this time of year is hard for not only me but lots of plp i lost my mom at 15 of 92 on dec. 11. every year it is hard for me and everyone knows it even my wife can tell a change in me. my dad well we dont ever spend a holiday together since 92 long story he pretty much just ran off . so that was a hard time in my life there have been x mases that i spent with friends and no family but i was with someone thats all that counts. so this holiday season dont be alone clean or not that is a time of fellowship and rejoyce! i always try to forget about all the bad stuff and remember the good in my life sometimes the devil he trys to make it impossible to see the light but with faith in the lord he will make the light come again. i was talking to a buddy at work today that is still doing the same i was doing he told me congrats on 11 days and told me its all a mind thing man you hang in there he said if u take one pill u are planting a seed that the devil will soon harvest if u are not responsible. so take it one day at a time. he is a recoverd H addict and i asked why did u start taking these things man he said we all have our reasons now thats open ended.
Holidays do seem to bring lots of good people down.We just have to learn to deal w/ those emotions.I wasn't a holiday person for a long time.Then when i thoought i could be excited again.We found out my dad was sick.We lost him just last year.So things are rough for me too.I know how you feel.But i'm gonna remember all the great things that i have in my life now.I know i was blessed to spend those 28 yrs w/ Dad.But know,i'm blessed living a clean life,w/ great family and friends.
Gotta be thankful for the small stuff.
Take care.
DJ
Gotta be thankful for the small stuff.
Take care.
DJ
amen to that i have a great family and i look forward to the season.
