I have almost 7mths clean. I've been struggling the last week or so. I just feel fustrated and beaten. It seems like I keep getting blindsided with new crap all of the time. I try not to let it phase me and take all of the suggestions, but sometimes I just feel hopeless. If anyone has any suggestions on how to get to solutions and stay there I could really appreciate it. Also any suggestions on how to avoid negativity and pessimism would help. I have talked to some women in my network, but I am trying to get as many ideas as I can.
try the pain pill board, more activity there.
A healthy diet and exersise helps with feeling good about yourself and it will lift your spirits when you acomplish your goals. It will help you not to feel depressed and turn your focus to something good.
Hi Young and Free,
Funny, I was just doing the same old chores I do everyday when I come home and dealing with the same crap I deal with almost on a daily basis. I thought about coming on this board which I haven't really visited since my son was strung out on crystal. I thought I'd write and say something to the effect of how much harder life would be if I was using or ran to drugs everytime I got caught up in my day to day living routine. I have been clean now for 12 years. I lost everything before that because I knew one thing and one thing only and that was to run to my drugs everytime something went wrong. I sit here and think how much harder it would be to be high and have to deal with my children who are (twins) 5yrs, one girl 15, another older boy 18 and my oldest 19.. They drive me crazy! But oh how I love the fact that I am here and they do have a mother who can deal with them and their everyday life which in turn makes me crazy. I think that I am happier now that I can deal with life on lifes terms. It is never easy but I deal. You see when life takes me to a point where I want to give up I just think of how many happy moments there are in my life verses how many crazy days there are. I am glad to be able to have fond memories of my life with my family verses forgetting their whole lives and mine. I lost so much time from my life and I don't know, it just gets better as time goes by. Once you get to a point (you have to let yourself get there) where you know you can deal with life on lifes terms well, it does get a bit easier.
Hope I made some sense to you.
It's all about choices. Make the ones that mean the most to you!
Sincerely,
a crazy but happy mother and wife today!
Funny, I was just doing the same old chores I do everyday when I come home and dealing with the same crap I deal with almost on a daily basis. I thought about coming on this board which I haven't really visited since my son was strung out on crystal. I thought I'd write and say something to the effect of how much harder life would be if I was using or ran to drugs everytime I got caught up in my day to day living routine. I have been clean now for 12 years. I lost everything before that because I knew one thing and one thing only and that was to run to my drugs everytime something went wrong. I sit here and think how much harder it would be to be high and have to deal with my children who are (twins) 5yrs, one girl 15, another older boy 18 and my oldest 19.. They drive me crazy! But oh how I love the fact that I am here and they do have a mother who can deal with them and their everyday life which in turn makes me crazy. I think that I am happier now that I can deal with life on lifes terms. It is never easy but I deal. You see when life takes me to a point where I want to give up I just think of how many happy moments there are in my life verses how many crazy days there are. I am glad to be able to have fond memories of my life with my family verses forgetting their whole lives and mine. I lost so much time from my life and I don't know, it just gets better as time goes by. Once you get to a point (you have to let yourself get there) where you know you can deal with life on lifes terms well, it does get a bit easier.
Hope I made some sense to you.
It's all about choices. Make the ones that mean the most to you!
Sincerely,
a crazy but happy mother and wife today!
Thank you guys for all of your help. I must say that I do feel much better. Things seem to be going more smoothly. I just didn't pick up, and I think that is the most important thing. I talked to a lot of my support group and I was able to come to some realizations that really helped me. It is true that don't pick up no matter what and it will get better!
Hi Youngandfree,
How are things with you lately? How is your recovery coming along?
How are things with you lately? How is your recovery coming along?
