I WAS JUST WONDERING..........
WHAT ARE THE WAYS THAT ALL OF YOU GET YOUR PILLS???
FOR EXAMPLE...I HAVE READ ON HERE THAT ALOT OF PEOPLE GET THEM FROM DOCTORS. AND I HAVE ALSO HERD THAT ALOT OF PEOPLE BUY THEM FROM FRIENDS.
WHAT WAYS DO YOU GET THEM???? NOT TRYING TO GET TO PERSONAL, I WAS JUST WONDERING!!!!!!!!
YOUR FRIEND, CHRISTINA (A.K.A. FRIEND)
well i get mine from a dr. at first when i got addicted i was going to 2 different pain clinics and a rhumatory(sp) dr. now i am down to just my rhum. dr. i get 240 10mg methadone per month and used to runout way early even when i would go to three dr's but now i am tapering down and i have plenty left at the end of the month so i guess my answer is from Dr's.
johnny
johnny
Hey niblet the answer is sort of easy.If you want something bad enough you play the game.Which could be anyway.Of course the pitfalls are many from getting caught with fake scripts to getting something off line just to find out its not what you thought.Belive me I use(THANK GOD I CAN SAY USED)to play a couple DR find some quacks that just hand them out like candy.Looking back I'm glad I've gotten on the sub(even though I don't get high)but I'm still glad I desided not to play THAT game anymore you can never win it once you start....mj
Christina,
How are you doing girl.....things going ok.....Hey whats up with this question. You know I have been getting real cynical lately......You aren't still on your rollercoaster are you.....looking for a new way to feed the need.......
Baby I hope that you are really ok. The last time you were here you were asking about the type of a pill you found.......
I am worried thats why I asked this.....I hope that this was all in innocence. If for some reason it wasn't talk to us......we do care.
Love Yah,
Tina
How are you doing girl.....things going ok.....Hey whats up with this question. You know I have been getting real cynical lately......You aren't still on your rollercoaster are you.....looking for a new way to feed the need.......
Baby I hope that you are really ok. The last time you were here you were asking about the type of a pill you found.......
I am worried thats why I asked this.....I hope that this was all in innocence. If for some reason it wasn't talk to us......we do care.
Love Yah,
Tina
I had to get off the computer after i wrote this post and i had to get the kids from school.
First i wanted to say hello and thank you to everyone.
Ya all know that i love you.
And no the pill issue that i posted about a few back was not for me....it was for my neighbor that had found it and she was telling me what she thought it was and i told her that she shouldnt take it and that i would ask a few friends that might know what it was. The friends that i was talking about to her were all of you guys!!!
To answer any questions.....YES i am still on that rollercoaster of a ride in my life.
Everytime i think that things are getting better it just seems to get alittle bit worse. My life has taken a turn forthe worse and then it gets alittle bit better and then it hits bottom again. But i guess i have it comming.
Im lossing everyone in my life and im begining to think that if love is true it will always be there, you know for better or for worse......??? But i get the feeling that my life wasnt made for that anymore. And iv just decided to come to terms with that. Its hard thinking that someone you love , loves you back nomatter what and will help you nomatter what and then you find out that there are conditions to that love. Thats not what im looking for in life. Im not looking to be fake or a lier for the rest of my life , it just makes me miserable.
I know that this is hard to understand for some....some of you may not even remember me , let alone understand me.
I started this post because i was curious about how everyone got started....not because i was looking for new and improved ways to get my pills!!!!!!!!!!
Thanks everyone for being concerend about me. Im not on here alot right now because i have to work my butt off at work in order for my fiancee not to leave me and the kids. It sucks....but i have to do what i have to do !!!!
You are all the GREATEST friends that i have ever had and i thank you for putting up with me.
Mollyjean....i am so glad that you are feeling better. I got the e-mail and i wrote you back.!!!
Your Friend, Christina(a.k.a.) Friend.
First i wanted to say hello and thank you to everyone.
Ya all know that i love you.
And no the pill issue that i posted about a few back was not for me....it was for my neighbor that had found it and she was telling me what she thought it was and i told her that she shouldnt take it and that i would ask a few friends that might know what it was. The friends that i was talking about to her were all of you guys!!!
To answer any questions.....YES i am still on that rollercoaster of a ride in my life.
Everytime i think that things are getting better it just seems to get alittle bit worse. My life has taken a turn forthe worse and then it gets alittle bit better and then it hits bottom again. But i guess i have it comming.
Im lossing everyone in my life and im begining to think that if love is true it will always be there, you know for better or for worse......??? But i get the feeling that my life wasnt made for that anymore. And iv just decided to come to terms with that. Its hard thinking that someone you love , loves you back nomatter what and will help you nomatter what and then you find out that there are conditions to that love. Thats not what im looking for in life. Im not looking to be fake or a lier for the rest of my life , it just makes me miserable.
I know that this is hard to understand for some....some of you may not even remember me , let alone understand me.
I started this post because i was curious about how everyone got started....not because i was looking for new and improved ways to get my pills!!!!!!!!!!
Thanks everyone for being concerend about me. Im not on here alot right now because i have to work my butt off at work in order for my fiancee not to leave me and the kids. It sucks....but i have to do what i have to do !!!!
You are all the GREATEST friends that i have ever had and i thank you for putting up with me.
Mollyjean....i am so glad that you are feeling better. I got the e-mail and i wrote you back.!!!
Your Friend, Christina(a.k.a.) Friend.
Hey Christina,
I don't even know what to say except you gotta get off the coaster...in the end you will lose it all. How long do you think you can hold it all together, before someone knows.....I would hate to see you wake up one morning to find it all caved in on you.....Please find the strength to get out of the h*ll you are in.......It can't be good for you living like this.....Not just the pills, but everything else going on, and all the thinking.......I sure theres lots of that going on.
Please take care out there and try to find something, someway, somehow, to get off the ride.....
Love Yah,
Tina
I don't even know what to say except you gotta get off the coaster...in the end you will lose it all. How long do you think you can hold it all together, before someone knows.....I would hate to see you wake up one morning to find it all caved in on you.....Please find the strength to get out of the h*ll you are in.......It can't be good for you living like this.....Not just the pills, but everything else going on, and all the thinking.......I sure theres lots of that going on.
Please take care out there and try to find something, someway, somehow, to get off the ride.....
Love Yah,
Tina
What's up Christina,
Sorry to hear you are down today. Sounds like you and your man may be having a hard time. Did he find out you were using again? Now he wants to leave? That's what it sounds like anyway. If that is the case then yeah that is ashame, he can't stick it out for you and find you the help you need. I think maybe going to a counsler, therapist, rehab or meetings would really benefit you. Has he talked to you about different options that may benefit you in recovery? Are you still going to a doctor or getting them from the neighbor? Just being nosey, cause I care. If it's the doctor you are getting them from then he should help you get off the pills. If it's the neighbor then she needs to back off and respect the fact you are trying to get clean and you need to be honest with her about your addiction. If she cares about you at all she won't be giving them to you no matter how much you beg.
Anyway, I truely hope you get the help you need. Sounds like you have been on a rollercoaster from hell for a while now on and off the pills and throwing yourself in withdrawls all the time. It is a never ending battle, I know and it sucks. We are all here for you girly girl. Hang in there.
Hugs,Rae
Sorry to hear you are down today. Sounds like you and your man may be having a hard time. Did he find out you were using again? Now he wants to leave? That's what it sounds like anyway. If that is the case then yeah that is ashame, he can't stick it out for you and find you the help you need. I think maybe going to a counsler, therapist, rehab or meetings would really benefit you. Has he talked to you about different options that may benefit you in recovery? Are you still going to a doctor or getting them from the neighbor? Just being nosey, cause I care. If it's the doctor you are getting them from then he should help you get off the pills. If it's the neighbor then she needs to back off and respect the fact you are trying to get clean and you need to be honest with her about your addiction. If she cares about you at all she won't be giving them to you no matter how much you beg.
Anyway, I truely hope you get the help you need. Sounds like you have been on a rollercoaster from hell for a while now on and off the pills and throwing yourself in withdrawls all the time. It is a never ending battle, I know and it sucks. We are all here for you girly girl. Hang in there.
Hugs,Rae
I know this post was started yesterday........but i got off the computer and came back on it today to see who was here and found that you all had written back to me.
A few things to clarify.......No my fiancee dosnt know about the pill again. If he did then he would leave for sure. Right now were getting along.....but he always makes the remarks that i always have some type of drama going on and thatit always is aomething with me that is wrong. So from now on i have decided that im not gonna complain about my feelings to him anymore. Im just gonna keep my mouth shut for a bit and not say anything.
He told me that he likes me better the way that i am now and that he likes the fact that i have stopped complaining about all the w/d's that i was going through. What he dosnt understand is that i still take the pills. Everytime i get the nerve to tell him the truth, he just says another thing about how great it is to have the realy "me" back and then i dont have the heart to tell him tht it isnt me here right now.
We got behind on the finances after x-mas because i was off work for so long after the surgery and now that im working again its better money wise. I cant afford to take off work right now to go through all the withdrawls again at this moment. And he almost left me a few weeks back because of money issues and not being able to help pay the bills. I have to work to keep him with me.!!!
I just wanted to say thank you to you Rae and to you Tina for writing to me about this. That was nice of you both. And yes.....Rae....its the Dr. that is giving me them right now........but not for much longer. My neighbor is stupid and she dosnt even know what she takes half the time. I wouldnt take anything from her , even if i was desperate. But thanks for your concern.!!!!!
Thanks again. Your Friend, Christina (a.k.a. friend)
A few things to clarify.......No my fiancee dosnt know about the pill again. If he did then he would leave for sure. Right now were getting along.....but he always makes the remarks that i always have some type of drama going on and thatit always is aomething with me that is wrong. So from now on i have decided that im not gonna complain about my feelings to him anymore. Im just gonna keep my mouth shut for a bit and not say anything.
He told me that he likes me better the way that i am now and that he likes the fact that i have stopped complaining about all the w/d's that i was going through. What he dosnt understand is that i still take the pills. Everytime i get the nerve to tell him the truth, he just says another thing about how great it is to have the realy "me" back and then i dont have the heart to tell him tht it isnt me here right now.
We got behind on the finances after x-mas because i was off work for so long after the surgery and now that im working again its better money wise. I cant afford to take off work right now to go through all the withdrawls again at this moment. And he almost left me a few weeks back because of money issues and not being able to help pay the bills. I have to work to keep him with me.!!!
I just wanted to say thank you to you Rae and to you Tina for writing to me about this. That was nice of you both. And yes.....Rae....its the Dr. that is giving me them right now........but not for much longer. My neighbor is stupid and she dosnt even know what she takes half the time. I wouldnt take anything from her , even if i was desperate. But thanks for your concern.!!!!!
Thanks again. Your Friend, Christina (a.k.a. friend)
Hey Christina,
I have got to run for a few so let me make this short. I read your post and I think that stood out was that you said" I have to work to to keep him with me." That sucks. Not me it's more like my man better go to work stay there until he brings me some money,LOL For real. I would hate to feel like I had to work just to keep a man with me. I have worked and I have been a stay at home mom but luckily it has always been my chose either way. Glad to her you are at least getteing them from your doctor instead of the neighbor. Maybe when you decided to stop taking the meds your doctor will wean you off slwoly and give you something for the withdrawl. I know you didn't want to tell him a while back but maybe oneday you will change your mind and he will help!!! Keep in touch,Rae
I have got to run for a few so let me make this short. I read your post and I think that stood out was that you said" I have to work to to keep him with me." That sucks. Not me it's more like my man better go to work stay there until he brings me some money,LOL For real. I would hate to feel like I had to work just to keep a man with me. I have worked and I have been a stay at home mom but luckily it has always been my chose either way. Glad to her you are at least getteing them from your doctor instead of the neighbor. Maybe when you decided to stop taking the meds your doctor will wean you off slwoly and give you something for the withdrawl. I know you didn't want to tell him a while back but maybe oneday you will change your mind and he will help!!! Keep in touch,Rae
THANKS RAE!!! HAVE A GREAT DAY. IM HOME FROM WORK TODAY, I HAD TO HAVE MY BIG LEFT TOE NAIL REMOVED THISMORNING BECAUSE OF AN IN GROWN NAIL. (HURT LIKE HE**) bUT ITS O.K. NOW. jUST HURTS TO BEND IT WHEN I WALK SO I TOOK THE DAY OFF!!!
ANYONE SEEN MOLLYJEAN LATELY????
HEY MOLLY IF YOUR OUT THERE I LOVE YA!!!! THINKING ABOUT YOU !!!!
YOUR FRIEND .....CHRISTINA
ANYONE SEEN MOLLYJEAN LATELY????
HEY MOLLY IF YOUR OUT THERE I LOVE YA!!!! THINKING ABOUT YOU !!!!
YOUR FRIEND .....CHRISTINA
I know what ya mean. Ingrown toe nails hurt like a biat*h!!! I have never had to go to the doctor for one, thank goodness. I get them a lot though especially when I wear certain sandles in the summer.
Anyway MJ, who knows she is probably somewhere farting,LOL Read her earlier post- there were a lot of fart talking going on. I am sure she will come around in a bit. Ok this is it I am leaving the buliding be back later! Peace,Rae
Anyway MJ, who knows she is probably somewhere farting,LOL Read her earlier post- there were a lot of fart talking going on. I am sure she will come around in a bit. Ok this is it I am leaving the buliding be back later! Peace,Rae
Hi Friend-
I understand the pain your feeling. I know now (gone 6 days) I was addicted to pills and my man. I left both. WORST THING I'VE EVER HAD TO DO....but I know its the best thing I've ever done. I'm going through the w/d and the lonliness of being alone....but I know that there is better to come. Hang in there, if you need to talk please feel free to email me....sandy_carter@hotmail.com.
Sandy-
I understand the pain your feeling. I know now (gone 6 days) I was addicted to pills and my man. I left both. WORST THING I'VE EVER HAD TO DO....but I know its the best thing I've ever done. I'm going through the w/d and the lonliness of being alone....but I know that there is better to come. Hang in there, if you need to talk please feel free to email me....sandy_carter@hotmail.com.
Sandy-
THANK YOU SANDY. THAT WAS VERY NICE OF YOU !!!!!!!
IF I MAY ASK, WHY DID YOU HAVE TO LEAVE YOUR MAN???
MINE HAS RELY DONE NOTHING WRONG, BUT I FEEL LIKE I ALWAYS HAVE TO BE THAT STUPID SMILEY PERSON 27/7 BECAUSE ALL THE SO CALLEED "DRAMA" IS CAUSING HIM TO GET FRUSTRATED.
THAT PART IS OVER WITH NOW, I HAVE JUST DECIDED TO KEEP MY MOUTH SHUT AND KEEP TO MYSELF ABOUT THINGS. I KNOW ITS NOT HEALTHY , BUT IT WORKS FOR NOW AND KEEPS THE PEACE IN THE HOUSE. MY KIDS WOULD HATE ME IF I LEFT HIM AS HE IS THE ONLY ONE THAT HAS EVER BEEN CLOSE ENOUGH TO THEM AS A FATHER!!1
GOOD LUCK WITH EVERYTHING!!! I'LL BE THINKING ABOUT YOU. AND ILL WRITE TO YOU E-MAIL.
YOUR FRIEND CHRISTINA
IF I MAY ASK, WHY DID YOU HAVE TO LEAVE YOUR MAN???
MINE HAS RELY DONE NOTHING WRONG, BUT I FEEL LIKE I ALWAYS HAVE TO BE THAT STUPID SMILEY PERSON 27/7 BECAUSE ALL THE SO CALLEED "DRAMA" IS CAUSING HIM TO GET FRUSTRATED.
THAT PART IS OVER WITH NOW, I HAVE JUST DECIDED TO KEEP MY MOUTH SHUT AND KEEP TO MYSELF ABOUT THINGS. I KNOW ITS NOT HEALTHY , BUT IT WORKS FOR NOW AND KEEPS THE PEACE IN THE HOUSE. MY KIDS WOULD HATE ME IF I LEFT HIM AS HE IS THE ONLY ONE THAT HAS EVER BEEN CLOSE ENOUGH TO THEM AS A FATHER!!1
GOOD LUCK WITH EVERYTHING!!! I'LL BE THINKING ABOUT YOU. AND ILL WRITE TO YOU E-MAIL.
YOUR FRIEND CHRISTINA