Good morning all.Its freezen here in NY today.I'm feeling good but alittle lost.The sub is doing its job,though I still & probaly always will miss the feeling of energy that the pills gave me.Ok I've been here since Nov & in that time EVERYONE has always been nice to me I've ALWAYS tried to stay out of the drama & work on my recovery,But I just need to say this & hope it doesn't cause people to get upset with me(as I need all of you in my fight)I don't know if its because I'm doing better or what but to me this board seems to have lost that close family feel.How sad that is because this was the one place I felt safe & welcomed.I'm not now nor will I ever bring names into it but when I sign on lately all I see are arguement(not + ones)I see people going back & forth with issues that don't help anyone.I don't understand how I did feel so safe here & now I feel saddness here,.I CANNOT say anything mean/bad to others because you have all been so kind to me.BUT DAMN IT I miss that feeling of friendship I once had here.When I first started EVERYONE so it seemed to be pulling for newbies,.now all these issues that words cannot change have blocked the real purpose of the board.As far as bringing personal stuff here.Yeah I think we should bring some as it all ties into our addictions but WHY HAS IT GOTTEN LIKE HIGH SCHOOL(which I was always a outcast in)I don't know I've just been holding these feelings in with the hope that the family feelings of support & love return on there own.As I said is it me getting better or the board getting worse?Anyways hope I don't start anything but I feel that little crack down my heart when I read some things & I wonder if that feeling that made me feel safe comming here will EVER return.....mj
Ya know...MissMolly, I feel the same.
I don't even want to post things that I need help with because of all the drama.
If I have been part of that...and I know i have, only because this isnt' the place to play games..
I do apologize. I only came here for help, like you..
but I must admit..
it really isn't the same..
Hang tough, Molly...
I am so proud of you..!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Kerry
I don't even want to post things that I need help with because of all the drama.
If I have been part of that...and I know i have, only because this isnt' the place to play games..
I do apologize. I only came here for help, like you..
but I must admit..
it really isn't the same..
Hang tough, Molly...
I am so proud of you..!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Kerry
Hey Molly,
It sure seems like a complicated place to be sometimes....this board. In all though I think it is a good place.....Maybe we all just need to be able to stand up for ourselves...yet not be angry or mean. There is a difference.....but at this point I am as confused as you.......
So how are you......you freezing your butt off....I am, but atleast we are getting alittle snow today.........You enjoy the day, and try not to worry, you are doing great........
Hugs,
Tina
It sure seems like a complicated place to be sometimes....this board. In all though I think it is a good place.....Maybe we all just need to be able to stand up for ourselves...yet not be angry or mean. There is a difference.....but at this point I am as confused as you.......
So how are you......you freezing your butt off....I am, but atleast we are getting alittle snow today.........You enjoy the day, and try not to worry, you are doing great........
Hugs,
Tina
Good morning Molly Jean, ME and LB.........It is freezing here in GA, too, 20 degrees. Brrrrrrr!
I understand about the lack of energy. It is hard to get anything done when you feel that way, huh? I am just continuing the vitamins and hybernating for the winter. I hope the energy returns by spring. LOL
The board.......I know exactly how you feel. I no longer feel safe posting my feelings for fear I will get slammed. The recovery effort now takes 2nd place to the hurtful, mean, judgemental drama taking place. There was a post on here yesterday for hours from a guy saying he was leaving because of the negativity and no one even responded to him. They were too busy arguing. Sad. And several newbies came on in serious w/ds.......no response. I looked back for several months and see that this nothing new, though. And as far back as early 2004, it was the same thing.
I feel so lucky to have found you and the ones who I do feel supported by and would like to thank you for always being there with honesty and/or supportive feedback. We can only hope things get better, as I see new posts more often now with people who have such a need for this board.
Hope you have a great day and stay warm!!(((((((((((((:o)))))))))))))))))))
Love to all, Carol
Thank You guys.I hope I didn;t stir up crap I just miss that feeling when I'm on here.I know I'm different than I was before but I still think I can contribute good things here.I hate hearing newbies feel so lost & I'll do whatever I can.I just hope they don't get lost in it all.Anyways GA is freezen 2.I think we are suppose to get snow 2.I think I may do some baking today.Nice day for it.I'll be around if you guys still want to chat.....mj
Good Morning Gals!!!
Well, the sub-zero temps have subsided, and we got snow! It's pretty here.
About the bickering; the best advice someone posted is to ignore it and tkae away the useful and helpful things. There are certain posters on this board that can make my blood boil (God, help me let it go!) so I have to remember to keep focused on recovery.
MJ, you didn't stir up any crap by starting this thread, actually I think it's good to deep it real and remind us all why we're here!
Well, the sub-zero temps have subsided, and we got snow! It's pretty here.
About the bickering; the best advice someone posted is to ignore it and tkae away the useful and helpful things. There are certain posters on this board that can make my blood boil (God, help me let it go!) so I have to remember to keep focused on recovery.
MJ, you didn't stir up any crap by starting this thread, actually I think it's good to deep it real and remind us all why we're here!
Good Morning AMOM.I wanted to ask how are you feeling & hows it all going????mj
Hi Carol and Amom.............hope you are both well.
Carol thanks for the email, I sent you one back.....
Molly you got one too, I had to resend on that your mail kicked back.....
Amom..........boiling blood.......LMAO, I told a friend how frustrating I find it here sometimes, and how I really don't want to take the b*tch out......I think we all have to try to stay focused, and try to help each other as best as we can.........
I think it is easier to be nice for me then angry..........thank god for that!
Everyone stay warm, Molly we baked all afternoon Monday cause the kids were off......
Hugs,
Tina
Carol thanks for the email, I sent you one back.....
Molly you got one too, I had to resend on that your mail kicked back.....
Amom..........boiling blood.......LMAO, I told a friend how frustrating I find it here sometimes, and how I really don't want to take the b*tch out......I think we all have to try to stay focused, and try to help each other as best as we can.........
I think it is easier to be nice for me then angry..........thank god for that!
Everyone stay warm, Molly we baked all afternoon Monday cause the kids were off......
Hugs,
Tina
I'm OK, but I have a question: I looked on the site that lists MD's who can prescribe suboxone. The doctor I see on Feb. 9th is not one of them! Should I cancel that appointment and call one of the doctors who can prescribe it?
After reading everyone's experiences, I definitely think I'm going to need sub when I finally go CT.
Anyone want to respond? Buehler? Buehler?
After reading everyone's experiences, I definitely think I'm going to need sub when I finally go CT.
Anyone want to respond? Buehler? Buehler?
LMAO......
Not all the doctors that can perscribe are on the list, just call the office and make sure they can before you cancel.....
Not all the doctors that can perscribe are on the list, just call the office and make sure they can before you cancel.....
Thanks Misty!!!
Gotta go shovel the driveway, I actually like doing it because it's exercise, and Lord knows, I need that!!!!
Then I have an eye appointment, I just know I need bifocals, but I'm in denial!!!!!
How did I get to be 45? I still feel like I'm in my 20's sometimes!
Hope you all have a glorious day, I'll be back later.
Gotta go shovel the driveway, I actually like doing it because it's exercise, and Lord knows, I need that!!!!
Then I have an eye appointment, I just know I need bifocals, but I'm in denial!!!!!
How did I get to be 45? I still feel like I'm in my 20's sometimes!
Hope you all have a glorious day, I'll be back later.
Dear A MOM & misty yup its a great day for baking!!!!COOKIES!!!!!As far as the board I'll keep comming because I need the boost you guys give me & I really enjoy trying to make a difference in someones life in a + way.As for the drama it just makes me sad but not sad enough to walk away from this site.I feel I have made some nice friends(the first in along time)And I don't want to lose touch with the people I care for on here.You both have a great day.AMOM don't hurt yourself shoveling & misty YOU just keep being You because I think your cool.I'll be around so if ya wannta post go ahead I'll be checking in....mj
Good morning everyone,
Just wanted to say hi to all, and add my 2 cents. MJ, I agree with you about all the drama here. We all have opinions, but it seems that some people think that their oppinion is the "right way" so to speak. As individuals, we all have to recover in the way thats best for us, whether that be cold turkey, tapering, suboxone, 12 steps, meetings, or whatever. I came here for support and I found it with you and Marina, Mistyeyes, Kerry, Browndog, Johndee, Addictmom, Friend,Denmar, wenses, tridle and so many more. It is unfortunate to see all this senseless bickering. All we can do I guess, is sift through the posts and find what works for us, but sometimes it does frustrate me when I see threads that say sub is the "easy" way out. Recovery, no matter what method used, is not easy.
Anyway, Thank you everyone that has helped and supported me and I hope I can do the same back.
Love,
Redd
p.s. Today is day 13 and each day I learn more on living clean.
Just wanted to say hi to all, and add my 2 cents. MJ, I agree with you about all the drama here. We all have opinions, but it seems that some people think that their oppinion is the "right way" so to speak. As individuals, we all have to recover in the way thats best for us, whether that be cold turkey, tapering, suboxone, 12 steps, meetings, or whatever. I came here for support and I found it with you and Marina, Mistyeyes, Kerry, Browndog, Johndee, Addictmom, Friend,Denmar, wenses, tridle and so many more. It is unfortunate to see all this senseless bickering. All we can do I guess, is sift through the posts and find what works for us, but sometimes it does frustrate me when I see threads that say sub is the "easy" way out. Recovery, no matter what method used, is not easy.
Anyway, Thank you everyone that has helped and supported me and I hope I can do the same back.
Love,
Redd
p.s. Today is day 13 and each day I learn more on living clean.
Dear Redd You just gave me a big lumpy in my throat.You have given back & you don't even know it.I am so proud of you.I really really am & I gotta say I'm proud of me 2.You sound like you are so much better.Everyday I'm in recovery is good.Yeah living in real life can really stink but at least sober I have a chance to deal with life instead of being hidden away from it.......mj
I'm one of the "newbies" in serious withdrawal and have been posting on the "my input to the new guy" thread. I was feeling frustrated, too, that it seemed that I come to this site for help and have to dig through all the arguing and bickering to find valuable, useful information. I was trying to keep away from these negative threads and now that you mention it, it seems rather funny that two folks in need of help keep answering each other back without much input from all the more experienced people on the boards. Anyway, just my 2 cents. I continue to persevere in my recovery in spite of problems on this board and truly appreciate all those that are trying to provide positive, valuable help.
Hey Amom, How are you doing? Know it's cold up there, and I won't make you laugh by complaining about our 20 degrees here!
So how is the tapering going? Not to pry, just wondered if your plan is working. Hope so! Let me know if you need to talk.
I have to get. I'm going our with a friend today and do some girl stuff! Talk later!
Dear Maggie I am so glad you are "Keeping On Keeping On"It is a hard thing to break the hold of addictions & its worse when you feel that there is nobody to understand your pain.It can be heartbreaking to try & reach out only to find empty air.I am glad you are sticking around.There are alot of GREAT people on here.I've been here since Nov 04 and I don't think I ever got "into"it with anyone.They've all treated me nicely so I do the same.As a newbie I hope your realize what a help you already are by being new.Listening to you & seeing & hearing what you feel & what your going through reminds me of myself when I started.I guess its like hearing yourself.I hear what you & other newbies say & I think back to how I was compare it to how I am and I realize that I AM doing it.Something I never thought I would do.I QUIT TAKEN 15+ PILLS A DAY>So seeing a new member like yourself is sort of like therapy.I'm sorry I ended up getting into that deeper than planned,I just wanted you to know that you have already been a good help.....mj
Maggie and Redd, I am glad you are both still here and hopefully, plan on staying. It is unsettling to have to sift through threads to find one where it's OK to talk. Even if you think you are avoiding the drama, it seems to pop up in unexpected places and that is not fair to you or any other newbies. I am sorry for that. Maybe it will end soon. In the meanwhile, if I can do anything to make your visits here more pleasant or helpful, please let me know. I;d love to help you. This place was a Godsend to me when I started in Nov. It can really be a great tool in recovery.
Take care and have a great day!!!!!!!1
Amom -- sometimes that web site is not up-to-date. New doctors apply to be able to prescribe sub and they don't get added to the web site. So, don't be afraid, and don't cancel your appt!! I'm sure you made it clear that you need to detox or whatever and the doc's office understands that. Good luck to you!!!
MJ - hey darlin, great post. I'm sorry you feel that way. Maybe all the "good" people here can change your mind. Just remember that people post their opinions, and everyone is entitled to their opinion. It doesn't mean that it is right or true. (You know that saying -- opinions are like a**holes, everyone has one!!) Hahahaha! Just read it, or skip it and go on with your life and your recovery. I can tell you are a sensitive person and take things personally, (like I do), but we need to toughen up and not let things that rub us the wrong way affect us negatively. So, please cheer up and have a great, safe, warm day!!! Love ya!
MJ - hey darlin, great post. I'm sorry you feel that way. Maybe all the "good" people here can change your mind. Just remember that people post their opinions, and everyone is entitled to their opinion. It doesn't mean that it is right or true. (You know that saying -- opinions are like a**holes, everyone has one!!) Hahahaha! Just read it, or skip it and go on with your life and your recovery. I can tell you are a sensitive person and take things personally, (like I do), but we need to toughen up and not let things that rub us the wrong way affect us negatively. So, please cheer up and have a great, safe, warm day!!! Love ya!
Thanks everyone,
Goota go get my haircut, I'll check in later, and yes, I'm here to stay on this board.
Love,
Redd
Goota go get my haircut, I'll check in later, and yes, I'm here to stay on this board.
Love,
Redd
