Hi there everyone.. haven't been around too much as I've been really busy with some family stuff.. my nan who is 97 had a fall the other day and broke her hip so I've been up and down to the hospital quite a bit to keep her company.. between work and visiting the hospital all I've been fit for is bed when I get in and then when I'm in bed I'm not sleeping too good.. I guess that's coz my system is missing the H.. things are going good on the meth though, not too much left but Cian gets another take away on Sunday which we'll share and I hope to taper off completly by early next week.. a little bit scared of how I'll get on when it's all gone but heck I'll just have to deal with it.. my nan is my mom''s mom who isn't with us anymore and it's really distressing to see her in the hospital all she want's is to be at home.. her mind is not what it once was either and she's quite disorientated most of the time.. she's also very weak because of the surgery she had so please keep her in your prayers people..
I handed in my letter of resignation yesterday, felt so good to do that, another fortnight now and then a couple of days off and then start the new job... really looking forward to that and hopefully I'll be a lot stronger in myself by the time my new start date comes around...
Con if you're reading this yeah I love all the astrology stuff.. planning on getting a full reading done.. found a site on the internet and the stuff that she sent me was real interesting.. she keeps mailing me to tell me that now is a really important time and that's there is loads going on for me.. I know it's money to her but at the same time I do feel positive and things are beginning to happen for me so I think I'll go ahead and get a reading from her... you sound like you know your stuff, I'm a complete novice.. love reading my horoscope everyday but wouldn't know where to start to do it myself..
How did mr. creepy take it when you told him of your imminent departure from his golden circle - no doubt you took great pleasure from telling him... hee hee, isn't it great to have an ace up your sleeve for people like him.. my boss was ok, not too over the moon as it's more work for her now to fill my position but hey, that's not my problem.. I'm really looking forward to this new post.. a new start and all that goes with it..
Cian is doing good too.. working a heck of a lot more now that he has more time on his hands.. it's amazing how much time smoking that crap takes up.. when I think of it.. I used to have to get up at 6.30 in the morning so that I could have a tray or two before I went to work.. I'm now getting an extra hour and a half in bed - still not sleeping 100% but still not finding it too easy to get out of the bed.. being an early riser was never a strong point of mine.. I've been taking the omega oils too which I do think are making a difference to my moods, I don't seem to be in such bad form as I was the last time.. maybe it's because things are a little bit easier this time...
I'll sign off for now as some housework needs to done.. clothes need washing and all that exciting stuff...
Great to see good things happening for us all.. Eck hope you've been enjoying your travels and Davey how is you? you're the one who made the sense about the methadone for me.. I was trying to do it too quick the last time.. the doses you suggested are doing the trick.. Hope things are going well for you too Linz, I think I read somewhere that you got your hands on some meth too - hope it works out for ya girl... anyway keep in touch everybody...
BW - Arrie XX
Alrite Arrie just goin out the door so its gonna be short n sweet ....good luck on the job front also on getting clean ..albeit with the juice .....yuoll get there im sure........but sorry to hear bout yer nan 97 thats some age.....anyhow il be about later all the very best to ya...............Davey
Thats great A, I am so glad you are figuring it all out, It was so frusterating to hear the hard time the doc's were/are giving you, they are the ones whoa re supposed to understand. A nurse at the last clinic i went to told me that to become a doctor, all the training that is required as far as addiction is concerned id 8 hours, she taught the class, and it's so pitifull!!! addiction is such a huge factor in medecine these days, and if the doctors are left to learn as they go, they will make huge mistakes because if they dont understand why and how people are addicted then many will naurally develope opinion bASED PREJUDICE'S which we have all witnessed, and in the end many many people will be hurt, and will not receive the proper care--man it's messed up!!
Alrite Ms.Arrie ....so the higher dose worked out better for ya ....glad to hear it ....what did you start on 50/60ml....but when yer gonna do yer detox proper go down slow like 5ml.a day coz by my reckoning you have been taking it on and off for 2weeks ......so not to have any adverse side effects take it nice and slow.Glad Cian is doin so well how long has he been drug free?
Mad the way things happen at my clinic my Doc.of 7yrs only recently left......he was as camp as Christmas but didnt give a f*** ...very Stephen Fry/Oscar Wildesh......but would never up my dose even when i f***ed up time and time again.Yesterday i saw my new Doc.......Dr.Melton with a big red,wine drinking nose........so i just thought id have a try to get my dose upped to 80ml......never felt comfortable on 70ml.......so i put the feelers out a bit ....lo and behold he said think about it and maybe he could arrange sumthin.........the moral of my rant is doors gettin slammed in yer face left right and centre and my Doc.oh so casually saying nearly yeh no bother ....weird how our treatment policies work in our green and not so tranquil land.Take care Arrie....chat soon...........Davey
Mad the way things happen at my clinic my Doc.of 7yrs only recently left......he was as camp as Christmas but didnt give a f*** ...very Stephen Fry/Oscar Wildesh......but would never up my dose even when i f***ed up time and time again.Yesterday i saw my new Doc.......Dr.Melton with a big red,wine drinking nose........so i just thought id have a try to get my dose upped to 80ml......never felt comfortable on 70ml.......so i put the feelers out a bit ....lo and behold he said think about it and maybe he could arrange sumthin.........the moral of my rant is doors gettin slammed in yer face left right and centre and my Doc.oh so casually saying nearly yeh no bother ....weird how our treatment policies work in our green and not so tranquil land.Take care Arrie....chat soon...........Davey
