Hello guys,
Just thought I would drop a few lines to say HI and Hope everyone is doing allright today?. Im ok, went to another meeting today and it was really good. Im glad i went as everyone was so welcoming and kind to me that i felt privlaged to sit with lots of people who are so strong and brave too sit there and pour their heart out to complete strangers...It was so humbling. Im going to go to as much meetings as i can as i think they will really help. I feel that ive taken the drugs out of my life but i havent replaced it, my life is still the same as it was 3 weeks ago when i was still using drugs.
Hope everyone is doing ok, I got a keyring today at the meeting it said "Just for today". How true is that.
Take Care
Yvonne
That's terrific Yvonne. I'm so glad the meetings are giving you so much. Almost everyone has a problem with too much free time when they 1st stop. Meetings will help fill your time and help to teach you how to cope with urges. Also meet a lot of great people in the same boat as you. You are doing so well!! Keep at it!
Take good care, Beck
Take good care, Beck
Hey, Yvonne,
How you doing? That's great you went to the meeting. GREAT!!!!!!!!
I kind of think you and me got a same line of thinking. Well, heck yeah we're heroin addicts, but I know that going to the clinic is really bothering you. I mean the casualnessof the employees, and the lack of shame some of the clients seem to have.
Going to meetings sure changes that don't it? HUMBLING is right.
You're doing good, Yvonne. Little bit at a time. This is just me, but I don't think we can REPLACE heroin. Just me now. Like what else in life is like that dope? Nothing. Thank heavens. Now finding something you enjoy or can get into that's positive will definately work, but replacing that junk who wants it? Nobody.
Stay strong there Yvonne. You are truly doing excellent. Any ear accupuncture this week? Send ONE my way. When they give ya the accupuncture make one of the whatever they are for me. Thanks.
How you doing? That's great you went to the meeting. GREAT!!!!!!!!
I kind of think you and me got a same line of thinking. Well, heck yeah we're heroin addicts, but I know that going to the clinic is really bothering you. I mean the casualnessof the employees, and the lack of shame some of the clients seem to have.
Going to meetings sure changes that don't it? HUMBLING is right.
You're doing good, Yvonne. Little bit at a time. This is just me, but I don't think we can REPLACE heroin. Just me now. Like what else in life is like that dope? Nothing. Thank heavens. Now finding something you enjoy or can get into that's positive will definately work, but replacing that junk who wants it? Nobody.
Stay strong there Yvonne. You are truly doing excellent. Any ear accupuncture this week? Send ONE my way. When they give ya the accupuncture make one of the whatever they are for me. Thanks.
Hiya
Hope everyone is doing ok better than ok brilliant i hope. Thanks for your kind words (again) as the meetings are really helping me so is this board, I would just like to say that you guys are wonderful too, such caring and genuine people on this board and Ive got so much from this too, whenever i feel anxious ...like just now..lol..I just go on the board and type out what im thinking and feeling and as always i get some really constructive advice..so thanks again guys.
The hospital was and still is a bit getting to me as I know they only have limited time and staff so leave your diginity at the door and pick it up on the way out, The last time i heard that piece of advice was when i was going into labour with my daughter (16 years ago)...Im getting blooming old.
I feel ive came so far when i think of the sunday 3 weeks ago where i was lying in a ball wishing i could die as i could not take anymore, shaking from head to toe and i have to laugh when i kept saying to my mum "if only id stop sweating, if only i could sleep etc, at that point id only stop using heroin at 2am on the saturday and this was 5pm on the sunday. I chuckle to myself now as i had phoned the emergency doctor at 12 oclock that night stating i was in full blown withdrawls and being really sick and could he come out to give me something for the sickness, his receptionist phoned me back an hour later and asked me when the last time i used "20 hours i told her" OH she said sarcastically, I hope you know you have a long way to go" I felt like shouting down the receiver " I bloody know that state the obvious why dont you". Thinking about it now i was wanting a magic pill to put me out for a couple of days.....We wish eh.
At my meeting i was told to do if i can 90 meetings in 90 days, listen to some people talking about themselves n/a meetings have saved their lifes. Powerful stuff. The staff at the hospital have given me good advice but speaking to other addicts are so much better as they have experienced the same as me so all their advice is spot on and i can really relate to them.
Cheers guys for listening
Take care and thanks again to everyone who has went out their way to send me a reply.
Yvonne
Hope everyone is doing ok better than ok brilliant i hope. Thanks for your kind words (again) as the meetings are really helping me so is this board, I would just like to say that you guys are wonderful too, such caring and genuine people on this board and Ive got so much from this too, whenever i feel anxious ...like just now..lol..I just go on the board and type out what im thinking and feeling and as always i get some really constructive advice..so thanks again guys.
The hospital was and still is a bit getting to me as I know they only have limited time and staff so leave your diginity at the door and pick it up on the way out, The last time i heard that piece of advice was when i was going into labour with my daughter (16 years ago)...Im getting blooming old.
I feel ive came so far when i think of the sunday 3 weeks ago where i was lying in a ball wishing i could die as i could not take anymore, shaking from head to toe and i have to laugh when i kept saying to my mum "if only id stop sweating, if only i could sleep etc, at that point id only stop using heroin at 2am on the saturday and this was 5pm on the sunday. I chuckle to myself now as i had phoned the emergency doctor at 12 oclock that night stating i was in full blown withdrawls and being really sick and could he come out to give me something for the sickness, his receptionist phoned me back an hour later and asked me when the last time i used "20 hours i told her" OH she said sarcastically, I hope you know you have a long way to go" I felt like shouting down the receiver " I bloody know that state the obvious why dont you". Thinking about it now i was wanting a magic pill to put me out for a couple of days.....We wish eh.
At my meeting i was told to do if i can 90 meetings in 90 days, listen to some people talking about themselves n/a meetings have saved their lifes. Powerful stuff. The staff at the hospital have given me good advice but speaking to other addicts are so much better as they have experienced the same as me so all their advice is spot on and i can really relate to them.
Cheers guys for listening
Take care and thanks again to everyone who has went out their way to send me a reply.
Yvonne
Hello..Yvonne...just to say the obvious..yer doin GREAT.As ya said 3wks.ago you were in the belly of the beast...now youve got it all ahead,doin good with the meetings...they seem to be giving you that boost most of us need after getting clean.Follow yer own instincts about the proposed date..as you mentioned we can feel vunerable after coming off..very raw..nerve endings jangling away...good for the ol ego though i suppose,bein asked out that is.My p.c..is still f***ed so im in one of those brutal net.cafes..but after my recent slip with the benzos..which i used hand in hand with gear when i was activley addicted..i know i gotta post more...presume its kinda similar to yerself i.e if you put your thoughts,doubts,fears etc.down they effect your actions in a positive way.Anyway keep it up..all the best as ever....Davey
