Hi everyone
Thanks for being so cool an asking how i am etc. In reply to my last post to the board.....
I am doing fine, I am 7 months into my DRR program (Drug Rehabilation Requirment), out of 72 mouth swab test, I have tested positive for opiates just 6 times.....I think i have done well : )
Even so, no body else believes me when i tell them this - they cant seem to understand that people can change, or maybe they just dont want to believe it.
I am seeing my son every weekend(still) and have been having some great days out with him during the summer.
Here is a slideshow if you are interested :
http://pixislide.com/slideshow.php?albumID=1395
Im still finding life kinda hard after the death of my mum back in february, but im movin on as much as i can, an so are my family - who i see more often now.
In all things are looking better, this year has been one of the hardest of my life yet, so im glad that at the minute im feeling cool.
Take Care You Guys an i will try an get on as much as possible....if they let me lol
Oh, an if anybody wants to email me they can, i will always email u back - or msn/yahoo....
See Ya
TINMAN
rock on --hes a cutie--good job on the clean swabs--feels good huh--what are your requirements ?? seems like you are ready for a different life and are truly making changes--thats so awesome to hear--its not impossible i remember the first time i went into a rehab, i was so vulnerable to what others thought and wha ti was told i believed evrthing anyone told me so obviously i was morified when my counselor told me only 12% of opiate addicts live to see recovery--i doubted id be in that 12%--what a crock how could you say that to a scared sick 19 year old who has just gotten her 4 day old first born child taken fromher--even if it was true dont say that--anyway we are proving them wrong--keep it up
Tinners, what's up?
Miss ya mad man.
I can't get that slideshow to work, but I'm glad you're seeing your son.
I'm mighty thankful you're doing O.K. Keep up the good work, you!
Miss ya mad man.
I can't get that slideshow to work, but I'm glad you're seeing your son.
I'm mighty thankful you're doing O.K. Keep up the good work, you!
Welcome back. We've never posted to one another, but I followed the fireworks last time around and am glad you made it through okay. Saw the slideshow and it's clear you love that boy - what a handsome child he is, and the resemblance is def there. Good on you for getting where you are - he makes it all worthwhile, no?
Peace out~MomNMore
Peace out~MomNMore
Welcome back Tinny.............you look great and your son is so cute and could tel he loves his daddy so.......I am so proud of you and u should be of yourself..........keep the strength
Alrite Tin....things sound like yer doing well....whatever anyone else thinks ..you know it and thats what counts.Saw the pics ya got a good boy there..he will turn a few girls heads soon...like yer dodgy shades as well lol..very Paris Hilton.Good luck to ya for the future and it must be great seeing yer family more.ATB mate.........Davey
You made a handsome boy Tinman, I'm real glad your spending time with him also. Fathers are so important in their childs life. Thank you for sharing that with us. It's Good to see you posting here.
Hey thanks davey ..
Those sunglasses certainly cause a few heads to turn lol I have had nothing but sarcastic comments ever since i first got them ..."Wheres the ski slope" "Whers the guide dog" and "Did ya get them out of your kids toy box??" lololol
But i like them so ther !! Its cool to be different dontcha think ??lol
Glad u all like the pix, im sorry bry that you couldnt see it - must be your fault not mine as everone elso see it ..i will send you a pic to your email in a min ...
Well today is a kinda sh** day as i hav to goto the police station in the next town to have a viper thingy done (like a video id parade) an you no wat for ??
Coz they think i stole 3 packets of razor blades (value 23.97) in April last year ..
Man, do they have nothin better to do wiv ther time ??
An i wouldnt mind ..I DIDNT DO IT !!! LOL - now i no evryone says that, but i realy didnt do it ...an it was so long ago anyway ...why are they bothering ....all they have is sum dodgy cctv footage inside sainsburys (a supermarket) of someone that resembles me (i hav to say that he does look a lot like me) but isnt me....an that is it....i already have been pulled out of bed at 7am an questioned about it wher i said i didnt do it ...but they are deternined it was me ,.,an so here we are ...ID parade by computer ...how dumb can u get ???
I am so annoyed that they put me in a cell the other day when they arrested me for it - i thought those days were well and truly over - it seems that u are forever tarnished wher the police are involved, they think u can never changfe obvioulsly, i was so annoyed to be sitting in a policecell agin - it has been over a year now since i came out of prison and sed "That is it - no more"...an i thought i would never be back in a cell - it seems i was wrong.....
Anyway ... it has to be done so im off in a minute to go an do it .....
Other that that , i am just sitting around doing this an that ...just getting better on the pc really (as you can tell by my slide show , i am a little mor computer literate now ) ....
Okay...have a nice day folks...
An thanks to all your nice comments, specially those who dont know me really ...nice 2 meet you all....
See Ya soon
TINMAN
ps i will post sum mor pix soon...specially for u bryn :)
Those sunglasses certainly cause a few heads to turn lol I have had nothing but sarcastic comments ever since i first got them ..."Wheres the ski slope" "Whers the guide dog" and "Did ya get them out of your kids toy box??" lololol
But i like them so ther !! Its cool to be different dontcha think ??lol
Glad u all like the pix, im sorry bry that you couldnt see it - must be your fault not mine as everone elso see it ..i will send you a pic to your email in a min ...
Well today is a kinda sh** day as i hav to goto the police station in the next town to have a viper thingy done (like a video id parade) an you no wat for ??
Coz they think i stole 3 packets of razor blades (value 23.97) in April last year ..
Man, do they have nothin better to do wiv ther time ??
An i wouldnt mind ..I DIDNT DO IT !!! LOL - now i no evryone says that, but i realy didnt do it ...an it was so long ago anyway ...why are they bothering ....all they have is sum dodgy cctv footage inside sainsburys (a supermarket) of someone that resembles me (i hav to say that he does look a lot like me) but isnt me....an that is it....i already have been pulled out of bed at 7am an questioned about it wher i said i didnt do it ...but they are deternined it was me ,.,an so here we are ...ID parade by computer ...how dumb can u get ???
I am so annoyed that they put me in a cell the other day when they arrested me for it - i thought those days were well and truly over - it seems that u are forever tarnished wher the police are involved, they think u can never changfe obvioulsly, i was so annoyed to be sitting in a policecell agin - it has been over a year now since i came out of prison and sed "That is it - no more"...an i thought i would never be back in a cell - it seems i was wrong.....
Anyway ... it has to be done so im off in a minute to go an do it .....
Other that that , i am just sitting around doing this an that ...just getting better on the pc really (as you can tell by my slide show , i am a little mor computer literate now ) ....
Okay...have a nice day folks...
An thanks to all your nice comments, specially those who dont know me really ...nice 2 meet you all....
See Ya soon
TINMAN
ps i will post sum mor pix soon...specially for u bryn :)
Tinman that's nutty about the razor blades. I DID STEAL razors "years ago" i got caught going out the door. They did not call the police. It was only like $12.00 I was gave a fine by the store I had 10 days to re pay the store + a $25.00 theft fine. I was banned from going in that store again. It was honest no big deal at all. You would think the police would not be spending money and time on a simple razor blade stolen. I had the money on me to pay for it i stole it because to pay for it was cutting into my dope money. It was stupid it was the last time i stole from a store. I never had court or anything over the matter. I do think if i had not paid the fine i would have had to go to court. Blows my mind that the police are going After ya like you held up a store at gunpoint lol.
..Tinman..
..Welcome back ;) ..Robbie..
..Welcome back ;) ..Robbie..
Alright Tinman? Glad to hear all is going well with the MDT's keep it up, your wee boy's a cracker, like the shades....peace, Kev
Your son has beautiful eyes. A future ladykiller. For sure!
Tinner, I hope ya got home O.K. from your razor blade caper punishment.....that is crazy.............let us know you're alright.
Oh yeah ya got an evil twin, huh? No way there could be two of you.....that's wild.........two, two Tins in one.
Oh yeah ya got an evil twin, huh? No way there could be two of you.....that's wild.........two, two Tins in one.
Dear Tinman,
So GREAT to hear from you!!!! I'm so glad you're doing so much better and you're getting to be more active with your family. Your son is ADORABLE!!!! It looks like you have a lot of fun together. That's wonderful!
I am sure your mom is with you in spirit. As a mom, they wouldn't be able to call it heaven if God didn't allow us to have some contact with our children! I lost my mom a year ago in May and it takes time and some effort on your part, but you can come to sense them with you. I am so sorry for your loss.
I'm proud of how well you are doing. Keep up the good work!
Love,
Susan
So GREAT to hear from you!!!! I'm so glad you're doing so much better and you're getting to be more active with your family. Your son is ADORABLE!!!! It looks like you have a lot of fun together. That's wonderful!
I am sure your mom is with you in spirit. As a mom, they wouldn't be able to call it heaven if God didn't allow us to have some contact with our children! I lost my mom a year ago in May and it takes time and some effort on your part, but you can come to sense them with you. I am so sorry for your loss.
I'm proud of how well you are doing. Keep up the good work!
Love,
Susan
Hi Tinman
Well done on your DRR programme you really should be proud of yourself. I looked at your slideshow and your son is sure going to break some hearts, you can see how much love he has for his dad too.
I haven't been on here for a while, had a hard time over the summer with my little girl. She's been on and off detox, so much to tell you. She was supposedly almost clean by way of street methadone thanks to her dealer boyfriend, ain't he the angel grrrrrrrrrrrr! Well like you told me before I have to stay strong and not keep blaming myself , very hard but I've worked at it.
You see she'd stopped injecting and cut right down on the gear, only having the odd spliff. Her drug worker and doc where pleased with how well she was doing.
She even got a job. About 4 weeks ago she started on the Monday and on Thurs morning I caught her injecting again. Yeh not only had she gone right back on it, if she was ever really off it but back to injecting.
It was more devastating than finding out the very first time, because at least then I had some kind of hope for her.
I really lost it big time, really I frightened myself. I think EVERY possible emotion came out all at once and I found myself just screaming at her, shaking her. I even tried to grab the pin out of her arm (not a very sensible thing to do I know). At that particular moment for a minute I hated her and slapped her arm really hard. It was at that moment I knew this was the very point I'd reached the end of all I was prepared to do for her. I also knew I had to walk out of her room because I honestly couldn't trust myself not to kill her. It frightened me so much that I could have such feelings, that I could barely stand.
I told Sarah that was it and as far as I was concerned she was not living under my roof any longer. I also put her belongings into black bags and dumped them on the doorstep of her so-called boyfriend. She text me and begged me to believe she was only doing it for a few days until she got more methadone. I told her not to insult my intelligence any more and this was the end. Its been the hardest thing I've ever done but I've kept my word and hope to think you'd have been proud of me Tinman. I remembered all your advice and support and though its been some journey and a long time to get there I've finally resorted to TOUGH LOVE. I hope Sarah does stick with her job and makes good. Deep down she has what it takes, she just has to find herself again. Only this time I won't be there.
Sorry its a long post but like I say loads has happened and I haven't been on for ages.
Take care and stay good on ya programme - you've been my inspiration Tinman.
Love Christina x
Well done on your DRR programme you really should be proud of yourself. I looked at your slideshow and your son is sure going to break some hearts, you can see how much love he has for his dad too.
I haven't been on here for a while, had a hard time over the summer with my little girl. She's been on and off detox, so much to tell you. She was supposedly almost clean by way of street methadone thanks to her dealer boyfriend, ain't he the angel grrrrrrrrrrrr! Well like you told me before I have to stay strong and not keep blaming myself , very hard but I've worked at it.
You see she'd stopped injecting and cut right down on the gear, only having the odd spliff. Her drug worker and doc where pleased with how well she was doing.
She even got a job. About 4 weeks ago she started on the Monday and on Thurs morning I caught her injecting again. Yeh not only had she gone right back on it, if she was ever really off it but back to injecting.
It was more devastating than finding out the very first time, because at least then I had some kind of hope for her.
I really lost it big time, really I frightened myself. I think EVERY possible emotion came out all at once and I found myself just screaming at her, shaking her. I even tried to grab the pin out of her arm (not a very sensible thing to do I know). At that particular moment for a minute I hated her and slapped her arm really hard. It was at that moment I knew this was the very point I'd reached the end of all I was prepared to do for her. I also knew I had to walk out of her room because I honestly couldn't trust myself not to kill her. It frightened me so much that I could have such feelings, that I could barely stand.
I told Sarah that was it and as far as I was concerned she was not living under my roof any longer. I also put her belongings into black bags and dumped them on the doorstep of her so-called boyfriend. She text me and begged me to believe she was only doing it for a few days until she got more methadone. I told her not to insult my intelligence any more and this was the end. Its been the hardest thing I've ever done but I've kept my word and hope to think you'd have been proud of me Tinman. I remembered all your advice and support and though its been some journey and a long time to get there I've finally resorted to TOUGH LOVE. I hope Sarah does stick with her job and makes good. Deep down she has what it takes, she just has to find herself again. Only this time I won't be there.
Sorry its a long post but like I say loads has happened and I haven't been on for ages.
Take care and stay good on ya programme - you've been my inspiration Tinman.
Love Christina x
