Well I just had my 5 years off H May 14. Never did get much total CLEAN time thou thru it all. I've been totally off H but, i did shoot oxycottin back in December 08 "last time i've mainlined anything." I've Had several lapses with Xanax and Dilaudid. So clearly I still have some problems. Overall I'm in a good spot. I've still not figured out total recovery i've yet to take on life without some substance and that bothers me a great deal. I still toss around going back to methadone treatment "been tossing around the ideal for 2 YEARS".
Wanted to let anyone that cares to know on here you can find me on facebook. look up my e mail jenmariet77@yahoo.com i'm on there everyday i have a few friends there from this recovery board. BRYN girl if you have a facebook you ADD ME, I have you on my myspace your never on there. I miss our chats Bryn hope life is being nice to you.
This board was so helpful to me in my early days of kicking H i'm so very thankful for that. I wish I had more time to read messages are reply on here darn facebook has me hooked it takes up much of my free online time.. Many nights i wanted to use i got on here and wrote and found some peace. I never went to NA or AA or any group this board was a wonderful source of support. To any of my friends on here wondering what happend to me ...here you have it.
FIVE YEARS off the H! Hey congradulations are defo in order. Well done you. I'm barely 6 months clean and have had a couple of slip-ups and a few near misses.....in fact,come to think of it, the whole thing has been just one prolonged saga of near misses, damage limitation, exercising the "patience" gland of the kind folks on here to the point of exhaustion, a mish-mash of making the right descions for the wrong reasons and the wrong ones for the right reasons with the occasional foray into the wrong choices for all the wrong reasons after ignoring all the right advice;"wrong"-ness might as well be my middle name.
I can't concieve of a five year hiatus from the archetypal madness of a drug-house tenancy of which I am a fully paid-up resident; but I am trying. I'm trying damned hard to get from where I am to where you are. A few pointers perchance? If you get the time and feel so inclined.
With envy,
Reshie.
I can't concieve of a five year hiatus from the archetypal madness of a drug-house tenancy of which I am a fully paid-up resident; but I am trying. I'm trying damned hard to get from where I am to where you are. A few pointers perchance? If you get the time and feel so inclined.
With envy,
Reshie.
Howdy, ZG...good to see you =) I prefer HeroGirl to ZeroGirl, though.
Thanks for popping by and if you've checked any back thrads Bryn and Jack are FB renegades...never gonna happen...she doesn't even answer her email anymore...but at least she came back here to home base.
How're the kiddos? Any cool family news? I became a grandmother yesterday...can't believe it...can't stop grinning =D
Peace out ~ M&M
Thanks for popping by and if you've checked any back thrads Bryn and Jack are FB renegades...never gonna happen...she doesn't even answer her email anymore...but at least she came back here to home base.
How're the kiddos? Any cool family news? I became a grandmother yesterday...can't believe it...can't stop grinning =D
Peace out ~ M&M
MomNmore: a new grand baby that is just awsome!!. I'm smiling for you to. Ty for the reply glad to see you are still hanging around the board. I love hearing how the people are doing who have been here a while. Also anyone new is always a good change. I've been around the board way back to 2005 not too many around from back then.
reshie: Wish I had knowledge to pass on to you. Like I said i'm still fighting too. I've not had a habit in 5 years and no H but, i've not been too kind to myself either. I do still miss it & dream about it. I have been very tempted to do just a lil. After 5 years maybe that goes away for some people for me it's a thought every day that I could use again. When I quit I was done with it!. I can't allow the drama back in my life. So I know it is there I know the bad it brings. I think of H as a crappy ex lover. I know H will welcome me with open arms, then beat me down, and take everything I have.
You would think in 5 years i'ld have some awsome revelation to unveile about recovery I just don't. I do know I am more happy with me!. I do have a car, home, and job now. I'm still a addict just not with a daily habit, maybe that is progress.
reshie: Wish I had knowledge to pass on to you. Like I said i'm still fighting too. I've not had a habit in 5 years and no H but, i've not been too kind to myself either. I do still miss it & dream about it. I have been very tempted to do just a lil. After 5 years maybe that goes away for some people for me it's a thought every day that I could use again. When I quit I was done with it!. I can't allow the drama back in my life. So I know it is there I know the bad it brings. I think of H as a crappy ex lover. I know H will welcome me with open arms, then beat me down, and take everything I have.
You would think in 5 years i'ld have some awsome revelation to unveile about recovery I just don't. I do know I am more happy with me!. I do have a car, home, and job now. I'm still a addict just not with a daily habit, maybe that is progress.
It's my sister from another Mister.
Congrats to you honey. I was so glad to see ya here. I forgot it's you, Tres and me got clean in the months of May and June.
Nope, no, no, no FBing for me. I sneak on Tres's though so I can check in on some of my people's in the universe.
Lady you've ALWAYS been our Hero Girl. Your honesty has from get go astounded me. Watching you grow and be a good Mommy and your constant quest for knowledge and educating yourself in every way gives me such respect for you. Sharing all the mountains you've climbed and times of worry with your bro and all absolutely showed me that you CAN do it clean.
Missing you too.
Sorry about Oucho" Cinco getting the boot on DWTS. LOL Like you watched.
Thanks for coming over and sharing. It gives people hope. You know that.
Congrats to you honey. I was so glad to see ya here. I forgot it's you, Tres and me got clean in the months of May and June.
Nope, no, no, no FBing for me. I sneak on Tres's though so I can check in on some of my people's in the universe.
Lady you've ALWAYS been our Hero Girl. Your honesty has from get go astounded me. Watching you grow and be a good Mommy and your constant quest for knowledge and educating yourself in every way gives me such respect for you. Sharing all the mountains you've climbed and times of worry with your bro and all absolutely showed me that you CAN do it clean.
Missing you too.
Sorry about Oucho" Cinco getting the boot on DWTS. LOL Like you watched.
Thanks for coming over and sharing. It gives people hope. You know that.
Ty Bryn i've missed you.
