. What is Paws?
I am not sure if the anxiety I am having is caused by paws
Hope you feel better soon.
Love,
Liz
hi there tom, i heard something in na about this times, such as giving chips every 30, 60, 90, 6 months etc as they are trigger times, i am not sure why however i am coming up on my 60 days and it does get a little crazy at those times. just know you are not alone and sending (((hugs))) your way.
carol
carol
Tom,
Hang in there bro. Take it one minute at a time and try not to project or have any expectations on the outcome of whatever you need to get done.
Alot of us seem to get into a funk around 4-6 months then again around a year clean and sober. We start thinking too much instead of just doing. I make a list each night, a small one, but a list of to do's for the following day. When I get up, I do my best to accomplish what I need to do, crossing each thing out as I go.
If I complete it, good, if not thats fine too, I just start the next days list with what I didn't finish. The things I make sure I do are the things that will first keep me clean and sober. I pray, make a meeting, try my best to read a little from my 12&12, and thank God for another day when I go to bed, and in between try to help another fellow alcoholic/addict. Hang in there Tom, your doing great, your right where your supposed to be, and what your feeling is normal, and what your dealing with is life. Keep it simple Tom,....Take care..........Bob
Hang in there bro. Take it one minute at a time and try not to project or have any expectations on the outcome of whatever you need to get done.
Alot of us seem to get into a funk around 4-6 months then again around a year clean and sober. We start thinking too much instead of just doing. I make a list each night, a small one, but a list of to do's for the following day. When I get up, I do my best to accomplish what I need to do, crossing each thing out as I go.
If I complete it, good, if not thats fine too, I just start the next days list with what I didn't finish. The things I make sure I do are the things that will first keep me clean and sober. I pray, make a meeting, try my best to read a little from my 12&12, and thank God for another day when I go to bed, and in between try to help another fellow alcoholic/addict. Hang in there Tom, your doing great, your right where your supposed to be, and what your feeling is normal, and what your dealing with is life. Keep it simple Tom,....Take care..........Bob
Sometimes when I feel like you do..and we have all been there..I try to do the things at work that dont involve others.Paperwork, reports etc. ANYTHING but calling and talking to people. Can you avoid things for another 24 hours? Sometimes a day does make a difference!
Thanks everyone! I did bite the bullet and dealt with one issue (the big one) and I am glad I did, It probably kept me from being sued....... And Bob, That is a good idea about a list, It will keep me from waking up in the middle of the night a thinking about everything that needs to be done.
Liz, PAWS is post acute withdrawel syndrome.
Regards,
Tom
Liz, PAWS is post acute withdrawel syndrome.
Regards,
Tom
Tom,
I'm glad your feeling a little better tonight, and glad things worked out for you with one of your issues. One step at a time is how we get things done, One day at a time is how we stay clean and sober. Good job Tom, take care........Bob
I'm glad your feeling a little better tonight, and glad things worked out for you with one of your issues. One step at a time is how we get things done, One day at a time is how we stay clean and sober. Good job Tom, take care........Bob
Hey Tom, seen you were having a rough time, hope things have settled down...
Was going to remind you of the old duct tape treatment you reminded me of.
when I was stuggling. Don't know if that would have worked in your situation. But, just wanted to let you know I was wishing good thoughts for you to get past your challenges... I have them regularly, and never forget the duct tape story... you helped me out big time that night. You have the knowledge to make the right choices... Good Luck to you... hang in there..
T-
tom,
(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((hug)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
love,
adrienne
(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((hug)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
love,
adrienne
Tom:
You rock, you are always humorous and helpful, yet you are manly and share so comfortably and sensitively. I know tomorrow you will feel better. Can't bring a good man down! I didnt know until now you had anxiety issues, as I do. What a curse huh.
I am anxious to read your "Wow I am feeling much better" post. ((((HUG)))
You rock, you are always humorous and helpful, yet you are manly and share so comfortably and sensitively. I know tomorrow you will feel better. Can't bring a good man down! I didnt know until now you had anxiety issues, as I do. What a curse huh.
I am anxious to read your "Wow I am feeling much better" post. ((((HUG)))
Tom......*wink*......my bad.....I know......feeling a lil mischievious this morning though..............could not help myself.
Redd
