How ya all doin? Well, I have been catching up with the posts and seeing for myself actually.
Got set up with the internet today in my new place, so I am back online which is great. The new house is grand. I have finally finished getting it sorted and it is a cool home. This will be the first place I have ever lived where I haven't been a drunk drug taker. That includes my parents house where I grew up. I have moved around quite alot, but never without the addictions. So this really is new for me, but it is great. I can trust myself because I know I am not going to embarass myself or annoy the neighbours by playing loud music at very late hours. I am feeling so much better these days. I think that first year of sobriety is hard. The lack of energy, the depression, the anger, the utter self centredness. Yuk, I feel like I am waking up out of a nightmare. I am feeling so much cleaner, and so much freer.
Still not too comfortable with the idea that I am an alcoholic though. I know really that it is kind of obvious, but there is still a little part that thinks nah, I wasn't that bad. Mmmmmmmm. Only one problem - I do not know what it is like to be a normal drinker. I have never been one. The most normally I have ever drunk was when I was a kid and Dad gave me a glass of sherry on Christmas eve. OK, so I was normal drinker aged eleven. Yeah right. One day I hope I can stop kidding myself and admit I had quite a bad drink problem.
I can understand why the AA cliche is, 'my name is so and so and I am an alcoholic'!!
Ah well, whatever. I am sober now - eternally thankful and grateful for that fact, and that is what matters.
Incredibly; being sober is so so so much better than being drunk, and I never thought I would hear myself say that!
Hi Lacey, its great to hear from you. I'm glad you are doing well. I am continuing to muddle happily along. I've got two months in as of yesterday. I know what you mean when you feel like you didn't really have a drinking problem. I feel the same way; now that I have stopped drinking and all the b.s. that goes with it and the withdrawal symptoms have subsided it all seems like nothing more than a bad dream. Some days I'm not sure why I don't drink. Its good to hear others stories it helps keep me going along the sobriety path...
Thanks for checking in...
One day at a time, Cookster
Thanks for checking in...
One day at a time, Cookster
Hi Lacey...Congrats on the new place...and the continued sobriety...Its a new start...for your new year....
I struggled myself on/off for a while with the whole "I am an alcoholic"...but like you when I would look back there was no "normal" drinking...and when I thought it all the way through from the first sip on...well...I had no more question that I am an alcoholic...
Sobriety, recovery is not always easy...it is a lot of work but so worth it....
Enjoy your new place...Love Gina
I struggled myself on/off for a while with the whole "I am an alcoholic"...but like you when I would look back there was no "normal" drinking...and when I thought it all the way through from the first sip on...well...I had no more question that I am an alcoholic...
Sobriety, recovery is not always easy...it is a lot of work but so worth it....
Enjoy your new place...Love Gina
Thanks guys. The new place is really exciting, and guess what road I live on; New Street!! Ha ha.
Went to the allotment today which has been neglected over the last month due to moving. The weeds had started to set in! I got the hoe out and sorted it and then planted some shallots. The only problem is; I have moved over the other side of the city so the allotment is a long way away! Still, gonna grow the shallots and some potatoes this year and then get an allotment over this way instead for next year.
I have actually got a small garden here at the new place so I can grow herbs, some peas and tomatoes. Can't wait for the harvest, it should be exciting and something I have wanted to do for years but the drink and drugs always got in the way!
Funny the 'alcoholic' thing. Drink problem works easier at the moment!! Actually today I heard that my sister was in the pub and I thought, uhh how horrible being stuck in a pub. I thought that!! The person who used to live for the pub!!
Went to the allotment today which has been neglected over the last month due to moving. The weeds had started to set in! I got the hoe out and sorted it and then planted some shallots. The only problem is; I have moved over the other side of the city so the allotment is a long way away! Still, gonna grow the shallots and some potatoes this year and then get an allotment over this way instead for next year.
I have actually got a small garden here at the new place so I can grow herbs, some peas and tomatoes. Can't wait for the harvest, it should be exciting and something I have wanted to do for years but the drink and drugs always got in the way!
Funny the 'alcoholic' thing. Drink problem works easier at the moment!! Actually today I heard that my sister was in the pub and I thought, uhh how horrible being stuck in a pub. I thought that!! The person who used to live for the pub!!
