Good morning all,i found this board while serching the internet for a home,someplace i'll feel welcome and can get/give some help and support,this board looks like a great place.
A little about me,my name is Kim,im 43,married 24 years,with 3 sons ages 24,22,&17 and two beautiful grankdchildren ages 5&4.
I started taking pain meds about a year and a half ago for some minor back pain,eventually over time i abused the drug and became addicted.It really hit me like a ton of bricks about 3 months ago how far my addiction had come and how much i was using!This past 6 months i was taking around 12-14 norcos(10/325's)i knew i had to stopped.My whole life was being planned around these pills,my pay checks were going to feed my addiction(ordering online)Nobody knew,i felt so detached from my family,yet couldnt funtion without the pills. Finally i broke down and told my husband,i needed help and support,keeping it to myself and hiding it was only making me cling more to it!Thankfully my husband has been so very understanding and helpful,i could never have taken the first steps without him.
April 8th- 05'..i went into a hospital detox unit for 3 days,i had the loaded dose suboxone treatment,where they give you three doses of suboxone the first day(withing 4 hours) the second day i got 2 doses,and day three i got my last dose and went home that night.It helped me tremendously to get over those first few days,which i know are so terribly hard(ive tried to taper,ct,just couldnt handle it)ive been home and clean 14 days,and im thankful every day for that.My job has been very understanding and has given me the time off to get myself back together.I have everything working for me.Yet....i never know what to expect day to day.Yesterday i felt so good"Im finally going to make it,the worst is behind me" today,the depression and anxiety feels like too much to bare!I wonder why that is,its like a roller coaster!Ive read some horror stories where they say it can take up to as much as 2 years to be feeling yourself again.Quite honostly that scares me to death.I guess all i can do is take it one day at a time and hope tomorrow will be another good day.Im sorry this is so long,im looking forward to getting to know you all and learning from you.Hope the day is going great for you all.Take care~KIM
Hi Kim,
Welcome to the board....and congrats to you on your clean time!! That is awesome.You sound like your doing good. Stick around this board can be a great place. take care and God bless...
gina :)
Welcome to the board....and congrats to you on your clean time!! That is awesome.You sound like your doing good. Stick around this board can be a great place. take care and God bless...
gina :)
Welcome Kim, and congrats on kicking the pills! That is huge! You have your life back! Early on in wd, at least the 1st month from my experience, it is not uncommon to experience emotional ups and downs. Your body/mind is still adjusting to the absence of the pills. So give it some time. It gets better - honest.
Do you have a plan to stay clean? For example a support group, like na or aa? As many here can attest, getting clean is one thing, staying clean is another altogether!
Good luck;
Jim
Do you have a plan to stay clean? For example a support group, like na or aa? As many here can attest, getting clean is one thing, staying clean is another altogether!
Good luck;
Jim
Hi Kim,
Welcome to the board, this really is a great place.
Hey Gina, how are you doing?
Love,
Liz
Welcome to the board, this really is a great place.
Hey Gina, how are you doing?
Love,
Liz
J&J'sgram
Hello, welcome, and congrats on your decision to get clean. This board was my crutch when I first quit, I hope it can be as much help to you as it was to me. If you have any questions, fire away, and someone will be able to answer whatever it is you are looking for. Great people here with loads of advise.
Good Luck and welcome
Hello, welcome, and congrats on your decision to get clean. This board was my crutch when I first quit, I hope it can be as much help to you as it was to me. If you have any questions, fire away, and someone will be able to answer whatever it is you are looking for. Great people here with loads of advise.
Good Luck and welcome
Hey Kim,
First off i would like to say welcome and you have deffinitly found a wonderfull place to get advice and talk and vent. Good for you getting clean you never really know how much of life you miss when you are high. I am clean about 37 days now and yes some days are better than others. I began takeing them for real pain im not sure where i fell off the wagon but i did and 1 day relized that i could not go no more so i went c/t. And here i am 37 days later. At first the thought of pills filled my mind but i promise it dose get eaiser. Try to do things to occupy your mind like excersice, walk, read, and pray your butt off. God will lead you down the right path. We are always here if you need someone to talk to. Keep up the good work.
Trin
P.s...sorry for the spelling not fully awake yet..
First off i would like to say welcome and you have deffinitly found a wonderfull place to get advice and talk and vent. Good for you getting clean you never really know how much of life you miss when you are high. I am clean about 37 days now and yes some days are better than others. I began takeing them for real pain im not sure where i fell off the wagon but i did and 1 day relized that i could not go no more so i went c/t. And here i am 37 days later. At first the thought of pills filled my mind but i promise it dose get eaiser. Try to do things to occupy your mind like excersice, walk, read, and pray your butt off. God will lead you down the right path. We are always here if you need someone to talk to. Keep up the good work.
Trin
P.s...sorry for the spelling not fully awake yet..
Thanks so much for the warm welcome everyone,it really means alot to me.As far as follow up care,i had set up an appointment with a addiction recovery clinic associated with the hospital i detoxed at(they are both about an hour from my home)i was evalutated and they accepted me to go into a short term counseling/suboxone treatment plan,where they would eventually taper me off the suboxone.Well,they said i could start but wouldnt be able to see the doc for 3 weeks to get the script for the suboxone,yet they wanted me to travel 3 to 4 nights a week for sessions prior.I thought about it and decided if i can get through 3 weeks without the suboxone,i'll be that much further on my way,not to mention,you then have to taper off the suboxone,and there are wd's associated with that as well or so ive heard.So,i declined and figured if i really feel i need counceling there are plenty of places right around wher i live that i can go to.I havent taken that step yet,not sure if im going to.But its definetly an open option.If i feel i really get to a point where i need it,i will go,be it at a outpaitent recovery center or NA meetings.Meanwhile,i hope by coming here i will feel a little less anxious and get more informed.I have never beend addicted to anything in my life,this is a first for me,and its an eye opener to say the least.Ive been learng alot,reading everything i can get my hands on.
I know for me right now,the hardest part,by far,is getting the energy up to do things.Im so weak,so tired,so unenthused about everything,i want so much to get some life back into me,yet i feel i cant force myself to do even the little things?
Again,thanks for listening,and the warm welcome!~KIM
I know for me right now,the hardest part,by far,is getting the energy up to do things.Im so weak,so tired,so unenthused about everything,i want so much to get some life back into me,yet i feel i cant force myself to do even the little things?
Again,thanks for listening,and the warm welcome!~KIM
Hi Kim and welcome to the board! Wow, could we be anymore alike? The only difference is that I took the pills for 25 years.
JR said it best, what are you going to do for support other than your husband?
I go to NA and AA at least 3 times a week. I have a women's AA group that I love! There is so much support there, it's amazing. And even though I'm not a drinker and the only pill popper (at least only one that admits it) they still have made me feel so wanted and needed.
Have you checked into meetings in your area?
xxx
Cowgirl
JR said it best, what are you going to do for support other than your husband?
I go to NA and AA at least 3 times a week. I have a women's AA group that I love! There is so much support there, it's amazing. And even though I'm not a drinker and the only pill popper (at least only one that admits it) they still have made me feel so wanted and needed.
Have you checked into meetings in your area?
xxx
Cowgirl
Thanks everyone for your warm welcome!Today i feell 100% better than yesterday,i just find that amazing the difference from day to day.Im hoping to really force myself to get busy today and accomplish some things.The past few days i havent had the energy to get out of my own way.I know i need to push myself,but its so hard.I've got a question for those of you that have been off pain meds for a awhile,its been a little over 2 weeks for me,and ive experienced alot of depression,anxiety,body aches and weakness,but the one thing i can honostly say,i havent had only one or two very slight cravings for the hydro?!?!? Is this something that'll show up in time,or should i just count myself extremely lucky?Thanks for all the help~KIM
