Hey Cleo, how are you doing? How's the family?
I'm fine, i guess. Not much is new in my life. I'm just glad the Christmas Season is over. My step-children and step-grand daughters came over and we had a good time. My stepson is going to Afghanistan at the end of March, so that does worry us a little bit. I miss my brothers alot during the Xmas season and I guess that is why I'm am not too thrilled with that time of the year comes around. I much prefer Easter and I am especially looking forward to it this year cuz I will be visiting my brother again at the other end of the country at the end of March. We will also go to British Columbia for a few days. It is an absolute beautiful Canadian province to visit with the Rocky Mountains and all. I will be with my brother for for two whole weeks. I can't wait.
Are you still exercising? I've been pretty good with my yoga classes. I only missed once so far and that's because I had a cold. I've lost almost 10 pounds since September. Nobody has noticed it but I do cuz my jeans aren't as tight on me. Thank the Lord. I am just about to leave the house as a matter of fact to go to a Power Yoga class.
It's beautiful here today. It rained all day so alot of the snow has melted away, The sun came out just when I was leaving work. It feels like Spring, my favorite, favorite season.
I work from home now three days a week. I just love it. I don't have to fight trying to get a seat in the bus and I don't have to go outside in the morning when its -30 degrees. I got a medical note from the doctor so I could work from home on Tuesdays, Wednesdays and Thursdays. I only go to my office at work on Mondays and Fridays. I feel sooooooo much less stressed.
I've been having some cravings for pot lately. Well, they are not really cravings. I would describe it instead as being lonesome for pot. Isn't that weird? I keep reminding myself however that I'm doing to good to keep those thoughts in my mind? It just proves to me however how easy it would be to start again? How are you doing in regards to pot?
Well, I've got to get ready to go to my class now so I'm going to let you go now, hoping I will hear from you soon.
Take care sweetie!
Ciao
Hey Fleur,
Great to hear from you! You have been on my mind a lot over the last month and I have checked in here on the board from time to time. It is lovely to get an update on how you are doing.
I know how you feel in regards to being lonesome for pot. We celebrated Australia Day here on Tuesday. Every single Aussie I know goes to or holds a barbeque on Australia Day. It is the Australian thing to do!!! So off we went to a friend's house. In total there was 4 families all with kids. So the kids were swimming in the pool and everyone was lazing around having a lovely time then all of a sudden the 4 men all walked down to the back shed and disappeared. I asked my husband later when we got home if all of them smoked pot and he said yes. Now these are all family men, with wives and kids. And I thought to myself "is there anyone on this planet that doesn't smoke bloody pot???" You know you think you can go to a backyard family bbq and you're safe from it but you're not. It is everywhere and soooooo accepted. Not that I wanted to smoke it but it occured to me that no matter where I go in life or what I am doing I can be subjected to it at any given time. It is always going to be around isn't it? You've just got to be strong in your own mind to refrain from having it. I don't yearn for it but it still just bothers me that when it is around I can't be a part of the crowd and enjoy some with them.
The problem with pot is that hardly anyone sees it as a drug. I was watching a documentry the other night about how high the medical use of marajuana is in the US and how many people are lobbying to have it legalised. These people don't realise how harmful it can be in your life once it truly gets a hold of you. People just don't take it seriously. It really made me think about it.
Well I'm glad to hear that you're still refraining, even though it has been a bit challenging for you the last little while. Some days it is almost like "when am I going to wake up from this dream and be able to get back to normal and have some??" But we are lucky Fleur. We have been able to make it this far without turning back and I'm sure we have angels watching over us and helping us. It is just so obvious to me now when someone is stoned and I think how much of their own life they are missing by seeing it through a haze.
I feel like I've almost come full circle with it. In fact I was thinking of putting pen to paper and writing a short story about my journey, all the ups and downs, and how fortunate I was to have found someone like you to be there with me through the thick and the thin. What do you think? I think it might just be what I need to put the last nail in the coffin of it.
I'm sorry to hear about your stepson going to Afganistan, of course that would be worrying for you. Just keep your faith and prayers. That is fantastic though that you'll get to spend two whole weeks with your brother and go for a trip at the end of March - something to look forward to... yay!!
Congrats on your weight loss by the way - that is terrific.
I'm still exercising and going to the gym and keeping focussed on health and wellbeing. I've got a feeling that this is going to be a very good year for me!
Lovely to hear from you Fleur - I'm sorry I've been slack in writing. I'll get my act together and post more regularly. Take care.
Great to hear from you! You have been on my mind a lot over the last month and I have checked in here on the board from time to time. It is lovely to get an update on how you are doing.
I know how you feel in regards to being lonesome for pot. We celebrated Australia Day here on Tuesday. Every single Aussie I know goes to or holds a barbeque on Australia Day. It is the Australian thing to do!!! So off we went to a friend's house. In total there was 4 families all with kids. So the kids were swimming in the pool and everyone was lazing around having a lovely time then all of a sudden the 4 men all walked down to the back shed and disappeared. I asked my husband later when we got home if all of them smoked pot and he said yes. Now these are all family men, with wives and kids. And I thought to myself "is there anyone on this planet that doesn't smoke bloody pot???" You know you think you can go to a backyard family bbq and you're safe from it but you're not. It is everywhere and soooooo accepted. Not that I wanted to smoke it but it occured to me that no matter where I go in life or what I am doing I can be subjected to it at any given time. It is always going to be around isn't it? You've just got to be strong in your own mind to refrain from having it. I don't yearn for it but it still just bothers me that when it is around I can't be a part of the crowd and enjoy some with them.
The problem with pot is that hardly anyone sees it as a drug. I was watching a documentry the other night about how high the medical use of marajuana is in the US and how many people are lobbying to have it legalised. These people don't realise how harmful it can be in your life once it truly gets a hold of you. People just don't take it seriously. It really made me think about it.
Well I'm glad to hear that you're still refraining, even though it has been a bit challenging for you the last little while. Some days it is almost like "when am I going to wake up from this dream and be able to get back to normal and have some??" But we are lucky Fleur. We have been able to make it this far without turning back and I'm sure we have angels watching over us and helping us. It is just so obvious to me now when someone is stoned and I think how much of their own life they are missing by seeing it through a haze.
I feel like I've almost come full circle with it. In fact I was thinking of putting pen to paper and writing a short story about my journey, all the ups and downs, and how fortunate I was to have found someone like you to be there with me through the thick and the thin. What do you think? I think it might just be what I need to put the last nail in the coffin of it.
I'm sorry to hear about your stepson going to Afganistan, of course that would be worrying for you. Just keep your faith and prayers. That is fantastic though that you'll get to spend two whole weeks with your brother and go for a trip at the end of March - something to look forward to... yay!!
Congrats on your weight loss by the way - that is terrific.
I'm still exercising and going to the gym and keeping focussed on health and wellbeing. I've got a feeling that this is going to be a very good year for me!
Lovely to hear from you Fleur - I'm sorry I've been slack in writing. I'll get my act together and post more regularly. Take care.
Hey Cleo,
So nice to hear from you again. I was wonderng where you had been.
First and foremost, I want to say that I think its a great idea that you have about writing something on your experience. I think it would be helpful for lots of people who have been in the same situation as you and I have been in for a long time during our lives. Please keep me up to date with this project. I really, really hope that you do it.
I've often thought about writing to Oprah Winfrey about my life but the chances of ever getting her attention is zero. I often thought that all i've gone through in life could help some woman. I often tell myself i am a survivor and perhaps my life experience could touch some woman who have been or who are in situations I've gone through.
I feel exactly the same way as you in regards to how ppl perceive pot. I myself always thought it was not a dangerous thing to do. But today, knowing what I know, if i could just help one person in this world not to ever touch the stuff, I would be happy. I wished nobody would do it. I hate having it around me and I hate how ppl have to rely on it to have fun or just to relax. I am such a happier person since I don't touch the stuff anymore. I love knowing I can go through life without it, that I don't need it to party or to calm my sorrows. Thank the Lord I don't have too many friends and I don't go out much, so its not around me that much (except for hubby to whom i have told very often that it bothers me)!
I cannot wait to go and visit my brother. I'm getting a little bit bored with life lately, so it will be nice to get away from the usual things I see and do everyday. Hopefully, next year I will be able to go and visit my other brother in Brazil. I haven't seen him in more than 15 years. I have a nephew and a niece i've never seen. I'm saving money to go.
Take care and i hope to read you soon again.
Have a nice day.
Be strong!
So nice to hear from you again. I was wonderng where you had been.
First and foremost, I want to say that I think its a great idea that you have about writing something on your experience. I think it would be helpful for lots of people who have been in the same situation as you and I have been in for a long time during our lives. Please keep me up to date with this project. I really, really hope that you do it.
I've often thought about writing to Oprah Winfrey about my life but the chances of ever getting her attention is zero. I often thought that all i've gone through in life could help some woman. I often tell myself i am a survivor and perhaps my life experience could touch some woman who have been or who are in situations I've gone through.
I feel exactly the same way as you in regards to how ppl perceive pot. I myself always thought it was not a dangerous thing to do. But today, knowing what I know, if i could just help one person in this world not to ever touch the stuff, I would be happy. I wished nobody would do it. I hate having it around me and I hate how ppl have to rely on it to have fun or just to relax. I am such a happier person since I don't touch the stuff anymore. I love knowing I can go through life without it, that I don't need it to party or to calm my sorrows. Thank the Lord I don't have too many friends and I don't go out much, so its not around me that much (except for hubby to whom i have told very often that it bothers me)!
I cannot wait to go and visit my brother. I'm getting a little bit bored with life lately, so it will be nice to get away from the usual things I see and do everyday. Hopefully, next year I will be able to go and visit my other brother in Brazil. I haven't seen him in more than 15 years. I have a nephew and a niece i've never seen. I'm saving money to go.
Take care and i hope to read you soon again.
Have a nice day.
Be strong!
Hey Cleo,
I found this new website that i think you will find interesting. I really enjoy it.
http://addictionrecoveryguide.com/t..._chat/chat.html
Go Ma Recovery chats and sign in.
I found this new website that i think you will find interesting. I really enjoy it.
http://addictionrecoveryguide.com/t..._chat/chat.html
Go Ma Recovery chats and sign in.
I think i meant this link : Marijuana Anonymous Online (ma-online.org/chat.html)
well i am back day 1 staight and this time i will do it awesome cleo and fleur
Hey Tania,
How are you? Haven't heard from you in sooooooooooo long. Funny you decided to post cuz i was thinking of you lately.
How's the little baby girl an the boys. I bet they have all grown alot since we last talked Tell me how they are doing and how you are doing.
Glad to see you are back and that you seemed determined in your decision to quit pot. I'm happy you are back amongst us.
Yes, Cleo and I are still here. Cleo is doing really well and i am so proud of her.
You should check out the links i left for Cleo just before your post. I find them really useful.
Keep posting.
Can't wait to hear from you again.
How are you? Haven't heard from you in sooooooooooo long. Funny you decided to post cuz i was thinking of you lately.
How's the little baby girl an the boys. I bet they have all grown alot since we last talked Tell me how they are doing and how you are doing.
Glad to see you are back and that you seemed determined in your decision to quit pot. I'm happy you are back amongst us.
Yes, Cleo and I are still here. Cleo is doing really well and i am so proud of her.
You should check out the links i left for Cleo just before your post. I find them really useful.
Keep posting.
Can't wait to hear from you again.
Hi Fleur, Hi Tania,
Happy Valentines Day! Great to see you back on board Tania - sending you a million good vibes to help you through today, tomorrow and this week.
Fleur, hope you're having a good week too sweetie.
Just checking in to say hi and say alls well in my world.
Happy Valentines Day! Great to see you back on board Tania - sending you a million good vibes to help you through today, tomorrow and this week.
Fleur, hope you're having a good week too sweetie.
Just checking in to say hi and say alls well in my world.
Hey Cleo,
Nice to hear from you too,
Glad all is fine with you.
I'm doing super.
It's beautiful here today.
Happy Valentine's to you.
Keep posting.
P.S. How's the book project coming along?
Ciao
Nice to hear from you too,
Glad all is fine with you.
I'm doing super.
It's beautiful here today.
Happy Valentine's to you.
Keep posting.
P.S. How's the book project coming along?
Ciao
Fleur,
You sound very up and in good spirits which makes me really happy. Thanks for asking about the book project - I'm still in the very preliminary stages. Just getting my head around what I'm going to write, how to structure it, and figure out in my mind "what is the purpose of the book"???? I'll definitely keep you posted.
Have a fabulous week.
You sound very up and in good spirits which makes me really happy. Thanks for asking about the book project - I'm still in the very preliminary stages. Just getting my head around what I'm going to write, how to structure it, and figure out in my mind "what is the purpose of the book"???? I'll definitely keep you posted.
Have a fabulous week.
Hey Cleo,
I'm so glad to hear from you. I was just wondering. Do you think you would want us to do the book project together. If you don't, that's okay honey. It was your idea in the first place and i totally respect that and i will still be willing to help you with it.
On the other hand, i thought if we did it together, it would also be really interesting. The purpose of the book would be to describe how two women in this world who have never met each other, who knew nothing of each other and who live at the opposite ends of the world, woked up one morning in 2009 and both decided to embarked on the same journey. We could describe how we have managed to stick to our decision by sharing the pains and joys, the highs and lows of that journey and how we were there for one another by giving each other encouragement, advice, etc.
I think such a book could be really helpful to alot of people, men and women alike, but more importantly of interest to those who want to discover the true power of friendship.
Draft title : Me for you, you for me - Benefits of quitting weed!
I'm so glad to hear from you. I was just wondering. Do you think you would want us to do the book project together. If you don't, that's okay honey. It was your idea in the first place and i totally respect that and i will still be willing to help you with it.
On the other hand, i thought if we did it together, it would also be really interesting. The purpose of the book would be to describe how two women in this world who have never met each other, who knew nothing of each other and who live at the opposite ends of the world, woked up one morning in 2009 and both decided to embarked on the same journey. We could describe how we have managed to stick to our decision by sharing the pains and joys, the highs and lows of that journey and how we were there for one another by giving each other encouragement, advice, etc.
I think such a book could be really helpful to alot of people, men and women alike, but more importantly of interest to those who want to discover the true power of friendship.
Draft title : Me for you, you for me - Benefits of quitting weed!
Hi Fleur,
Thanks for your message, and for your suggestion to write a book together. It's an interesting idea... To be honest I was originally thinking about it from a personal journey perspective and and introspective look at the last 12 months of my life. However your idea is interesting. I need to think about it, do you mind?
We've just been given notice that we have to move out - again! Only 9 months here, the thought of moving makes me want to curl up into a ball and cover my head and wish it all away. Another curve ball in life! Why is it that things can go along so nicely and then out of the blue life gets turned upside down?? The whole reason we moved into this house in the first place was we were assured that we could have it for as long as we wanted and needed. I'm quite down about it, and there are so few rentals in this area available so the competition is fierce and what is available costs a small fortune.
Ho hum. Buga bloody buga. Just when things were starting to look up.
Thanks for your message, and for your suggestion to write a book together. It's an interesting idea... To be honest I was originally thinking about it from a personal journey perspective and and introspective look at the last 12 months of my life. However your idea is interesting. I need to think about it, do you mind?
We've just been given notice that we have to move out - again! Only 9 months here, the thought of moving makes me want to curl up into a ball and cover my head and wish it all away. Another curve ball in life! Why is it that things can go along so nicely and then out of the blue life gets turned upside down?? The whole reason we moved into this house in the first place was we were assured that we could have it for as long as we wanted and needed. I'm quite down about it, and there are so few rentals in this area available so the competition is fierce and what is available costs a small fortune.
Ho hum. Buga bloody buga. Just when things were starting to look up.
Hi Cleo,
First, i am so sorry you have to move. That is a real bugger. I find it so stressful when we have to move. It is a real stress factor in our lives and the fact that you just moved in your home a little while ago doesn't make things any easier. There must be a reason for this though and hopefully you will find something really nice, even better that the home you are living in now.
As far as the book idea goes, i truly, truly understand you. It was just an idea I had and i totally respect the fact the direction you want to go with this project. I myself had also thought about writing something on my experience with pot and since i kept a journey of my last year, i thought it would used that information to write something, One way or the other, just let me know what you decide and like i say, i will totally respect your decision and i am more than willing to help you out with any part of the book.
Otherwise, i'm doing pretty good these days other than being really, really tired from work. We are really, really busy and after a days work, i am totally exhausted. I enjoy the weekends to relax. This weekend will be a little less relaxing however cuz i've got to do my income taxes grrrrrrrrr.
Got to go now. I want to go to a MA on site meeting.
Talk to you later sweetie.
First, i am so sorry you have to move. That is a real bugger. I find it so stressful when we have to move. It is a real stress factor in our lives and the fact that you just moved in your home a little while ago doesn't make things any easier. There must be a reason for this though and hopefully you will find something really nice, even better that the home you are living in now.
As far as the book idea goes, i truly, truly understand you. It was just an idea I had and i totally respect the fact the direction you want to go with this project. I myself had also thought about writing something on my experience with pot and since i kept a journey of my last year, i thought it would used that information to write something, One way or the other, just let me know what you decide and like i say, i will totally respect your decision and i am more than willing to help you out with any part of the book.
Otherwise, i'm doing pretty good these days other than being really, really tired from work. We are really, really busy and after a days work, i am totally exhausted. I enjoy the weekends to relax. This weekend will be a little less relaxing however cuz i've got to do my income taxes grrrrrrrrr.
Got to go now. I want to go to a MA on site meeting.
Talk to you later sweetie.
Hey Flur,
Great to see you're checking out Marijuana Anonymous. It's helped me so much.
Good to see that you're still around.
Matt B
Great to see you're checking out Marijuana Anonymous. It's helped me so much.
Good to see that you're still around.
Matt B
Hi MattB,
Nice to hear from you again. This section seems to be pretty slow now.
Glad to see you posted.
How are you doing?
I'm doing great. 14 months without pot for me! YES!
Yes, i do enjoy MA Online. It's a great site.
Talk to you soon,
Nice to hear from you again. This section seems to be pretty slow now.
Glad to see you posted.
How are you doing?
I'm doing great. 14 months without pot for me! YES!
Yes, i do enjoy MA Online. It's a great site.
Talk to you soon,
Hello Cleo and Fleur,
well done to both of you. your posts are amazing to read and very inspirational. Cleo ,you should definately get to work on that book ,you write very well and it will help a lot of people. I hope you are both still doing well.
I wanted to ask if either of you had trouble sleeping even when you were smoking? I am in the process of trying to stop(i admit not fully committed yet....suddenly realised i need to give up after a change in lifestyle). The not sleeping is a major factor since i have cut down.
Even when i was smoking there would be nights that i could not sleep.It makes you feel completely frustrated ,angry and mad. If i had nights that i could not sleep while smoking , how will i sleep at all if i dont smoke!!
I would feel a bit better if you wonderful ladies told me that you also had nights going to bed stoned and still tossed and turned for a while. (lie if you must pls)(just joking). I know that the sleepless nights are going to be the worst and was wondering how long it is before you both started sleeping well after giving up? I had read about it in some of your posts ,but cant find it again. So please let me know if you sometimes couldnt sleep even if stoned and how long after quitting(well done) did your sleep become easier?
Thanks for all your posts
well done to both of you. your posts are amazing to read and very inspirational. Cleo ,you should definately get to work on that book ,you write very well and it will help a lot of people. I hope you are both still doing well.
I wanted to ask if either of you had trouble sleeping even when you were smoking? I am in the process of trying to stop(i admit not fully committed yet....suddenly realised i need to give up after a change in lifestyle). The not sleeping is a major factor since i have cut down.
Even when i was smoking there would be nights that i could not sleep.It makes you feel completely frustrated ,angry and mad. If i had nights that i could not sleep while smoking , how will i sleep at all if i dont smoke!!
I would feel a bit better if you wonderful ladies told me that you also had nights going to bed stoned and still tossed and turned for a while. (lie if you must pls)(just joking). I know that the sleepless nights are going to be the worst and was wondering how long it is before you both started sleeping well after giving up? I had read about it in some of your posts ,but cant find it again. So please let me know if you sometimes couldnt sleep even if stoned and how long after quitting(well done) did your sleep become easier?
Thanks for all your posts
Hi Robbo,
Welcome to the Board.
In answer to your question, yes, there were times when I had troubled sleeping when I was smoking pot. When this happened, I thought if I got up and smoked another joint it would help me go to sleep. What was I thinking! It never really helped if I did smoke another joint. In fact, I would continue to toss and turned even more.
When I did quit pot, I must admit I had difficulties sleeping at first. Espcially the first week. As time when on however, I began to sleep better and now after nearly 15 months off the pot, I sleep very well, thank you.
Giving up weed is not easy. My body and mind craved for pot when I first quit. I had been smoking the stuff for so long that I must say the withdrawals were quite severe the first few weeks. I honestly thought I was giving up heroin instead of pot. I had headaches, i was cold, I was hot, I wasn't hungry at all, I was sad, etc. etc .etc. After about three weeks, I started feeling better. At first I also was having really weird dreams. It would even wake me up in the middle of the night. Scarry dreams!
Drinking lots of water helped me when I stopped using. Also taking Omega 3-6-9 for the mood swings.
Hope this answers some of your questions.
Let us know how you are doing. Cleo is in the process of moving. So she might not be coming to the board as often as before. I try to come here a couple of times a week.
Keep posting.
Welcome to the Board.
In answer to your question, yes, there were times when I had troubled sleeping when I was smoking pot. When this happened, I thought if I got up and smoked another joint it would help me go to sleep. What was I thinking! It never really helped if I did smoke another joint. In fact, I would continue to toss and turned even more.
When I did quit pot, I must admit I had difficulties sleeping at first. Espcially the first week. As time when on however, I began to sleep better and now after nearly 15 months off the pot, I sleep very well, thank you.
Giving up weed is not easy. My body and mind craved for pot when I first quit. I had been smoking the stuff for so long that I must say the withdrawals were quite severe the first few weeks. I honestly thought I was giving up heroin instead of pot. I had headaches, i was cold, I was hot, I wasn't hungry at all, I was sad, etc. etc .etc. After about three weeks, I started feeling better. At first I also was having really weird dreams. It would even wake me up in the middle of the night. Scarry dreams!
Drinking lots of water helped me when I stopped using. Also taking Omega 3-6-9 for the mood swings.
Hope this answers some of your questions.
Let us know how you are doing. Cleo is in the process of moving. So she might not be coming to the board as often as before. I try to come here a couple of times a week.
Keep posting.
hello fleur
thanks for the reply. I have been very weak, Now that i really need to stop ,..i dont! i havent even tried, just cut down. but that too only lasted about 5 days. Then got a little more, still down on normal usage but i can feel the ropes tightening again. Gonna try for real,the first time ever tomorrow. Ive thought that before,ive said that before, but ive never typed it before.....maybe itll help.
Thanks again
robbo
thanks for the reply. I have been very weak, Now that i really need to stop ,..i dont! i havent even tried, just cut down. but that too only lasted about 5 days. Then got a little more, still down on normal usage but i can feel the ropes tightening again. Gonna try for real,the first time ever tomorrow. Ive thought that before,ive said that before, but ive never typed it before.....maybe itll help.
Thanks again
robbo
Hi Robbo,
I know exactly how it feels to say i am going to try stop smoking pot tomorrow and then tomorrow comes and first thing you know you are rolling a joint and smoking it.
I've been there. I smoked pot for more than 25 years on a daily basis and still was able to maintain a job, a house, a relationship, etc.etc.etc. Us addicts have a way of putting things off till tomorrow. When i used to smoke pot, i used to put things off alot cuz when I was stone, I never felt like doing anything except roll another joint or got out and get some more. Funny how I always found the time to do that but couldn't find time to sit down for five minutes and remind myself of the decision I had taken the previous day, that is, that I wouldn't go out and get some more weed.
I have been reading the conversations you have had with AWest. I think it is great that he is there for you and giving you great advice. Obviously, the guy knows what he is talking about.
You know Robbo, when I decided to quit smoking pot, I too was nervous about it. I too kept wondering what life was going to be without my daily consumption of weed. I too wondered how I would ever be able to go to a party and have fun without being stoned.
But, now that I haven't touched the stuff in nearly 15 months, I cannot describe to you how my life has changed and how really it isn't that bad being straight. Christmas came and I did fine. On my birthday, i was straight as an arrow, and really, it was the most beautiful birthday I've ever had. I've had company come over to my place and believe it or not I actually enjoyed having them around even though I was not stone.
All I can tell you from my experience as former heavy pot smoker is take it a day at a time. Don't worry how its going to feel when you will come home from work or how you are going to feel the next day when you know there won't be any pot around you. Just live in the moment, hour by hour if you have too. That's what I had to do cuz I too used to come home and right away get my stash out and roll a joint. For goodness sake's its the first thing I would do when I got up in the morning also. It didn't matter if I had a job to go to or not. I smoked a joint. What a sad way to start the day when you really think about it.
I am going away on holidays this weekend for two weeks. I would never, ever have been able to do that when I was smoking pot. I always worried how I would be able to get my pot if I did leave my home for awhile. So, instead of going on holidays and enjoying life, I would stay home and smoke, and smoke and smoke till I was disgusted with myself.
I enjoy reading you. So keep posting.
Ciao
I know exactly how it feels to say i am going to try stop smoking pot tomorrow and then tomorrow comes and first thing you know you are rolling a joint and smoking it.
I've been there. I smoked pot for more than 25 years on a daily basis and still was able to maintain a job, a house, a relationship, etc.etc.etc. Us addicts have a way of putting things off till tomorrow. When i used to smoke pot, i used to put things off alot cuz when I was stone, I never felt like doing anything except roll another joint or got out and get some more. Funny how I always found the time to do that but couldn't find time to sit down for five minutes and remind myself of the decision I had taken the previous day, that is, that I wouldn't go out and get some more weed.
I have been reading the conversations you have had with AWest. I think it is great that he is there for you and giving you great advice. Obviously, the guy knows what he is talking about.
You know Robbo, when I decided to quit smoking pot, I too was nervous about it. I too kept wondering what life was going to be without my daily consumption of weed. I too wondered how I would ever be able to go to a party and have fun without being stoned.
But, now that I haven't touched the stuff in nearly 15 months, I cannot describe to you how my life has changed and how really it isn't that bad being straight. Christmas came and I did fine. On my birthday, i was straight as an arrow, and really, it was the most beautiful birthday I've ever had. I've had company come over to my place and believe it or not I actually enjoyed having them around even though I was not stone.
All I can tell you from my experience as former heavy pot smoker is take it a day at a time. Don't worry how its going to feel when you will come home from work or how you are going to feel the next day when you know there won't be any pot around you. Just live in the moment, hour by hour if you have too. That's what I had to do cuz I too used to come home and right away get my stash out and roll a joint. For goodness sake's its the first thing I would do when I got up in the morning also. It didn't matter if I had a job to go to or not. I smoked a joint. What a sad way to start the day when you really think about it.
I am going away on holidays this weekend for two weeks. I would never, ever have been able to do that when I was smoking pot. I always worried how I would be able to get my pot if I did leave my home for awhile. So, instead of going on holidays and enjoying life, I would stay home and smoke, and smoke and smoke till I was disgusted with myself.
I enjoy reading you. So keep posting.
Ciao
hi fleur,
thanks for the post,it will help. I will be writing to you again in the near future im sure.
cheers and have a fantastic holiday.
thanks for the post,it will help. I will be writing to you again in the near future im sure.
cheers and have a fantastic holiday.
