Hi Jess,
I saw that you just posted...how are you today? Hope all is well.
We are all hanging in.....let me know how things are going....
Take Care,
Tina
Hey Tina. I am doing ok today! I had dreams about pills last night. I hate when that happens because it is kind of a trigger. But I have less and less dreams, so things are getting better. The thing is, I KNOW that I would never take a pill while being pregnant, but I still think of them! It's horrible! Thoughts just pop in my head and I can't control them! I thought the other day, I could get pain pills from giving birth! Now, that is awful, not to mention I didn't get pain pills after my last 2 births! It just popped in my head. I hate this disease and I wish I'd never even heard of pain pills. But, I'm ranting....sorry. How is your husband doing? How much time does he have now? Is it getting any easier? You are both working so hard and I know that it will all pay off soon, if it hasn't already. Love---Jess
Hey Jess,
Sorry about all the pill dreams......and the crazy thoughts. I know it is hard but try now to pay attention or entertain the thought. No getting pain pills after delivery either......you shouldn't even be thinking about that. I do know you would never take them now but I think you know that after the birth will be the hardest. So you have a while to get your head together and get those thoughts under control.
He is doing good....coming up on 3 weeks clean again but Wedensday he will be on sub for 2 weeks. He is only taking 4 mgs a day, he dropped his dose. Things are good which is scary.....you know how you wait for the other shoe to drop lol Thats what I think about some time.....I hate thoughts like that......Guess we both have some things to kick out of our brains!
You take care....will be peeking in, if you need anything let me know,
Tina
Sorry about all the pill dreams......and the crazy thoughts. I know it is hard but try now to pay attention or entertain the thought. No getting pain pills after delivery either......you shouldn't even be thinking about that. I do know you would never take them now but I think you know that after the birth will be the hardest. So you have a while to get your head together and get those thoughts under control.
He is doing good....coming up on 3 weeks clean again but Wedensday he will be on sub for 2 weeks. He is only taking 4 mgs a day, he dropped his dose. Things are good which is scary.....you know how you wait for the other shoe to drop lol Thats what I think about some time.....I hate thoughts like that......Guess we both have some things to kick out of our brains!
You take care....will be peeking in, if you need anything let me know,
Tina
Yeah, I know that I need to keep my head clear of "unclean" thoughts. I think that when the baby comes I will be too busy to worry about pills. At least I hope so. It seems like when things start to go good, there is always that fear of "how long can this last", so I know what you mean. Love you! Jess
Hey Jess and Tina-
Just wanted to say HI!! Jess, I know what you mean about those dreams - they are really horrible. I've woken up shaken and in a cold sweat, really. Its unreal. But the dreams are so vivid. I hope they go away soon. And, yes, with the new baby, you will definately be busy.
Tina - just checking in. I have my beautiful grandaughter, Kylee with me today, but she's napping right now - should be waking any time now though. Boy, does she keep me on my toes - she just turned a year old on the 5th and is into EVERYTHING!! Take care sweetie.
Love,
Marie
Just wanted to say HI!! Jess, I know what you mean about those dreams - they are really horrible. I've woken up shaken and in a cold sweat, really. Its unreal. But the dreams are so vivid. I hope they go away soon. And, yes, with the new baby, you will definately be busy.
Tina - just checking in. I have my beautiful grandaughter, Kylee with me today, but she's napping right now - should be waking any time now though. Boy, does she keep me on my toes - she just turned a year old on the 5th and is into EVERYTHING!! Take care sweetie.
Love,
Marie
Hey Marie,
I am going insane.....got 2 of them running around mine and the little one I watch. So of course I am not getting anything done.......Nap time is closing in, I love nap time. Some days I am napping right along with them because they ran me crazy.
You take care....will talk to you later,
Hugs,
Tina
I am going insane.....got 2 of them running around mine and the little one I watch. So of course I am not getting anything done.......Nap time is closing in, I love nap time. Some days I am napping right along with them because they ran me crazy.
You take care....will talk to you later,
Hugs,
Tina
Hey Marie! Sorry I am just getting back to you. Week days are crazy for me; I am hardly ever home during the day! Yes, I know about the dreams! It's like they really happen!!!! And when I first wake up, I think "Oh, I don't REALLY have a whole bottle of pills!" It's bad. So, how are you doing today? My dog (blonde lab) knocked my Christmas tree down!! I had to redo the whole thing! It's been snowing ALL day here. It's so pretty, but I HATE being cold! I don't even want to leave the house! But that's an impossibility. Anyway, I'm feeling ok today. I am very moody. I feel good one minute, then I feel depressed. But what can I do? ---Jess
Jess-
I'm so sorry that your dog knocked down your Christmas tree down. I absolutely LOVE my tree this year - have gotten several compliments on it. It's all in gold balls and off white and gold satin bows and ribbons with a beautiful angel at the top (gold and off white, of course). I just felt like doing something different this year - usually it ALL DIFFERERNT ornaments - all the ones the kids have made through the years at school - you know how that goes.
I know what you mean about the mood swings. Did you say that youre on an antidepressant, cause the new one that I'm on seems to be working really well. Its called Cymbalta - you've probably already read about it because I've been telling EVERYONE. Believe me, I've taken EVERYTHING in the book for depression, anxiety, etc - this one starts to work only after 3 days - not 2 weeks like the other ones. You might want to check it out.
Hope you got your tree back up OK - boy that would have pissed me off bad!!:o) Try to keep your spirits up - I'm trying, and it is hard, but together we can beat this **it!!! Take care girl. You are such a sweetheart and a good mom.
Love,
Marie
I'm so sorry that your dog knocked down your Christmas tree down. I absolutely LOVE my tree this year - have gotten several compliments on it. It's all in gold balls and off white and gold satin bows and ribbons with a beautiful angel at the top (gold and off white, of course). I just felt like doing something different this year - usually it ALL DIFFERERNT ornaments - all the ones the kids have made through the years at school - you know how that goes.
I know what you mean about the mood swings. Did you say that youre on an antidepressant, cause the new one that I'm on seems to be working really well. Its called Cymbalta - you've probably already read about it because I've been telling EVERYONE. Believe me, I've taken EVERYTHING in the book for depression, anxiety, etc - this one starts to work only after 3 days - not 2 weeks like the other ones. You might want to check it out.
Hope you got your tree back up OK - boy that would have pissed me off bad!!:o) Try to keep your spirits up - I'm trying, and it is hard, but together we can beat this **it!!! Take care girl. You are such a sweetheart and a good mom.
Love,
Marie
Marie, I haven't been on here much, so I didn't hear about the new antidepressant. I have been on Prozac, Paxil, Zoloft, and a few others and I didn't like any of them! Is this medicine different from the others? I feel like I need something for my mood swings. I get really down. I'm just afraid to take anything because the others made me feel weird. Also, I don't know how safe that stuff is during pregnancy. You're tree sounds gorgeous!! I'd LOVE to have a tree like that one year. For now I have the "kids' variety pack" of ornaments. They get heartbroken if I don't put THEIR ornaments up. We have a pretty tree, though....now that I have it up, AGAIN! lol Well, I really enjoy your posts, they make a lot of sense. You hang in there and be strong! I'll be thinkin' of ya'! Love, Jess
hey jess thanks for asking about me dont talk to much on here cause i am not good with this computer stuff you take good care and congrats the wife told me you were pregnant
BA, thanks! I'm so glad you are doing good! You should be so proud!! Hang in there, OK? I'm thinking of you and Misty often! Love, Jess
