wow day 15 down...lol I dont know how I did it..without the meetings,,or one on one therapy..I am sure that works for some,,but not me that would be giving the sickness too much power,....for me I treat it like a annoying nusince..and It damm sure aint enough to beat me..I am still clean and strong on day 15..
I am in very good spirts..I guess maybe because I am starting over at 46 and this is just 1 of many hurdles I have faced and beat On the way to my new life
and I like the guy I see in the mirror and Im sure that helps..anyway just wanted to throw my two cents in,,and say there is no RIGHT way to get sober I put myself to the final test last night and went to our weekly card game,,,the booze pot and pills flowed freely,,but not for me,,lol it was a lil annoying with theses guys all being wrecked and me straight as a arrow..but it was profitable,lmao
Thanks Yall
Just dont Take them
Steve
PS where are ya skeeter
hope you are still hanging tough
The sober one normally always wins..................LOL
Glad to hear you are feeling better, it gets better everyday..I am going on 5 weeks monday.man seems it was just yesterday I found this site..
Good job.........and stay strong
Glad to hear you are feeling better, it gets better everyday..I am going on 5 weeks monday.man seems it was just yesterday I found this site..
Good job.........and stay strong
Way to go Steve. Don't get too cocky now. It'll jump up and bite you in the ole arse if you aren't careful. I'm telling you this, from first hand experience. No offense intended at all. I'm in w/d right as we speak and I'm tapering this go around and it ain't fun at all. Glad you are feeling good. Keep it up.
Hey Steve,
Congratulations on 15 days. But you know Pam is right. Musn't ever be complacent. Be thankful and ever vigilent as the cravings are right 'round the bend. If you're in a place where you could get them, you could be at risk.
Having said that, way to go on 15 days. Well done. Enjoy being sober. Different, isn't it?
Beck
Congratulations on 15 days. But you know Pam is right. Musn't ever be complacent. Be thankful and ever vigilent as the cravings are right 'round the bend. If you're in a place where you could get them, you could be at risk.
Having said that, way to go on 15 days. Well done. Enjoy being sober. Different, isn't it?
Beck
Congratulations to you. Hang in there! Alice
Hey Steve,
Way to go on Day 15... That's great! Keep doing what your doing. Remember it doesn't matter if you go to meetings or not. What matters is that your clean, happy and enjoying life.Sure you'll be tested along the way with friends and all but just stay strong and take it one day at a time. Your doing awesome.. Congrats!! Rae
Way to go on Day 15... That's great! Keep doing what your doing. Remember it doesn't matter if you go to meetings or not. What matters is that your clean, happy and enjoying life.Sure you'll be tested along the way with friends and all but just stay strong and take it one day at a time. Your doing awesome.. Congrats!! Rae
I'm just a couple days ahead of you...I feel pretty good..but out of nowhere, the cravings may come to haunt you...so be prepared...Congratulations..Sharonn
congrats on day 16, you are doing a wonderful thing for yourself!
Congratulations!!!
You sound like you're doing great so if it's working for you, then I say
keep on keepin' on.
Love,
Jean
You sound like you're doing great so if it's working for you, then I say
keep on keepin' on.
Love,
Jean
Hi Steve:
I can only share my experience with you. There are many triggers to this disease as its quite cunning and baffling.
People places and things. Steve you came on this board for recovery.
Maybe you are one of a small % that can just stop the pills. But even if you manage to stop the drugs what are you doing about changing your attitude and learning coping skills. It sounds to me that you are trying to Out Ego this disease.
When I sent you that e-mail I said BE HONEST--only you know what is really going on.
I pray your doing well today.
Take care--Jeff
I can only share my experience with you. There are many triggers to this disease as its quite cunning and baffling.
People places and things. Steve you came on this board for recovery.
Maybe you are one of a small % that can just stop the pills. But even if you manage to stop the drugs what are you doing about changing your attitude and learning coping skills. It sounds to me that you are trying to Out Ego this disease.
When I sent you that e-mail I said BE HONEST--only you know what is really going on.
I pray your doing well today.
Take care--Jeff
Hey Steve,
Congrats on making it to day 15....
Jeff: You wrote:
But even if you manage to stop the drugs what are you doing about changing your attitude and learning coping skills.
It looks to me he has changed his attitude and his coping skills. If he can sit at a table for hours with buddies using and not take a thing, if that isn't a change in attitude and a commitment to stop using, I don't know what is.. He has accomplished what most said could not be done. Perhaps, it was him getting angry at those saying he can't do it on his own that did it. Who knows. He said it himself, his dealer looked at him like ' yeah right' ... and it pissed him off. lol
As far as I can tell, he has been more than honest, telling his dealer to take a hike, then turning down a script in the ER at the beginning of his recovery. The man has guts I tell you..a powerful internal will.
Have a good one,
Brook
Congrats on making it to day 15....
Jeff: You wrote:
But even if you manage to stop the drugs what are you doing about changing your attitude and learning coping skills.
It looks to me he has changed his attitude and his coping skills. If he can sit at a table for hours with buddies using and not take a thing, if that isn't a change in attitude and a commitment to stop using, I don't know what is.. He has accomplished what most said could not be done. Perhaps, it was him getting angry at those saying he can't do it on his own that did it. Who knows. He said it himself, his dealer looked at him like ' yeah right' ... and it pissed him off. lol
As far as I can tell, he has been more than honest, telling his dealer to take a hike, then turning down a script in the ER at the beginning of his recovery. The man has guts I tell you..a powerful internal will.
Have a good one,
Brook
nicely said brook,
and its not an ego thing its having confidence and believing in yourself. doing everything you know you have that is inside of you to do what you have to do to survive.
steve, you definately want to get educated on what you can do to protect yourself incase a trigger or craving comes along. so far you are handling yourself very well. your an amazing inspiration. mostly for me when i get a craving or trigger, i talk it out with a friend or get busy doing something i enjoy or something to pamper myself its just redirecting my mind. cravings dont last very long and they do pass. i thought i would share a heads up with you.
terrianne
and its not an ego thing its having confidence and believing in yourself. doing everything you know you have that is inside of you to do what you have to do to survive.
steve, you definately want to get educated on what you can do to protect yourself incase a trigger or craving comes along. so far you are handling yourself very well. your an amazing inspiration. mostly for me when i get a craving or trigger, i talk it out with a friend or get busy doing something i enjoy or something to pamper myself its just redirecting my mind. cravings dont last very long and they do pass. i thought i would share a heads up with you.
terrianne
Brooke All i can tell you is 15 days cleantime I would not put myself in that position. Steve this is not about telling you how to run your program.
I am not judging Steve. Its his recovery and maybe he is one of the types of people that just can stop.
attitudes and coping skills? That is quite different subject IMO. We all have character defects and they played at least for me a large part of my using. And I am working on them now in recovery to understand why I react to certain situations and how I can better myself when dealing with other people.
Anyway there is no right way or wrong way to get clean IMO but I have certainly learned a lot of tools that I use daily.One of the first issue's was people places and things. My counselor asked me I would do anything and evreything to stay sober. I said yes--ended up cancelling a wedding and went to a halfway house .
I ended up on a plane to Arizona to get away from N.Y and get my 6 month chip. I ended up staying in A.Z for my 9 month chip and finally came home.Heavily involved in AA during this time. Did whatever they told me to do and things got much better. Had over 2 yrs of sobriety.
Hey we are all different. If Steve can beat this his way God Bless/ I am rooting for him.
Jeff
I am not judging Steve. Its his recovery and maybe he is one of the types of people that just can stop.
attitudes and coping skills? That is quite different subject IMO. We all have character defects and they played at least for me a large part of my using. And I am working on them now in recovery to understand why I react to certain situations and how I can better myself when dealing with other people.
Anyway there is no right way or wrong way to get clean IMO but I have certainly learned a lot of tools that I use daily.One of the first issue's was people places and things. My counselor asked me I would do anything and evreything to stay sober. I said yes--ended up cancelling a wedding and went to a halfway house .
I ended up on a plane to Arizona to get away from N.Y and get my 6 month chip. I ended up staying in A.Z for my 9 month chip and finally came home.Heavily involved in AA during this time. Did whatever they told me to do and things got much better. Had over 2 yrs of sobriety.
Hey we are all different. If Steve can beat this his way God Bless/ I am rooting for him.
Jeff
Congratulations!!
Steve - just keep thinking positive and keep patting yourself on the back. The more pride you have in yourself the more you will not want to let yourself down. You already sound like a better man. When life's problems start knocking you around, remember the pills were not the answer in the past and they never will be. "got along without them before you met them, gonna get along without them now".......I gave up cigarette smoking years ago and that was by far tougher than the pills. Each has given me such a sense of accomplishment and pride. Happy to see you are on the same road. You can be very proud!
Good for you, Steve. So how are you going to handle things when things start happening that will stress or upset you? Remember those things that would happen and you would think "OH s@@t, I need a pill"? Those things are still going to happen. I hope you are prepared for them. Don't get too cocky at 15 days, honey. The ride has just begun. You've made great progress. Fifteen days is huge. I hope you feel the same at 30.
Hello All
First of all I would like to say Im sorry if i offended anyone on the site..I am not saying or thinking I am better than anyone.Because I am not.and I would like to thank all the ppl who have given me help and kind words,, esp when I was going threw w/ds. ...But I do think some ppl are strong willed and some are not,and that is molded by the way you are brought up and live your life , do you belive I did not want to say gimme some of them perks maybe 10 different times during that card game
Well I guess thats cravings like I said..It have could have tunrnrd another way..but the bottom line is it did not ,,,some of you may say im crazy to put myself in that position.when I quit cigs after 30 years( I agree with a young lady earliar was 50 times harder than pills and 1 of my proudest acclimishments) I kept a pack in my taxi for months never touched 1.But I have always been A man to face my fears..20 years working on the streets and dealing with the ppl who get in my cab have taught me that..I have Had guns in my face..knives at my throat..stabbed in the back literaly..locked in the trunk of my cab for 36 hrs..and had 1 kid pull the trigger after I gave him the cash only to misfire,,(that was a life changing event) and im gunna be scared by a lil pill,,not today!!!So I hope you understand I am not putting anyone down im,,just differnt,, dont fit the normal mold...I look at myself and the w/ds I went threw,,and I never wanna be that sick again,,and I think If I ever took another pill I would be the ultimate dumbass...and My GIANT ego would never alow that LMFAO
and remember it aint COCKY if ya can back it up
Just dont Take Them
Day 16 down!!!
Your Freind
Steve
First of all I would like to say Im sorry if i offended anyone on the site..I am not saying or thinking I am better than anyone.Because I am not.and I would like to thank all the ppl who have given me help and kind words,, esp when I was going threw w/ds. ...But I do think some ppl are strong willed and some are not,and that is molded by the way you are brought up and live your life , do you belive I did not want to say gimme some of them perks maybe 10 different times during that card game
Well I guess thats cravings like I said..It have could have tunrnrd another way..but the bottom line is it did not ,,,some of you may say im crazy to put myself in that position.when I quit cigs after 30 years( I agree with a young lady earliar was 50 times harder than pills and 1 of my proudest acclimishments) I kept a pack in my taxi for months never touched 1.But I have always been A man to face my fears..20 years working on the streets and dealing with the ppl who get in my cab have taught me that..I have Had guns in my face..knives at my throat..stabbed in the back literaly..locked in the trunk of my cab for 36 hrs..and had 1 kid pull the trigger after I gave him the cash only to misfire,,(that was a life changing event) and im gunna be scared by a lil pill,,not today!!!So I hope you understand I am not putting anyone down im,,just differnt,, dont fit the normal mold...I look at myself and the w/ds I went threw,,and I never wanna be that sick again,,and I think If I ever took another pill I would be the ultimate dumbass...and My GIANT ego would never alow that LMFAO
and remember it aint COCKY if ya can back it up
Just dont Take Them
Day 16 down!!!
Your Freind
Steve
Hi Steve:
congrads on another day of sobriety.
Not sure if you folow the Pro's in Poker but Mike the Mouth in the round of 57 (WORlD SERIES OF POKER)getting down to the final table was just hilarious.
Anyway have a good night---
Jeff
congrads on another day of sobriety.
Not sure if you folow the Pro's in Poker but Mike the Mouth in the round of 57 (WORlD SERIES OF POKER)getting down to the final table was just hilarious.
Anyway have a good night---
Jeff
yes I do jeff
and that was great he is the ultimate intimader..I love poker.. keep watching
You will see me sooner than later im getting closer an closer on these satilte
tournys got a 12th and a 19th under my belt I will win sooner or later
thanks again for all your kind words jeff
Steve
and that was great he is the ultimate intimader..I love poker.. keep watching
You will see me sooner than later im getting closer an closer on these satilte
tournys got a 12th and a 19th under my belt I will win sooner or later
thanks again for all your kind words jeff
Steve
Hey Steve,youre sounding more and more confident everyday.From reading your posts,thats what i hear ...CONFIDENCE.Thats a good quality to have.Im so happy youre hanging tough.Just a note of precaution though,the first time i attempted this, about 6 months ago,i was clean 2 months,.feeling great,on top of the world.I found some pills in a coat pocket,carried them around for a couple days,then i relapsed.The temptation just hits you like a ton of bricks.I would have staked my life on my sobriety! I was that SURE i was never going to take them again.Just NEVER EVER let your guard down.Because it could hit you right out of the clear blue sky, just always be aware.Im not saying that this WILL happen to you,im just saying from experience,that it DOES happen.And if anybody can fight it off when/if it happens to you,you CAN ! Congratulations Steve,youre doing fantastic.Take care~KIM
