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Molly....WWW. TLCTX . com..Let me know what you think...
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Outpatient is so much easier. Hubby had to go to a class for his job. Other than sleeping during a movie and having a pen thrown at me to wake me up it was good.




MJ the best time to be on here is when you are depressed, God will speak to you through someone and give you comfort. So GET OVER IT! and stay on, we got lots of catchup to do.

except for now, i got to snooze so i can make my meeting, i will be back on a little later, maybe 6:30 cst
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dear Wiversen I found another site that looks very intersesting its...www.interventionctr.com/PAWS it looks like it has alot of good info Im jumping back & forth reading that & posting so let me know your thoughts also

Janet was it a ballpoint??lol.It must be nice to be home & go as a out patient.How long is your program for??/When does hubby get back?Do you miss him alot??/or are you glad you got a break?

HEY JANET LOL YOU GET ON WITH YOUR BAD SELF...Im trying to get myself oput of it but it may be from my meds so shhhhhhhhhhhhhh...before I get ya with a perminate marker...lol
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yes, i miss him, but i'm glad to have the run of the house by myself too, i've set some boundaries with Tyler- no smoking weed on the property. Dylan is going to the meeting with me, got to remember to bring his Gameboy!

really not sure how long this outpatient lasts, but i plan on going for aftercare too.

gonna snooze now, see ya later babes!
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Molly, Janet,

How are my two favorite truants? I've missed you both -- it wasn't the same around here without you.

Love,
Gina
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thanks Gina, i've missed this board sooooo much, i'm doing well, got my head on fairly straight,(well, i found an extra screw, not sure where it goes!)

and now for naptime...

later chickies
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Gina HI Yes I feel like ive been away forever.It made me happy to see that I was missed.My depression got so bad that I just couldnt post.I hate to think that my depression would bring others down so I stayed away.
Now lady how are you?Are you all packed up?I really lost touch huh???
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Janet, Sweet dreams.

Molly,

I think most people would be fine with you bringing your depression to the board -- if that would help you, please don't stay away.

If I can help in anyway, please email me, ke_gina@hotmail.com. Anyway, email me cause there's something I want to send you.

Don't talk to me about packing. I'm doing it and it's mostly done but I use every single one of my tools just to get through it. It's so pathetic. I used to be able to pack in my sleep (and on drugs, lololol).

Love,
Gina

I'm so glad you're both back.
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Gina You got mail.So when is the move?Are you getting excited about it?Arent you going to miss the beauty of where you are?...mj
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wow mj, you are one popular lady! i sign off for 30 minutes and you have 1000 replyes to your thread! anyway i am doing pretty good, i am glad i went with the sub, i think that was the only way for me i wouldn't want to sway anyones dedision on how to quit but this is a good way out i feel. smonday i went 20 hours between my prec's and the sub. that pretty much sucked as we all know. then after i took it, mabye 40 minutes till i fely a lot better. i had no idea it was going to be like that, if i would have known that i would have quit much sooner. well i quit now i have to try and maintain. i don't know how long i will be on this i guess i will play it day by day. whats happening in your world? oh also do you know if you can have cocktails on sub? my dr is VERY vague when i ask him questions, he said i can drink in moderation, like i know what that word means to normal people hello?????
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Wiversen,Yes that is interesting.I put it into my puter so I can read more later.It could be whats going on.But would I get that beings Im still on the sub?I mean I dont get a buzz from the sub so in a sense Im not getting that feeling that my DOC gave me.You my dear have given me lots to think about.I def want to look into this more.
What do you think?Do you think that is what is happening to us???
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As far as I know you are NOT supposed to drink alcohol while on Sub. That is what my boyfriends prescription said anyway.
Take care
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MJ, Just wanted to say hello and ask you why you haven't e-mailed me back? Do I have to track you down all around town?LOL I hope you continue to post.. The board wouldn't be the same without you. So stop thinking it's better for you not to be here, we all want to hear from you. We all want you to smile:-) again!!Rae
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MOLLYJEAN?

You've been holding out on me! You've got mail.

Rae, I love the way you tell it like it is (Donna's thread). Good post.

Love,
Gina
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You guys are awesome you know that?Rae I did write you back.Maybe its lost in cyberspace.LOL I know better than to try & inore you sweety.
Angela,Im not suppose to drink anyways ,cause I have Chrons.I did drink acouple weeks back & boy I was hurting real bad for a couple days.
Now I want to say something just in case it starts to happen with you.My first week or 2 on the sub I did get weepy.I didnt go into a depression like Ive been these last couple weeks,but I would just get....sad I guess.So if that happens try to just ride it out cry if you need to.
Do you have any kind of meeting plans or anything?I think thats where I messed up.For so long I couldnt talk at all so I guess I had a good reson for not getting therapy.Now my voice is back SORT OF.I need to get my butt in gear & start therapy....but the addict in me keeps putting it off....
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Gina No I dont.Ill resend you my addy but I swear your note is a no show lol
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Hey Mickey Your in Canada right? How did your boyfriend get sub? Hi MJ good to hear from you Tracey
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MJ....Yes, think thats what it is....I dont think that it has anything to do with the fact your on sub...I think that it looks like an intermittent type thing. I just read your post and will check out your link. Im thinking PAWS comes in waves and you were just dealt a nasty hand of cards (smoking) and this is what triggers PAWS. Stress...Need skills and tools to get thru it. Im at a stage where Im TOTALLY self protective to the point where it isnt good. Need skills for that. Sounds to me like you hit a pretty big funk once you hit the walls of PAWS. hmmmm

The song, I wanna new drug...one that wont make me sick, one that wont keep me up at night......Sing like s*** dont i? He- he he
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mj, i have a few messages into different addiction specialists. like i mentioned the dr i saw on friday i really don't care for, but i had to pay him $500 to see him and get my script so thats what i did, but in the mean time i am looking for a new one if i need to see this dr and talk out my problems than i want to like him. he is so vague in his answeres and i can't get a word in to save my life he is really inexperienced and it showes. i have only been on sub for 3 days and he only gave me 3 8mg to start and he already lost count???he told me to take a whole pill last night instead of breaking it in 2, well i already had 1/2 that morning per his instructions and he wanted me only to have 8 mg... that would have taken me to 12 mg hello who is the dr here??? so now i am patiently waiting for him to call in my refill since i am not out of the 3 do you think he has called it in since our phone conversation at noon?? hell no. i am supposed to take it the same time everyday and this gut can't get off his but and call it in for the last 5 hours. hey dosn't he sound well worth $500
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Angela I totally 100% agree that you should find a DR that wants to help you not just take your money.Sub is a great tool but it is still a drug and as addicts we really NEED a Dr to help us figure the sub thing out,I hope against hope you can find a DR that takes the time to care.Thats where I lucked out.Ive been with my Dr since I was 17(Im 37)so there is a bond with us.This Dr you have doesnt sound like he has a clue & with sub you def need a clue.

Wiversen,you know you really have me thinking.It makes sense what your saying.And from what Ive read so far Stress is a big facture in it.It is something I will bring up at my appointment next week.I just know that the depression Ive been having is NOT normal.I mean yes I have depression but the way Ive been is very out there ya know>???