I'm having a terrible day. My 17 year old is a mess and I can't stand it I just want to get high. I'm so tired of fighting. I'm tired of fighting with him and I'm tired of fighting my cravings. I'm not going to get high....I'm not. I just really want to.
This too shall pass. Hang in there. Do not use no matter what!
I am tired, sad and sore (we fought over my purse) but still sober this morning. I feel good about myself. It's been 6 months since my last relapse and I've really made some changes this time. I even quit smoking and I'm finally sticking to a diet. Today will be a better day.
Hi Jessi - 6 months - well done - you should be really proud of yourself - don't let this disease win now- you have come so far- it is always waiting to ambush us - if let, it will talk us into using any excuse to justify relapsing...... stay strong, stay clean and be proud of yourself for not giving in ...... best of luck
Hi Jesse!!!
Its so good to hear from you and that you are still hanging in there. Kids will drive you NUTS, wont they?? My grandkids are turning 18 this week and at times they act like they are 12! I need to keep reminding myself that they are just that, teenagers, and that teenagers are still growing, learning and can be fools at times. But those are the times when they need us the most.
I have had to learn to just sit by and LISTEN. When my granddaughter needs to vent I have to LISTEN.
My job as mom and grandmother has always been to "Fix things". Now that the kids are older I need to just listen to them and if they want my help they will ask.
That has been real hard for me, because I have always been the "go to" to fix things. When I hear the same venting, over and over I finally snap into my old "fix it" mode and want to fix it for them. Because that's what I do, what I did, I try to help fix it, because I love them and I want to help them. But....they are older now and they want to vent to me and figure out how to fix it themselves.
Old folks learning new things...these kids are a different generation from when I grew up that is for sure!
Anyway. I am glad you didn't let your son get to you enough to push you to lose what sobriety you have. One day at a time sweetie. One day at a time. Never lose sight of that.
Keep coming back.
granny
Its so good to hear from you and that you are still hanging in there. Kids will drive you NUTS, wont they?? My grandkids are turning 18 this week and at times they act like they are 12! I need to keep reminding myself that they are just that, teenagers, and that teenagers are still growing, learning and can be fools at times. But those are the times when they need us the most.
I have had to learn to just sit by and LISTEN. When my granddaughter needs to vent I have to LISTEN.
My job as mom and grandmother has always been to "Fix things". Now that the kids are older I need to just listen to them and if they want my help they will ask.
That has been real hard for me, because I have always been the "go to" to fix things. When I hear the same venting, over and over I finally snap into my old "fix it" mode and want to fix it for them. Because that's what I do, what I did, I try to help fix it, because I love them and I want to help them. But....they are older now and they want to vent to me and figure out how to fix it themselves.
Old folks learning new things...these kids are a different generation from when I grew up that is for sure!
Anyway. I am glad you didn't let your son get to you enough to push you to lose what sobriety you have. One day at a time sweetie. One day at a time. Never lose sight of that.
Keep coming back.
granny
Thanks Travelin man and Grannie!
I am still fine. I guess. I mean I know I'm not gonna use. I'm just going through so much. My son has mental problems. He has always been verbally abusive but now he's right on the verge of getting violent. I'm so tired of fighting. He will be 18 soon and then legally I will be able to kick him out...it makes me so sad to do that. I was homeless for so long but I know I shouldn't feel guilty I need to remember to do what I need to do for my sobriety. I was abused for so many years by his dad. I just won't live in a situation like that again. I cant.
Wow your grandkids are 18 already? I'm glad they have you. Your special thanks for always being here for me.
I am still fine. I guess. I mean I know I'm not gonna use. I'm just going through so much. My son has mental problems. He has always been verbally abusive but now he's right on the verge of getting violent. I'm so tired of fighting. He will be 18 soon and then legally I will be able to kick him out...it makes me so sad to do that. I was homeless for so long but I know I shouldn't feel guilty I need to remember to do what I need to do for my sobriety. I was abused for so many years by his dad. I just won't live in a situation like that again. I cant.
Wow your grandkids are 18 already? I'm glad they have you. Your special thanks for always being here for me.
Hi Jess,
I try to check in here every day although sometimes it gets away from me. I am so sorry you have to go through this with your son.
Please make sure to keep yourself safe from his outbursts even if it means calling the police. OK?
Being a man, even at 17, getting or being angry and being bigger and stronger than you can be a deadly combination for YOU. He has NO RIGHT to put his hands on you (neither did his dad) and you need to always protect yourself. SON OR NOT. Promise me and yourself that you will protect yourself OK?
Now on a happier note. Yes, the grandkids will be 18 this Thursday! The time went by so fast. I have a variety of pics on my piano of them at like 10 mos, 2 years,7-8 yrs old, at 13, and their 16th birthday. With Mothers Day this Sunday we are going to send their mom a birthday picture of them for Mothers Day. She will enjoy that.
Well, take care sweetie, you deserve happiness so much and you have fought so hard to get where you are today. Enjoy your Mothers Day and relax, read a book and take a moment to reflect on how your life has changed for the better. Life hands us things all the time just to keep us on our toes and you deserve the peace you have created for yourself.
granny
I try to check in here every day although sometimes it gets away from me. I am so sorry you have to go through this with your son.
Please make sure to keep yourself safe from his outbursts even if it means calling the police. OK?
Being a man, even at 17, getting or being angry and being bigger and stronger than you can be a deadly combination for YOU. He has NO RIGHT to put his hands on you (neither did his dad) and you need to always protect yourself. SON OR NOT. Promise me and yourself that you will protect yourself OK?
Now on a happier note. Yes, the grandkids will be 18 this Thursday! The time went by so fast. I have a variety of pics on my piano of them at like 10 mos, 2 years,7-8 yrs old, at 13, and their 16th birthday. With Mothers Day this Sunday we are going to send their mom a birthday picture of them for Mothers Day. She will enjoy that.
Well, take care sweetie, you deserve happiness so much and you have fought so hard to get where you are today. Enjoy your Mothers Day and relax, read a book and take a moment to reflect on how your life has changed for the better. Life hands us things all the time just to keep us on our toes and you deserve the peace you have created for yourself.
granny
