Please is there someone out there that can help me ?
In my teens i was hooked on heroin, then when i turned 22 i managed to stop (moved to another country) and my life blossomed. Got married, have a son and a daughter, and my life was realy happy. Then, a year back, i started using heroin again (after 18 years !). I don't know why, what i was searching, but it happened ... Nobody knows this dirty little secret of mine, i am terrified of loosing everything i hold dear, and am truggling to withdrawal ... I take heroin for 4, 5 days, then suffer terribly for 1 ou 2 (my famly is starting to get suspicious why am i always getting such a strong flu ...), and am not managing to kick this ... Can someone pls help me, myuprodol, cataflam,. etc, are not helping and i find that when i suffer for 2 or 3 days, i lose my strenght and just want to feel better again so i take heroin again ... This has been going on for a few months now, i just feel so sad and helpless ... This is hell and i don't know how to get out of it ...
Hello and welcome. It sounds like you going through withdraw to me but im not a doctor. My suggestion is to quit or your life will get much worse. I am a recovery addict and it took me losing everything I ever had before I was willing to seek help and quit. You need a support group and the desire to quit. You CAN do this I know cause I did. HUGS
I'm sorry i've been there a 100 times myself. Using because i'm sick. I have a record of only being able to do 3-4 days of hard withdraws before I give in. I KNOW everytime I give in it's restarting the cycle. It gets so bad I usually see no other option. Are sub's or methadone avalible to you? Any real recovery time i have had has been on m-done or subs they do help. Some people can grind thru it and quit with nothing!.. I never could. If you have no way of getting done or subs I would try a rehab. At some point you may have to tell your husband. I hid using from my fiance for a long time. He found needles a few months back and I had to confess. I was on m-done at the time but, doing a detox. Try to remember every time you use again you are setting yourself up for even more withdraws later. At some point you have to decided if you are gonna stop that wheel from turning. I KNOW it's hard i'm in it right now. When your body is freaking out on you it's hard to ignore.
You must let your loved ones know and get help. You cannot hide it
I agree with everyone who posted above. The longer you use the harder it will be to stop. A lot depends on how much you are using everyday. Use a lot,have harder withdrawals, dont use too much and your withdrawals wont be as bad. Unless you are doing an inordinate amount you can kick by yourself but it will be a bit uncomfortable for a week,10 days maybe.
The other suggestion to tell your family is good too, you need to figure out whats going on in your life that you felt the need to go to this length to not deal with whatever it is.
I am on methadone as well, it was the only way I could stop but with its help I have been clean for many years.
You have choices now its up to you to make one and make it quick before this monster gets out of control.
Good luck to you,and by all means come back here. There are great people here to help you get through your journey.
Granny
The other suggestion to tell your family is good too, you need to figure out whats going on in your life that you felt the need to go to this length to not deal with whatever it is.
I am on methadone as well, it was the only way I could stop but with its help I have been clean for many years.
You have choices now its up to you to make one and make it quick before this monster gets out of control.
Good luck to you,and by all means come back here. There are great people here to help you get through your journey.
Granny
The only way you can get of drugs is if you want it. believe in yourself and be open with your family. Going 'cold turkey' can be hard and sometimes dangerous go to your doctor and tell him what you told us. if i where you i would avoid going on the methadone programme as i have seen people get worse of on methadone than herion. methadone is just as addictive as herion and to get of the methadone you need more medication. if your going to go cold turkey then you will need lots of vitamins plentyh of water and support of your family.
I am sorry,but I have to disagree about someone making the choice to be on methadone being a bad thing.
It, methadone, does not fall in to the same category as heroin because it is not classified as an addictive drug, you dont need more and more, as you would with heroin, but it does take longer to kick and can be more difficult. It lasts 24-36 hours, unlike street heroin.
The key to detoxing from methadone is to do it very slowly and to not attempt to do that until you have a strong recovery program to back you up.
To say methadone is a bad drug and that it is only replacing one drug for another is a bunch of whooey and said by someone who doesnt know anything about how it really works. For the people out there who are alive today because of the good it does will beg to differ when you talk badly about it.
Talk to people whose lives were restored with its use, not the people who use and abuse it and slam on the side and say it doesnt help. Those are the ones who give it a bad name.
It, methadone, does not fall in to the same category as heroin because it is not classified as an addictive drug, you dont need more and more, as you would with heroin, but it does take longer to kick and can be more difficult. It lasts 24-36 hours, unlike street heroin.
The key to detoxing from methadone is to do it very slowly and to not attempt to do that until you have a strong recovery program to back you up.
To say methadone is a bad drug and that it is only replacing one drug for another is a bunch of whooey and said by someone who doesnt know anything about how it really works. For the people out there who are alive today because of the good it does will beg to differ when you talk badly about it.
Talk to people whose lives were restored with its use, not the people who use and abuse it and slam on the side and say it doesnt help. Those are the ones who give it a bad name.
