just wanted to see if you were back from the dr. and what did he say. i sure miss ya when you aren' t on here well i guess i better go work a while before i get fired huh
lots of love
johnny
Hi my favorite brother(my only one)I just got in.The Dr wants me to try lexapro but I don't know.I need to reach it before I take it.I just dont trust many Dr.To answer your questions from your email.I am addicted to tramadol.I was up to 14-16 a day.I am now down to 9-10 which is a jump for me.The Dr prescribes it as 8 per day and I'm hopen I can get to that.After that happens I'll see whats next.I am trying REALLY REALLY hard to better myself.That way I can begin to live again and not hide from living.I wish I could take the credit for my lower dose but really if I didn't have the support from all of you I would probaly keep going as I was.And probaly end up dying.That is one reason I really want to learn about God and the higher powers maybe that will help calm my rocky soul.I hope your day is going good for you.DID YOU DO WHAT YOU WERE SUPPOSE TO YOUNG MAN?meaning your paper work.This is no time to get lazy your future is right ahead waiting to be lived.Anyways I need to get my place picked up before my girl gets in from school.So I hope I can get back here later to check on everyone.You all mean so much to me and I'll tell you ALL if I ever hit lotto all of us are going on a long cruise!!!!!take care...mj
A cruise sounds nice. I will say Mj, my girlfriend was on lexapro and she hated it. Very absent minded and hard to get off of as well. Research it hard and long before taking it,please.... She took it because she was suicidal at one point in her life and they had her in the mental hospital and prescribed it to her there.She used to call lexapro her"happy pills" but she wasn't so happy when they ran out. So please don't get strated on something else that is going to make your life any harder. I love ya girl and I ony want to help you. I know it may work wonders for some but you are struggling to get clean from pills all together and adding one more to your plate evry morning is only going to bring your further down in the long run,just my opinion!! If only we could program our minds to a certain drug that we loved and that is the way we would feel 24/7 that would be great,huh? Anyway,glad to hear about your day and I have got to run. Did you get the picks I sent to your hotmail account today???? Let me know.... Much love,Rae
Hi Atoz, you are a good brother to Mollyjean she nees that right now.. Hope you have a good day as well. take care!
Hi Atoz, you are a good brother to Mollyjean she nees that right now.. Hope you have a good day as well. take care!
Hi Rae I can't really talk right now but yes I did get your pics and I must say youll all look so good.I'm trying to send a couple of the ones I sent to you to johnny but I cant see to do it.I really gotta go the house is messy and my girl will be home soon.I'll write ya later OK/ ...mj
heysweetie
yes i did get all my paperwork done but that goofy couselor i went to see tuesday didn't tell me i neededto have my high school transcripts so i got on the phone about all that they said it would probably be about another week, so i called the school back and they told me the deadline to reg. for classes in the winter was up dec.10could have rungthe counselors neck he never toldme that when i went to see him on the 13th it really got me upset but i have calmed down now i will get everything ready and register for the spring quarter in april and by that time i can get some books maybe do some studying and kinda be ahead of the game come april. well enough about me now lets talk avout you that tramadol is some awful stuff. when i first startedgetting put on pain pills basck in 1998 they put me on ultram, well i didn' know much about it . the dr. told me it was non narcotic and wasn't addictive, well ha was a lieing s. o. a. n. n. g. (son of a no name goat) they were awful when i tried to come off of them i didn't know what it was ,but someone told me it was withdrawels so the rollercoaster started, i have a legit reason for being on pain meds but i would like to try without them if i could just get past the w/d's well i kept getting more and more of stronger pills and now the dr has me prescribed 8 10mg methadone a day i have cut it down to 2 1/2 per day in about 10 days i will go down to 2 per day and so on. the reason being the methadone is so hard to come off of cause it has such a long lasting effect it takes alot longer to get out of your body so thats my story . just remember honey, we are in this together and we can beat it and i love you alots and i love alot of people on this board. mistyeyes, bad attitude have become my closest friends and now you of course danny and so many others they are terrific. keep on going you will get through. just keep asking God to reveal himself to you in a real way and he will. i will find that book and send it to ya it will help,til then.
sending the purest love
johnny
yes i did get all my paperwork done but that goofy couselor i went to see tuesday didn't tell me i neededto have my high school transcripts so i got on the phone about all that they said it would probably be about another week, so i called the school back and they told me the deadline to reg. for classes in the winter was up dec.10could have rungthe counselors neck he never toldme that when i went to see him on the 13th it really got me upset but i have calmed down now i will get everything ready and register for the spring quarter in april and by that time i can get some books maybe do some studying and kinda be ahead of the game come april. well enough about me now lets talk avout you that tramadol is some awful stuff. when i first startedgetting put on pain pills basck in 1998 they put me on ultram, well i didn' know much about it . the dr. told me it was non narcotic and wasn't addictive, well ha was a lieing s. o. a. n. n. g. (son of a no name goat) they were awful when i tried to come off of them i didn't know what it was ,but someone told me it was withdrawels so the rollercoaster started, i have a legit reason for being on pain meds but i would like to try without them if i could just get past the w/d's well i kept getting more and more of stronger pills and now the dr has me prescribed 8 10mg methadone a day i have cut it down to 2 1/2 per day in about 10 days i will go down to 2 per day and so on. the reason being the methadone is so hard to come off of cause it has such a long lasting effect it takes alot longer to get out of your body so thats my story . just remember honey, we are in this together and we can beat it and i love you alots and i love alot of people on this board. mistyeyes, bad attitude have become my closest friends and now you of course danny and so many others they are terrific. keep on going you will get through. just keep asking God to reveal himself to you in a real way and he will. i will find that book and send it to ya it will help,til then.
sending the purest love
johnny
Good morning johnny,there must be a reason for the paperwork to be all jumbled ya know.Maybe you are just suppose to wait until spring ya know.I'm kinda sad this morning but not because of pills or anything its kinda on something real close to my heart that I just can't go into on the board ok?As far as the stupid tramadol,I read yesterday that this rap singer(ODB)od on tramadol and coke.Good thing I never was much into that.Now if I could only say that about tramadol.I 2 have real pain issues but it makes me so angry at the Dr They say ...its habit foarming but not addictive what the heck is the difference?Either way its one heck of a fight.I use to but the meth off the streets,yes I'll say that I really liked it but the lady got busted which is a blessing because I know I have a weakness for that.I wish I didn't feel so sad.I'm gonna download Margeritaville(jimmy Buffet)Johnny please send a hug and some prayers my way.I hate feeling all meleoncahly ya know.Well my friend I'll be around so keep intouch....mj
molly here is a prayer
may the lord make his face shine on you and may he make himself real to you may he take on this burden so you don't have to an may the joy of the lord be your strength
love johnny
p.s. remember you have my e-mail if you want to talk more privetly i'll always be there for you after all what are brothers for
may the lord make his face shine on you and may he make himself real to you may he take on this burden so you don't have to an may the joy of the lord be your strength
love johnny
p.s. remember you have my e-mail if you want to talk more privetly i'll always be there for you after all what are brothers for
Thank you my brother yes I have your email and I've been trying to send you pics of me and mine so you can see what we look like but I'm having problems with my outlook express but I'll figure it and find away.Take care love your sis mj
Dear Johnny go to your email I need to ask you something ok..mj
