yes i know i alreay posted about this but i know how im feeling lately--wanting to drink and i know evewntually i will use if i do that, so i wanted to just say it again--be carefull. also does anybody else get sick and tired of the commercialism and the pressure to buy buy buy. sure-- i am a willing participant i think there are some really great things about the hoidays and i love the fact that so many give this time of year to thehomelss--but what about me--the not quite poor enough to get assistance but not near wealthy enough to not be totally guilt ridden over what i cannot but for all the peeps in my life. and while i feel totally guilty i also feel angry--this is not what holidays are all about!!!i am almost(almost i say) glad i lost my bonus check because its forcing me to focus on the important part of the holiday--enjoying life and family i dont have extra$ to worry about spending so whats the point--anyway thats my little rant--the stores make me wanna puke and the people sweaty with nervouse worry as they stumble through the isles being bombarded with retail beuracracy--whoa nely--slow down there amity--ok im ok now--my fingers are on fire LOL
love you all to death--glad i have a place to rant and rave
i still want to open up my own store like they have in japan where you pay to go into a room full of breakables and have at it--throwing kicking breaking whatever you please--wouldnt that be the ticket--who i going to be there on opening day--cmon you know it woulb be the best--ok ive lost it but--hey i got you to smile
Amity, the holidays are wonderful and awful, all at the same time.
this is a very hard time for many people, addicts, and non-addicts. we all want to do so much more than we are humanly able to do. we all want to give so much more than we can. We feel inadequate, we feel pressured, we feel depressed................we feel so many things we try not to feel all year.
Yep, the stores are crazed, The prices are out of sight, and findng just the right thing for the people we love is so hard.
Maybe it's time to think about what the people we love truly want. they want us to happy, they want us to be healthy, they want us to spend time with them, they want us to be in touch with them. Isn't that what we really want for them?
I have a recipe for some simple peanut butter chocalate balls that I make at Christmas, which cost very little, but are so appreciated by my family, because I made them especially for them, they look forward to them. I send them so many other great things, but the peanut butter balls are what they remember and want. when that package is opened on Christmas, even if I am not with them physically, I am sharing the day with them. It makes me feel so good, and it gives my grandkids a feeling of family.
I guess we have really lost the meaning of what the holidays should mean. that doesn't mean we don't have the ability to get back to the basics in some way.
Don't let the commercialization get you down Amity. Do something to make your soul happy even if it's just to say an extra prayer for someone you know is suffering.
Be easy on yourself. Keep posting
rita
this is a very hard time for many people, addicts, and non-addicts. we all want to do so much more than we are humanly able to do. we all want to give so much more than we can. We feel inadequate, we feel pressured, we feel depressed................we feel so many things we try not to feel all year.
Yep, the stores are crazed, The prices are out of sight, and findng just the right thing for the people we love is so hard.
Maybe it's time to think about what the people we love truly want. they want us to happy, they want us to be healthy, they want us to spend time with them, they want us to be in touch with them. Isn't that what we really want for them?
I have a recipe for some simple peanut butter chocalate balls that I make at Christmas, which cost very little, but are so appreciated by my family, because I made them especially for them, they look forward to them. I send them so many other great things, but the peanut butter balls are what they remember and want. when that package is opened on Christmas, even if I am not with them physically, I am sharing the day with them. It makes me feel so good, and it gives my grandkids a feeling of family.
I guess we have really lost the meaning of what the holidays should mean. that doesn't mean we don't have the ability to get back to the basics in some way.
Don't let the commercialization get you down Amity. Do something to make your soul happy even if it's just to say an extra prayer for someone you know is suffering.
Be easy on yourself. Keep posting
rita
i just HATE HATE HATE the hoildays me and my man have been at each other about money weeks now!. The stress is so uncalled for. So many extras like giving $ to my bosses christmas gift card..buying a gift for both my school aged kids to exchange. Having my family and his to buy for + him and 3 kids stocking stuffers and food too. I'm so fed up with the whole stinking lot of it. Funny how when i was using it was not stressful i acually did not care who got what or what got done. Now i'm super stressed about it all i'll be so THANKFUL when it's just over.
As for the drinking part i never did stop drinking except with the baby's pregnancy and yes it can be a trigger to use H.
THE STORE sounds like a awsome ideal i would pay to get that kinda relife. I hate the cold the lights the money the snow and Santa. To top it off i'm getting older grrrrr
As for the drinking part i never did stop drinking except with the baby's pregnancy and yes it can be a trigger to use H.
THE STORE sounds like a awsome ideal i would pay to get that kinda relife. I hate the cold the lights the money the snow and Santa. To top it off i'm getting older grrrrr
Oh, Amity don't ya know you're stuck in that place..........that evil place........my brother tells meit all the time.
"You'd be better off dirt poor or filthy rich...............unfortunately he says you're lower middle class...................and these are the people forgotten..........and right screwed............that's where we stand, honey"
Heck with these commercialized holidays..............make us all some pot holders or a cross out of macarronie like we did in Vacation Bible School"
You're gonna be alright babes..........still upset ya lost that loot though.........that got to me............maybe a better turn will come around your way, but ya did good with it.
Break stuff over here for free...........I don't do it anymore, but wouldn't bother me in the least.............come on over girls............plenty of Hummels, and Precious Moments, and well lots of just breakable stuff.
"You'd be better off dirt poor or filthy rich...............unfortunately he says you're lower middle class...................and these are the people forgotten..........and right screwed............that's where we stand, honey"
Heck with these commercialized holidays..............make us all some pot holders or a cross out of macarronie like we did in Vacation Bible School"
You're gonna be alright babes..........still upset ya lost that loot though.........that got to me............maybe a better turn will come around your way, but ya did good with it.
Break stuff over here for free...........I don't do it anymore, but wouldn't bother me in the least.............come on over girls............plenty of Hummels, and Precious Moments, and well lots of just breakable stuff.
Aww Amity...I know how you feel hun. I dont have any money whatsoever to buy peeps anything, I am trying to claim Income Support for me and my daughter but havent had a penny for almost 5 weeks. How do they expect me and my kid to survive with nothing. All because they are waiting on the death certificate which I have now posted to several different addresses.
I hate Christmas but I am however looking forward to the look on Kialas face when she sees all her presents.
I also feel like opening a bottle everynight. Although it wont leed to anything more, I keep thinking I cant turn to drink when times are hard. Its not a solution, its a temperary break from reality and you have to face it some time or another.
You keep uo your strength girl...am thinking of you always.
xx
I hate Christmas but I am however looking forward to the look on Kialas face when she sees all her presents.
I also feel like opening a bottle everynight. Although it wont leed to anything more, I keep thinking I cant turn to drink when times are hard. Its not a solution, its a temperary break from reality and you have to face it some time or another.
You keep uo your strength girl...am thinking of you always.
xx
since our troubles have started up again i have hit the booze every night for the past couple of weeks neil says im a hipacrit and i contradict myself and i know he is right but i dont know how to cope the police are still after him , he is still doing his detox , i need to get 150.00 to pay off my girls pc for christmas , i still need cash for normal living excpences and my kids have been off school for the past week with chicken poxs which is sooo stressful
Emz just like heroin, alcohol is a temp escape...and can also turn into an addiction which would make things 100 times harder. Just think about what you are doing, and remember things arent always going to be so bad.
I have been half tempted to open a bottle or take a few pills to help me sleep but as someone said to me before, sort the problem why you aint sleeping cos until, that problem is always going to be there.
For you drinking you might feel better but your not actually getting any further..your actually just making things worse. Do these kids need to active addicts for parents?? You have choices....you dont have to be with Neil, but you also have to think about those kids and what is best for them.
I had to make the hardest decision of my life choosing my daughter over Kevin, but I knew if I didnt leave her safety was eventually going to be at risk and mine...I took that choice and thier was consequences but we are safe all the same and I dont regret those decisions.
Please think before you drink and if you ever need to talk you know where I am.
Take care...Lynds xx
I have been half tempted to open a bottle or take a few pills to help me sleep but as someone said to me before, sort the problem why you aint sleeping cos until, that problem is always going to be there.
For you drinking you might feel better but your not actually getting any further..your actually just making things worse. Do these kids need to active addicts for parents?? You have choices....you dont have to be with Neil, but you also have to think about those kids and what is best for them.
I had to make the hardest decision of my life choosing my daughter over Kevin, but I knew if I didnt leave her safety was eventually going to be at risk and mine...I took that choice and thier was consequences but we are safe all the same and I dont regret those decisions.
Please think before you drink and if you ever need to talk you know where I am.
Take care...Lynds xx
Don't let it get you down! I don't give a stuff about money or the lack of it. I got my tree, a real one, and I've called it Rebecca. Someone gave me a big bag of decorations - they're all like 25 years old, but my tree looks like trees looked when I was a kid. My boyfriend has got me this long black cloak he bought in a charity shop (I know coz I've had to try it on and take it to be altered coz it's a bit too long). I 've got loads of silly stuff just bought for a pound or two. Maybe they won't be treasured, but they'll bring a smile on the day. And my little girl, I've got her a rocking horse as her main gift. I'm just looking forward to having a nice day, when we're all together, and hopefully enjoying, not arguing! It's what you make it...
love
Diff x
love
Diff x
I usually hate xmas as it reminds me of my bro who died in 98....so its kinda sombre in our household on the day ...like sumthins missing ...and my ma gets a bit tearful...after a glass of wine or two.....but as things have been a bit tight money wise of late with me being unemployed...i was dreading it ..but i got a nice juicy backdated check from the social last week which should cover xmas for Sian and my ma......and as i mentioned on a recent topic i got myself a new job ...which dont mess with my methadone script......so ive got an awful lot to be grateful for......things work out in strange ways.
Happy holidays to one and all and...Bryn specially im thinking of you....take care.......Davey
Happy holidays to one and all and...Bryn specially im thinking of you....take care.......Davey
It's such a hard time of year. It seems like the rest of the world is having a fine old time...but I don't think that's the case...thinking of you Amity...lots of love
Maddy x x x
Maddy x x x
