Help

I need help. I'm 50 years old, and been through all. Just one more monkey to get rid of. And I can't seem to do it. Any help would would be helpfull.
It's so scary right now where you are but take the next step. Some times in order to get to the light you need to take a few steps in the dark. Find some support and trust that it will help. We care so post here as much as you need until you feel a little better.
You gotta want it bad. I got sober on the side of a mountain in a little log cabin in Wyoming with three foot of snow on the ground with no AA help no phone just me and the fireplace. You can do it.