thanks cowgirl.
kim how badf are the withdrawls gonna be you thoink. how have you gotten through it.
Lookin2beclean... LOL>> Lisa is right it took me a long long time to make it to a meeting.. I was so scared.. I resisted going to them for some reason, maybe I just did not want to fully admit I was an addict.... The first meeting I went to they were so nice.. Everyone treated me like I was the only one in the meeting they gave me numbers to call and I felt so at home, they were just like me all of them ... I did not feel out of place the more I went the easier it got... I have not been to a meeting this week due to working so much but I am going back as soon as I can they help me stay clean ..when I go I dont think about wanting a pill as much, it is like , when I go I feel inspired even more to do this I see people that are doing it and are happy and willing to help you day or night to have what they have.. Give it a shot ... You will not regret it and dont wait as long as I did I wish I had started going sooner.. If I can make it so can you and I will have one month clean and sober Saturday....
Evie if you dont mind my asking,you say you have refills on a script.That you arent going to fill.Did you get this for pain issues,and are you still facing pain issues? Just curious?~KIM
wow paula a month, thats awesome, i cant believe i can ever go that long, but im sure gonna try, and i am now sure im gonn to that meeting tommoorow. im sure of it. thank you all so much, i cant believe how nice your being to me. i hope i can stay around here with you all.
kim yeah i get ninety a month and my refill is for three more times, but im not gonna do it. i lied to dr. about back pain. actually let them do a surgery on me before for it. crazy and sick huh> my back dont really hurt no more though. not that it ever really did except when they cut me. lol.<<<<sick girl here.lol. evie
Wll Evie,this is my second trip around,6 months ago i had 2 months clean and relapsed after finding some pills in a jacket pocket.I've been clean this second time for just over 2 months and im really starting to feel good again.The wd's are pretty bad,theres no point in sugar coating it,but...they dont last forever.The first 5 days are the worst.After the first week it gets easier.It seems to go in stages.Im assuming this is your first time going through this? I remember when i decided enough was enough 6 months ago i was so scared and i had no idea what to expect.People kind of compare it to the flu,a BAD case of the flu,and i do think it is comparable to that.Everybody is different and some do have a little easier time than others.Personally i had a tough time of it for about 3 weeks.But you must keep concentrating on it getting better with each passing day.Everybody here has been through this and can give you tips and constant reassurance that you can make it through this.I wish you the best of luck tomorrow!~KIM
thanks so much kim, you r so brave, i wish my hubby understood, he just gets drunk and yells at me thoughl. but tyomorow i dont care im gonna hide in my room all day and make it through this. you all are so great . and yeah this is first time i go through this, i dont care though it will be the last itmime, i hate this st uff so much. but im gonna make it i juist know it. evie.
Evie, We have all lied to get pills, I never had pain issues I just like the high..still crave it to but I dont like the consquences of it.. I never thought I would make it a month I did not even think I could make it a day but I did. My husband always has pain meds around for medical reason and it is not easy to resist them but I have gotten to a point where I really wanted this and I was so tired of the craziness.. My husband hides them, and I have told him not to let me know when he needs refills my daughter takes them to the drugstore... I dont want to ever go back there... AA does help me so much and so does this board... Just keep posting and you will get the help you need.. but you really do need the face to face support also... it is very important to get some sorta face to face...
i m so with you paula, but how many people go as far as to have unnecesary surgeries,,just sick i tell you. but im gonn to that meeting i swear, no matter how bad i feel.
I have found a angry aggressave approch has worked for me but im only 5 days in,,my advise is keep busy keep posting here
Good luck :)
Steve
Good luck :)
Steve
looking, read the thread scary drug stories for Halloween...I bumped it up for you ... Like I said we have all done crazy things to get pills.. I know you can do this...
Hi I wanted to say WELCOME.I see you have gotten some good advice already.This board can really help.Also didnt you say your DR knew?I thought that you said that.If so let me say that take alot to tell your Dr your having a problem.But its better if he knows & he can work with you.I know your scared I think thats the right thing to be.Your not sure whats going to happen.Belive me when I say it will get better but you have to go through the bad to get to the good.Im so sorry your husband isnt a good support for you.The support I get here at home I know makes a big difference.I saw that some said NA & Ive heard alot of good things about that.As far as support I hear that its very good for that.Anyways Welcome Im sure we will talk again until than Take Care....mj
i gotta run guys sorry, my husbands home drunk again;
lookin,
i have done some really crazy things to get pills.I even had some teeth pulled for the dang things!! now how stupid is that? it cost a small fortune for dental inplants,and i only got 12 pills!
love,
marsha
i have done some really crazy things to get pills.I even had some teeth pulled for the dang things!! now how stupid is that? it cost a small fortune for dental inplants,and i only got 12 pills!
love,
marsha
Hi Evie..I'm back but looks like you had to go...hope you check in tomorrow.
I've had two surgieries that I don't think I needed. I'm working on dealing with those now. It's all part of the wreckage of our past and in time, you'll deal with it. There's no rush. It's baby steps right now.
Just get through the w/d's first and then the rest will come.
See you in the morning.
Cowgirl
I've had two surgieries that I don't think I needed. I'm working on dealing with those now. It's all part of the wreckage of our past and in time, you'll deal with it. There's no rush. It's baby steps right now.
Just get through the w/d's first and then the rest will come.
See you in the morning.
Cowgirl
hey guys im back if your still here
Hi Evelyn, and welcome to the board! Trust me, we've all done unreal things to get pills. Don't ever feel embarrassed to tell us about it because you'll be surprised how much alike we all are. That was the most surprising thing to me when I first came here. I thought I was unique, lol.
I can tell you without doubt that the freedom you will feel once you stop is so worth it!
It's hard to know what your wd will be like. Everyone is different. Alot of it depends on attitude. Try and get excited about taking control of your disease. Lots of things help, like drinking as many fluids as possible to flush your system. Imodium AD is very helpful.
You just might find after attending that first meeting some inner strength you never thought you had.
Educate yourself as much as possible.
Keep in mind, wd doesn't last very long but active addiction will kill you one day.
when I made it to day four of my wd, I felt like a new person. I was so happy. I felt good.....really good.
Just be willing to try.
Good luck!!!! And we're all here to support you along the way! Love, Kat
I can tell you without doubt that the freedom you will feel once you stop is so worth it!
It's hard to know what your wd will be like. Everyone is different. Alot of it depends on attitude. Try and get excited about taking control of your disease. Lots of things help, like drinking as many fluids as possible to flush your system. Imodium AD is very helpful.
You just might find after attending that first meeting some inner strength you never thought you had.
Educate yourself as much as possible.
Keep in mind, wd doesn't last very long but active addiction will kill you one day.
when I made it to day four of my wd, I felt like a new person. I was so happy. I felt good.....really good.
Just be willing to try.
Good luck!!!! And we're all here to support you along the way! Love, Kat
Dear Evie
So glad you want to get off these pills & take your life back.
I Love that you are so willing to listen & try the things that have been suggested to you............Welcome, and don't worry we have all done some pretty extreme things to get our pills, the important thing now is you recognize it and are willing to make changes
Were all here for you.........Keep posting
God Bless
Dottie
So glad you want to get off these pills & take your life back.
I Love that you are so willing to listen & try the things that have been suggested to you............Welcome, and don't worry we have all done some pretty extreme things to get our pills, the important thing now is you recognize it and are willing to make changes
Were all here for you.........Keep posting
God Bless
Dottie
Welcome to this board. I would suggest listening and sharing is the best way to start. THere are great people here and we are all here to support each other.
lovebird
lovebird
Hello,Evie
Welcome to the borad.You have already got some great people from here helping you.So,I will just tell you like someone else has .Dont feel bad about the surgies or how you have had to get pills.I know about 5 woman walking around here without teeth in thier mouth.They spend all thier money on pills and cant afford both .Its a matter of pills or buying teeth. addicts will choose the pills everytime.i have done alot to hurt many people useing in my five years od addiction and im on suboxone that has really help me.i thnik i has saved my life.I still need aa/na .i have a sponser i can call 24/7 if needed and it has really help.This person isnt a profesonal or anything like that.She is a recovery addict just as im am and im here for her as well.We have met here from the message board.We talk daily and i will tell you it really helps to talk to someone you know that has been there and done that ..My husband he didnt understand it ethier.I took him to my pys. and he gave use alot of information on addiction.Every since that day he has tried to understand my addiaction.I was so happy he went and a profesonal explain it to him.I stay up until 3 or 4 am here of the message board almost every night..He wounders what im doing .I get caught up in all this even if nothing but,reading and time will just fly by.I think if i hadnt of gotten sub. when i did i would of have done something even more stupid then i have useing.i was getting crazier everyday and i thought i cant handle this any longer.I thought i was worthless,useless,not wanted ,or loved,and giveing my husband a very hard time.I couldnt even begin to tell you what all i i have done to hurt him.Im so sorry for it and think about it alot all the suffering i went through hurting people i loved.thats what makes me not want to touch or be around any pills.I suffer from deprestion everyday.I have went cold trukey serveal times a few it was because i was out and was along time before i could get more.Twice i took them all up really fast as i always did.They just didnt do anything for me anylonger.I dont care how many i had .IIt was never enough and still couldnt be the person i use to be.I. decide to cold trukey come off of them i did it for 2 months and it was christmas time i was still weak feeling and i got 4 from a friend only ask for 2 and she gave me 4 .i thought just for tonight to get my big shopping done.Ha,the next day i was craveing .hurting and on the toliet again.I went and got more called my doctor got me a appt....And was on them alot worst then the frist time.Its a wounder i didnt OD.Another way if your husband will read pull up information on addiction.If he will read it .i printed some information out about it and made my husband read it.it help some also.Well,i wish you the best of luck ...stay strong and keep your mind off of the pills.try to keep busy which i know is hard to do.I layed mostly in the bed for about a week then started moveing around more when i did it cold trukey.....best of luck crystalURL=http://www.hotavatars.com/data/500/thumbs/38639doom0005.gif]doom
Welcome to the borad.You have already got some great people from here helping you.So,I will just tell you like someone else has .Dont feel bad about the surgies or how you have had to get pills.I know about 5 woman walking around here without teeth in thier mouth.They spend all thier money on pills and cant afford both .Its a matter of pills or buying teeth. addicts will choose the pills everytime.i have done alot to hurt many people useing in my five years od addiction and im on suboxone that has really help me.i thnik i has saved my life.I still need aa/na .i have a sponser i can call 24/7 if needed and it has really help.This person isnt a profesonal or anything like that.She is a recovery addict just as im am and im here for her as well.We have met here from the message board.We talk daily and i will tell you it really helps to talk to someone you know that has been there and done that ..My husband he didnt understand it ethier.I took him to my pys. and he gave use alot of information on addiction.Every since that day he has tried to understand my addiaction.I was so happy he went and a profesonal explain it to him.I stay up until 3 or 4 am here of the message board almost every night..He wounders what im doing .I get caught up in all this even if nothing but,reading and time will just fly by.I think if i hadnt of gotten sub. when i did i would of have done something even more stupid then i have useing.i was getting crazier everyday and i thought i cant handle this any longer.I thought i was worthless,useless,not wanted ,or loved,and giveing my husband a very hard time.I couldnt even begin to tell you what all i i have done to hurt him.Im so sorry for it and think about it alot all the suffering i went through hurting people i loved.thats what makes me not want to touch or be around any pills.I suffer from deprestion everyday.I have went cold trukey serveal times a few it was because i was out and was along time before i could get more.Twice i took them all up really fast as i always did.They just didnt do anything for me anylonger.I dont care how many i had .IIt was never enough and still couldnt be the person i use to be.I. decide to cold trukey come off of them i did it for 2 months and it was christmas time i was still weak feeling and i got 4 from a friend only ask for 2 and she gave me 4 .i thought just for tonight to get my big shopping done.Ha,the next day i was craveing .hurting and on the toliet again.I went and got more called my doctor got me a appt....And was on them alot worst then the frist time.Its a wounder i didnt OD.Another way if your husband will read pull up information on addiction.If he will read it .i printed some information out about it and made my husband read it.it help some also.Well,i wish you the best of luck ...stay strong and keep your mind off of the pills.try to keep busy which i know is hard to do.I layed mostly in the bed for about a week then started moveing around more when i did it cold trukey.....best of luck crystalURL=http://www.hotavatars.com/data/500/thumbs/38639doom0005.gif]doom
