Hey Everyone

Well, just got news my husband will be getting the surgery on Tuesday afternoon. They aren't sure how much of his foot now they have to take. All depends on how far the infection had spread. They will know once all the test come back in.
Actually feels like some relief just knowing when the surgery will be done now. Then it will only be a matter of time and he will be home again. Have a great day all.

Love,
Liz
hi liz, i will keep you and your family in my prayers.

take care
carol
Hey Carol,

Thank you, I really appreciate it. Well, I have my son here so we will be playing video games for awhile. Take care everyone.

Love,
Liz
Liz
Well at least you know something is going to happen on Tuesday. I really hope it goes well. Its still pouring at your house I see, I wish it would at least diminish to a drizzle.

Redd
Hey Liz,
Well at least you know now what's going on. I will keep your family in my thoughts and prayers! Love, Rae
Take care Liz. Enjoy the time with your son - I know you will! My youngest has been out of school all week...man the poor kid just can't kick the stomach bug! So we'll just hang tonight which is okay by me. Another night of lying on the couch watching Sponge Bob, Ed, Edd and Eddy, etc. maybe a video too, we'll see. Good stuff!

All the best to your husband as he preps for next week's surgery. My thoughts are with you and your family. Have a good one.

Jim


Liz, at least you know what to expect now. so sorry for all of you. But at least your son is there, that'll be fun.

JR.......sounds like we're on the same channel. ed, ed and eddie.....LMAO!
Hey Rae, Redd and Jim,

Thanks guys..Jim, I hope your son feels better soon. That stomach bug is aweful and keeps going around. I was having a quiet, fun afternoon with my son. My daughter just got here and all hell broke loose, lol. The fighting begins. My son was angry because she wasn't supposed to get here until 6:30 tonight and he wanted more time alone with me, so of course he had to let her know how upset he is. Ok, I was just checking in. My daughter wants to use the computer.

Love,
Liz
Hey Carol,

Yeah, far as my husband goes, we have been expecting this for a long time. As a matter of fact we suspect he will lose both legs eventually. There is hardly any circulation in them is why he keeps having these problems with his feet. Every year for the past couple of years he's been back and forth to the hospital for these infections. Last year he had half of his foot amputated. Now it's the other foot. So, we've pretty much learned how to just deal with this.
And yeah, having my kids here totally helps me. They keep me busy and I don't have much time to think. Have a great afternoon. My daughter is still waiting. lol

Love,
Liz
Dear Liz,

I'll be thinking of you and your family through this difficult time. I can certainly understand that there is some relief, insofar as the date for surgery is concerned.

My thoughts and prayers are with you.

Ben
Hey Ben,

Thank you. Well, I got some good news today. My husband can't real regular shoes, that causes problems as well. First of all, he can't feel his feet, they are numb so he doesn't walk right in them which causes sores on his feet and of course those get infected and turns into major problems. So, medicaid is going to make him up special shoes, and they will continue to make him these shoes whenever he needs them for the rest of his life. He had a pair and they were great, but after a year they wore out and medicaid wouldn't cover them anymore. The shoes cost almost $1,000 so there wasn't any way we could afford them ourselves. So, this is great news. He sounded real good tonight when I talked to him. I feel pretty good tonight so I baked the kids a cake. Something I haven't done in awhile. I usually buy them. lol. Ok, don't want to ramble too much more, I'm very tired only got maybe 3 hours sleep last night, so, I'll probably just read some of the threads and hope my son gets sleepy early tonight. lol.

Love,
Liz
Hi Liz,
I will be keeping your husband as well as you in my prayers. I hope that everything goes well for him on Tuesday. I think you all need a break there.
I see you got some good news, I am sure that you both were happy to hear something positive for a change......
Enjoy your time with you son and keep the faith.......
Love,
Tina
Hey Everyone,

Got a call from my husband this morning telling me to come and get him out of the hospital. I don't know what to do. See, He's withdrawaling from cigs, then last night he was supposed to get pain medication and somebody messed up on the time. He had to wait an extra hour and half. But then they tried giving him something, he asked them what it was. The nurses last night didn't know. he told them he won't take it unless he knows. Well this morning he found out it's heart medication. So, he asked wtf are you giving me heart medication. Nobody knows why. One nurse said maybe they prescribed it for his circulation problem, but my husband said that he was told yesterday the circulation isn't that big of a problem.
So, he wants out, I don't know what to do. Maybe they had a legit reason to be giving him that? I sometimes wonder if the real problem is he getting on edge when he doesn't have the pain meds, because of the pain level? Or is it because of the addiction?
Maybe it's both. I'm not sure if I want this place to do the surgery though.
Liz,
Maybe you should just go to the hospital and see whats going on. It sounds like some miscommunication going on there. I don't blame your husband for not wanting to take something he doesn't know what it is.

Good luck, girl

Redd
ok, decided to take out that post.
Oh yeah, By the way, Thanks Redd....He is going to have to figure this problem out. I can't. Talk to everybody later.

Love,
Liz
hey liz,

i saw the post before you edited it and you know what, thers nothing wrong with expressing honesty. i admire that and that is what is going to get you the best support. dont be ashamed/embarrassed or whatever. thats your addiction talking and we all know that. we have all done similar things and even some worse. thats what we're here for. to support and help. it sucks that you cant be more supportive for your husband because of your addiction but i am willing to bet he understands and is proud of you. as you should be proud of yourself as well. your doing the right thing. as addicts we all know better and no one looks down on you for that.its those steps and strides you are taking to help build your strength and confidense in yourself. please feel good about that. you definately are making progress slowly but surely i can see it in your post. your not giving up and your still here, that counts for something and says alot.

(((hugs))) for you today. keep trying and never give up.

terrianne
Hey Liz, sorry I didn't see your thread until just now, you know weekends and kids. Wow, you're being hit with alot at once. I hope everything turns out okay. Sorry I haven't been online, but know I'm here for you if there's anything I can do to help. I think your husband and kids are so lucky to have you, you remember that too. Love you, Kat
Hey Terrianne and Kat,

Terrianne, what I was trying to say earlier is my husband isn't helping my problem at all. I should be strong and just do this on my own but I'm finding it hard. Everytime I try and get clean he seems to help sabotage it. I've told him so many times how much being like this is killing me. And yet he had to tell me about oxys and alcohol hidden in the bedroom. Just always helping to make sure I feel better I guess.
Kat, the weekend with the kids, well it's not going so well. I was looking so forward to seeing them and then I got hit with something today that really devastated me. I'm not going to get into it. I was already down and I didn't need that too is all I can say. I'm not sleeping at all. I can't even help my husband now. I haven't seen him since he's been in the hospital and I just can't seem to function anymore. The methadone has really messed me up. Worse then alcohol or coke and weed I've gotten passed. I can't even tell you how desperate I've become today to not feel this pain. Oh well, nothing I can do about anything today except try to salvage some of this time with my son who is desperately trying to get my attention. I'm just so messed up today.
I'm sorry to hear that Liz. I can't imagine what you've been hit with, you've already had so much. Hang in there and try to enjoy your time with your son the best you can. You know how wonderful you are in his eyes. Stiff upper lip, Gf, you can do this. Come find me if you need me, I'm here for you. Love, Kat