Hello everyone,
It's been ages since I've last been on. Been tackling some heavy psychological sh1t connected to the valium withdrawal. It's been 6 months today since I took my last dose and ever since then the anxiety has been horrible. I would come off junk many times over compared to what the valium withdrawal has been like. I've been told it's 6-18 months for full recovery so at last I'm on the home stretch.
My agoraphobia has diminished so I'm able to leave the house but going out is still very stressful. The derealisation has almost disappeared too, so there has been a lot of improvement, it's just so sloooooww.
I haven't been able to work so I've got some real money worries. In particular a credit card that I maxed out by buying the blues online. Ah well...onwards and upwards.
Great news about the upcoming wedding KK! Couldn't happen to a nicer lady!
Hope everyone is good,
Hugs
J
JONESY JONESY JONESY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
How nice to see ya.
Wow. Dang. That is rough, Jonesy. 6 months though is real good. Congrats on that. Ya know I have heard people say the same that kicking dope is easier than the benzo WD.
Sounds like you're doing it though although slowly. Oh man with that agrophobia. That's what it's called? No! The thing where ya can't get out of the house. Longer you're in the worse. Awful, right? It's good ya got out some though.
You were buying blues online? WHAT? I could have sang to ya. Hey what were ya supposed to do though? Nothing like the Blues when ya got the Blues to cheer ya up. Then ya got them cause you maxed out the plastic. Sorry to hear that. However, you sound well, Jonesy, and I was so glad to see ya.
Keep us stright, O.K.? Stay tough.
How nice to see ya.
Wow. Dang. That is rough, Jonesy. 6 months though is real good. Congrats on that. Ya know I have heard people say the same that kicking dope is easier than the benzo WD.
Sounds like you're doing it though although slowly. Oh man with that agrophobia. That's what it's called? No! The thing where ya can't get out of the house. Longer you're in the worse. Awful, right? It's good ya got out some though.
You were buying blues online? WHAT? I could have sang to ya. Hey what were ya supposed to do though? Nothing like the Blues when ya got the Blues to cheer ya up. Then ya got them cause you maxed out the plastic. Sorry to hear that. However, you sound well, Jonesy, and I was so glad to see ya.
Keep us stright, O.K.? Stay tough.
Hey Brynda!
Thanks for the reply. Yeah I maxed out the plastic on the blues - now I've got the blues of the naturally occurring kind lol. It's some hangover that's for sure. Your singing would beat the hell out of that though!
Left the house twice yesterday to go into town. Very anxious about it but I know i have to push through the fear. What's the name of the book - 'feel the fear and do it anyway'. Now the plastic people (of the credit card variety) are chasing me for the money. And that of course fuels the anxiety - vicious circle...
Keep singing honey...
Love
J
Thanks for the reply. Yeah I maxed out the plastic on the blues - now I've got the blues of the naturally occurring kind lol. It's some hangover that's for sure. Your singing would beat the hell out of that though!
Left the house twice yesterday to go into town. Very anxious about it but I know i have to push through the fear. What's the name of the book - 'feel the fear and do it anyway'. Now the plastic people (of the credit card variety) are chasing me for the money. And that of course fuels the anxiety - vicious circle...
Keep singing honey...
Love
J
Jonesy I was really glad to see ya.
"You Got A Right To Sing The Blues".
Hey going out twice in one day is huge. Good for you.
Da*n them creditors. I pray it can work out for ya with minimal anxiety.
When ya get a chance let me know what you bought. I used to have an extensive Blues collection. The Blues always made me feel better. Alas, that all got taken to the guy who buys $15.00 CD's for a lousey $3.00. Dope was way more important. Dope took my Blues collection.
Maybe you have a college radio station hosts a Blues show? We have one here on Saturday nights. It's me, and my radio. We should write a song about how the Blues made ya buy the Blues so now it gave ya the Blues. Can't be too difficult.
Jonesy, I am really proud of ya. I know that's a difficult kick, and it takes a long time to level out. Like ya said kicking dope is nothing compared to that. So pat yourself on the back.
Much love, Brynn
"You Got A Right To Sing The Blues".
Hey going out twice in one day is huge. Good for you.
Da*n them creditors. I pray it can work out for ya with minimal anxiety.
When ya get a chance let me know what you bought. I used to have an extensive Blues collection. The Blues always made me feel better. Alas, that all got taken to the guy who buys $15.00 CD's for a lousey $3.00. Dope was way more important. Dope took my Blues collection.
Maybe you have a college radio station hosts a Blues show? We have one here on Saturday nights. It's me, and my radio. We should write a song about how the Blues made ya buy the Blues so now it gave ya the Blues. Can't be too difficult.
Jonesy, I am really proud of ya. I know that's a difficult kick, and it takes a long time to level out. Like ya said kicking dope is nothing compared to that. So pat yourself on the back.
Much love, Brynn
Yay the lovely Brynda!
Always a pleasure to get a post from you! You're like a little ray of sunshine in the gloom. And it's much needed and appreciated - Crushing anxiety today - haven't left my bedroom except to use the bathroom. Just been clinging to the bed. No sleep. At least I'm up and on my laptop now.
Letter from the plastic people today they want a full income and expenditure list plus bank statements and other paperwork within seven days OR ELSE. Opened that letter and just went into meltdown. There's no way I can get my affairs in order by then...Can't even walk, think or see straight. So They're just gonna have to wait - OR ELSE lol!
So the dope took your blues? That sucks...At least you've got the college radio station though.
keep on trucking lady Bryn
Hugs
J
Always a pleasure to get a post from you! You're like a little ray of sunshine in the gloom. And it's much needed and appreciated - Crushing anxiety today - haven't left my bedroom except to use the bathroom. Just been clinging to the bed. No sleep. At least I'm up and on my laptop now.
Letter from the plastic people today they want a full income and expenditure list plus bank statements and other paperwork within seven days OR ELSE. Opened that letter and just went into meltdown. There's no way I can get my affairs in order by then...Can't even walk, think or see straight. So They're just gonna have to wait - OR ELSE lol!
So the dope took your blues? That sucks...At least you've got the college radio station though.
keep on trucking lady Bryn
Hugs
J
Jonesy
Glad to see you. The plastic people you get someone else ring them and say you can't pay and that you're sick in hospital lie it doesn't matter whoever says that you're not there it will at least be noted down and stop the baliffs. But don't use it again or you've got no get out clause. You will have to pay it but believe me unless it's over 5k you can buy some space.
xxx
Glad to see you. The plastic people you get someone else ring them and say you can't pay and that you're sick in hospital lie it doesn't matter whoever says that you're not there it will at least be noted down and stop the baliffs. But don't use it again or you've got no get out clause. You will have to pay it but believe me unless it's over 5k you can buy some space.
xxx
Good tip Jaz. The only thing is, it is over 5K - 5,200 to be exact. Yikes! I dread the postman coming now as it's just further demanding letters. Ah well, in ten years what will it matter?
Heya Jonsey,
Glad Jaz could weigh in as well.
Jonesey just this morning I was listening to some natural therapy guy on radio. Not college radio. LOL He was saying about anxiety and all. Can you afford to get some B-Complex? There's also a thing to do with sea salt. Dried sea salt and ya take it and it fixes your adrenaline. Ours with the panic and anxiety gets all screwed up thanks to the heroin.
I'll look it up for ya. Also I swear on it. That fish oil. Omega-3. Foor mood, man that really helps. Helped with my anxiety too. I know the more I stay in the house the worse I get. Merry-go-round it is.
Oh yeah I'm a ray of sunshone alright. BWAHAHA In person you'd be like 'That whackadoodle nutter beotch". I yell at little kids and old people. Naw, I guess I'm O.K.
I'm gonna check on that sea salt thingie for ya. B-Complex and fish oil though absolutely. I know financially you're stuck, but there's some cheap brands out there that work.
Best to ya. Indeed heroin stole my blues. LOL I'll send ya some lyrics on here to make ya laugh. Blues lyrics are the best.
Glad Jaz could weigh in as well.
Jonesey just this morning I was listening to some natural therapy guy on radio. Not college radio. LOL He was saying about anxiety and all. Can you afford to get some B-Complex? There's also a thing to do with sea salt. Dried sea salt and ya take it and it fixes your adrenaline. Ours with the panic and anxiety gets all screwed up thanks to the heroin.
I'll look it up for ya. Also I swear on it. That fish oil. Omega-3. Foor mood, man that really helps. Helped with my anxiety too. I know the more I stay in the house the worse I get. Merry-go-round it is.
Oh yeah I'm a ray of sunshone alright. BWAHAHA In person you'd be like 'That whackadoodle nutter beotch". I yell at little kids and old people. Naw, I guess I'm O.K.
I'm gonna check on that sea salt thingie for ya. B-Complex and fish oil though absolutely. I know financially you're stuck, but there's some cheap brands out there that work.
Best to ya. Indeed heroin stole my blues. LOL I'll send ya some lyrics on here to make ya laugh. Blues lyrics are the best.
