the posts have been a bit slack recently,so was just wondering how Robbie&especially geoff is.for anyone interested im doin o.k just,off 6wks.now but over the last cple.of days its been very tough,am goin to collect my meth script weds so if i get out of heroin central i.e the meth.clinic,all will be well.the cravings for smack are bad but the benzos are killing me,not sleeping to well&well moody with everyone,but im clean&its gonna stay that way.we all have bad days but as i said it seems these last few have been the hardest for me.enough of my woe is me line.hope you all have a good 4th over the Atlantic&best wishes to all our european friends...all the best ..davey the rambler
Hi Davey....... Tres here........we havent talked b4, but i have been following your threads.....I'm like the silent observer, only interjecting when i feel I have something of worth to say.....which I dont feel is often....lol.........I am really proud of you and happy that u can get your scripts away from the clinic..........those clinics are so full of temptation. Benzos..they r so hard to kick.......in rehab I used to see those ppl literally bouncing off the walls, and even tho' the heroin detox is hard, getting sick and all, I wouldn't have been able to stand that jumpy skitzy feeling hanging on so long.........I have two yrs cleans........2 yrs and a month mind u........:-), but still suffer from great anxiety. My doctor have prescribed this drug risperdal for me, helps wiht that edgy, heart racing, crazy out of my f***ing mind feeling I still get.......its not a narcotic and non- addictive, maybe that is something u could check out.......
Well have a great 4th over there in England, me, I'll be working here and most likely bored out of me skull, who is coming in to a diner on the fourth ?? I have great faith in you and your recovery......from what i read u really want this and that is one of the most important things........
Cheers to ya
Well have a great 4th over there in England, me, I'll be working here and most likely bored out of me skull, who is coming in to a diner on the fourth ?? I have great faith in you and your recovery......from what i read u really want this and that is one of the most important things........
Cheers to ya
..Davey..
..Cheers mate.i,ve been ok..its so hot here at the moment..so im just enjoying the sun..i have a couple of days break from here now and again..this site has helped me alot with my recovery..but you need a break from it now and again ya know wot im saying..sorry to read you,ve had a few rough days lately..but its impossible to go thru everyday feeling ok and not thinking about a bit of tackle..you will get days like that but all you can do is fight off the temptations..but your doing well..6 weeks is massive mate..the insomnia is a killer in it..hope you will get your sleeping pattern back on track..it will take a while but whren it comes..its a great feeling waking up clean..all the best to ya..stay strong mate..good luck..Robbie..
..Cheers mate.i,ve been ok..its so hot here at the moment..so im just enjoying the sun..i have a couple of days break from here now and again..this site has helped me alot with my recovery..but you need a break from it now and again ya know wot im saying..sorry to read you,ve had a few rough days lately..but its impossible to go thru everyday feeling ok and not thinking about a bit of tackle..you will get days like that but all you can do is fight off the temptations..but your doing well..6 weeks is massive mate..the insomnia is a killer in it..hope you will get your sleeping pattern back on track..it will take a while but whren it comes..its a great feeling waking up clean..all the best to ya..stay strong mate..good luck..Robbie..
Hey Davey
I was up a 4 am (as usual) . Most every day I make a cup a coffee ,maybe check out this site, read the paper, maybe look for a movie ,then get ready for work.
As long as ya dont feel like schit dont let the not sleeping thing bother ya.
Today I grabbed my fishing pole & was wasting time at a NJ lake at 5am.
Anyway ,hope ya feel OK- sit back and cheer on Italy today.-
peace,
jack
I was up a 4 am (as usual) . Most every day I make a cup a coffee ,maybe check out this site, read the paper, maybe look for a movie ,then get ready for work.
As long as ya dont feel like schit dont let the not sleeping thing bother ya.
Today I grabbed my fishing pole & was wasting time at a NJ lake at 5am.
Anyway ,hope ya feel OK- sit back and cheer on Italy today.-
peace,
jack
just to say thanks,Robbie i know wot you mean talking a few days off the board.msTres thanks to you&your kind words...nice to meet ya.Jack its nice to know someone else has sleep probs.although i wish we could all sleep like babys.lots of lakes around my area[ireland]but i havnt got my rod out in quite a while!!!!.anyway Jack&MsTres have a good 4th,&Robbie again all the best....davey...feeling much better.
hows tricks eveyone,good i hope.wall its 4am in Ireland,had another bad nights sleep,the usual stuff agitated/restless/sweats .am gonna check out the non add.stuff MsTres mentioned.still have to carry on regardless.am off to work soon 6am start,am a welder so i think some of my work mite go into the skip,coz i feel weak as water athe mo.am not really worried about work,eveyone makes a few mistakes eh!! all the v.best.......davey
..Davey..
..The problems heroin causes a mate ?..we think once its out of our system we,ll be ok..but it grinds us down even when we,re off it..the insomnia,s a killer in it..then we get moody with the people around us..can,t be bothered to do f*** all..it takes a long time to actually get over it..mentally and physically..physically i feel ok now..but mentally i still have my bad days..but we can only soldier on thru the days mate..and hope we can stay strong enough to not use..wot your goin thru is all part of the recovery process..stay true to yourself and desires and you,ll be ok..just remember wot made you feel this way in the first place.?..take it easy mate..Robbie..
..The problems heroin causes a mate ?..we think once its out of our system we,ll be ok..but it grinds us down even when we,re off it..the insomnia,s a killer in it..then we get moody with the people around us..can,t be bothered to do f*** all..it takes a long time to actually get over it..mentally and physically..physically i feel ok now..but mentally i still have my bad days..but we can only soldier on thru the days mate..and hope we can stay strong enough to not use..wot your goin thru is all part of the recovery process..stay true to yourself and desires and you,ll be ok..just remember wot made you feel this way in the first place.?..take it easy mate..Robbie..
Robbie is so right Davey. That awful fatigue. It lingers. And the benzos take a while. I'm a year off of them next month. It took a couple of months before it all lifted. But you know Davey, you've come so far. You have to look at the road behind you as well as the one in front. The ground already traveled is a true testament of who you are. Just don't ever have it all in front of you again. You're more then halfway home on the physical front. Mentally we'll all fight for the rest of our lives I guess. But every step forward is one we won't have to take again. Don't push yourself too hard Dave. Take it as easy as you can. Love, Beck
Hey Robbie, You're a good friend to our Davey and always have good advice. How's Charlie doing? Lots of fireworks lastnight. Bought the boys a bunch and went to bed. How stupid am I. Especially with the crazy friend they had visiting. Alls I can see is a scorched drive. They're playing their instruments in the basement and staying out of my hair at the moment. I hope you're well Rob. Take good care, Beck
Hey Robbie, You're a good friend to our Davey and always have good advice. How's Charlie doing? Lots of fireworks lastnight. Bought the boys a bunch and went to bed. How stupid am I. Especially with the crazy friend they had visiting. Alls I can see is a scorched drive. They're playing their instruments in the basement and staying out of my hair at the moment. I hope you're well Rob. Take good care, Beck
Davey, you're doing really, really well.......taking it on brave, and fierce.
Everybody here knows just where you're at too......especially MsTres.....LOL....oh she's a skitzy one that girl.......I'm messing as she is my friend......like real life....lives close by been my girl since we were kids friend.
Her, and that Robbie......they're music snobs........LOL......just mssing wit them two.........they are and always will be two toughies.
O.K. so Jack get up at what time??????????? Well, color me purple.....that's one early bird.........Davey the no sleep.........the insomnia....everyone of us had it, and that was always my downfall......I'd pick up cause I just could not believe a human being can go for days with no sleep.
Here's the rick......of course don't try and force it.......don't work obviously and will just get ya PO'd...........secondly once ya accept it and say "Well it ain't coming" it kind of helps in a weird way......only other thing helped me was get yourself wedged between something......like say a wall, and bed or book case or something........I mean something real narrow, and for some reason I'd at least get at least an hour like that.........worked for me anyway.
Keep it up, man you are doing good.
Everybody here knows just where you're at too......especially MsTres.....LOL....oh she's a skitzy one that girl.......I'm messing as she is my friend......like real life....lives close by been my girl since we were kids friend.
Her, and that Robbie......they're music snobs........LOL......just mssing wit them two.........they are and always will be two toughies.
O.K. so Jack get up at what time??????????? Well, color me purple.....that's one early bird.........Davey the no sleep.........the insomnia....everyone of us had it, and that was always my downfall......I'd pick up cause I just could not believe a human being can go for days with no sleep.
Here's the rick......of course don't try and force it.......don't work obviously and will just get ya PO'd...........secondly once ya accept it and say "Well it ain't coming" it kind of helps in a weird way......only other thing helped me was get yourself wedged between something......like say a wall, and bed or book case or something........I mean something real narrow, and for some reason I'd at least get at least an hour like that.........worked for me anyway.
Keep it up, man you are doing good.
Firstly,...thanks to you all.Bryn,MsTres,Becks,Jack&our cockernee chatterbox Robbie.just read the last few posts&they lifted me a bit,also went on a music shopping spree,with money that would deff.been spent on smack 6wks.ago.so all in all things are lookin up.thanks a mill.folks.....davey
oooohhhhhh...music..........always been my best therapy davy.my first true love for getting high.......ya need to go to a show...stand realclose to the speaker and feel the reverb echo through your body.........great high that is....course after many yrs of this.........I can barely hear ya..........:-)
keep up the good work, continue to treat yourself
keep up the good work, continue to treat yourself
..Beck..
..Charleys doin well thxs..its gonna be the summer holidays soon ( 6 weeks off skool )..its to long for them..they start gettin bored after the 3rd week..so im gonna have to keep him occupied..but thats all good..fireworks are good..as long as they,re at other peoples houses.lol :- ) ..its good they,re into playing instruments thou beck..gives them sumfin to look at achieving by learning to play..im ok aswell cheers..just flowing thru the days..no stress or fuss at the ""moment"" .?..just getting on with life..hope all is well with you over your side of the water..thxs for asking how we are..take care beck..talk soon..
..Robbie..
..Bryn..
..Hope all is well and good with you my lady friend :- ) ..we have,nt talked much lately..one to one if ya know wot im saying..but its good to still see your about..and regarding our kids..no one said life would be easy..you take care of yourself also and we will talk soon..much love to ya..Robbie..
..Davey..
No probs..it feels good to go shopping and spend money on yaself that otherwise would of got spent on sumfin else a.?..glad to read ya feelin a little better in yourself..keep ya chin up mate..good luck..Robbie..
..Ello Tres..
..Did,nt see ya there before i posted..but we,ve just spoke so i know how you are.lol..talk soon..Robbie..
..Charleys doin well thxs..its gonna be the summer holidays soon ( 6 weeks off skool )..its to long for them..they start gettin bored after the 3rd week..so im gonna have to keep him occupied..but thats all good..fireworks are good..as long as they,re at other peoples houses.lol :- ) ..its good they,re into playing instruments thou beck..gives them sumfin to look at achieving by learning to play..im ok aswell cheers..just flowing thru the days..no stress or fuss at the ""moment"" .?..just getting on with life..hope all is well with you over your side of the water..thxs for asking how we are..take care beck..talk soon..
..Robbie..
..Bryn..
..Hope all is well and good with you my lady friend :- ) ..we have,nt talked much lately..one to one if ya know wot im saying..but its good to still see your about..and regarding our kids..no one said life would be easy..you take care of yourself also and we will talk soon..much love to ya..Robbie..
..Davey..
No probs..it feels good to go shopping and spend money on yaself that otherwise would of got spent on sumfin else a.?..glad to read ya feelin a little better in yourself..keep ya chin up mate..good luck..Robbie..
..Ello Tres..
..Did,nt see ya there before i posted..but we,ve just spoke so i know how you are.lol..talk soon..Robbie..
