Hey guys...remember me? I havent been on here in ages...thought everything was going ok...Just in case there are a bunch of newcomers which I'm sure there is...long story short...boyfriend is a heroin addict...went to rehab for 4 months states and states away...came back in Jan. and stuff has been pretty good since....Until last night that is...I knew he had been using here and there but didnt really think anything of it...ive been so busy...just graduated and started a new job all in the span of 3 days...o and moved into his house...so he came downstairs last night and said he was flying to cali til Sunday to detox so he could come back and get a pellet...i am just so lonely already and i only dropped him at the airport a few hrs ago...just so sick of being alone and left to deal with everything ymself...while he gets to go out to cali in gorgeous weather while i work 2 jobs and be bored to death...this pellet better work or i am done...i am so tired...literally i feel liek i am slipping back into my depression i dealt with before when he went to florida...need some input and support here guys... :(
Hey Becky Gal,
Just hopped on real quick...I was wondering where you are.
Becky, reread your post. There was a whole lot of s**t after that Florida vacation I mean rehab. Not trying to be a biotch, Becky, but you left out after he came home:
The scene for your birthday, hospitalization for his pancreas, laying drunk on the floor at his friends wedding where you, and his parents were mortified. Plus alot more, becky.
Why not just let him stay a heroin addict? He can maintain. Then you won't be left alone. You'll be with him as he always is. Congrats on your graduation, babes. I really thought after that wedding you were done. Now be careful what's in the house. You live there too.
Just hopped on real quick...I was wondering where you are.
Becky, reread your post. There was a whole lot of s**t after that Florida vacation I mean rehab. Not trying to be a biotch, Becky, but you left out after he came home:
The scene for your birthday, hospitalization for his pancreas, laying drunk on the floor at his friends wedding where you, and his parents were mortified. Plus alot more, becky.
Why not just let him stay a heroin addict? He can maintain. Then you won't be left alone. You'll be with him as he always is. Congrats on your graduation, babes. I really thought after that wedding you were done. Now be careful what's in the house. You live there too.
hey i replied to ya over on the other board too...i left out how i do look thru his junk considering its my house now too and flushed well didnt flush but opened the baggies and soaked all the heroin in the toilet a few days ago..and left it there for him to find....i was so scared he was gonna FREAK...but instead he said he wanted to stop was glad i flushed it or ruined it...whatever and hopped on the plane to cali...
wow, I would have jumped head first in the toilet! Good for you Becky, it's sad to see you suffering because of your husbands addiction, I really hope he gives it up this time... I don't understand why he needs to go out and get a pellet for a second time, pills don't work? Maybe the pellet is stronger, all I know is your husband has one hell of an insurance plan, and that's as good as any reason to put up with someone. At least you know you've found the person you love and want to love forever, I think in life sometimes thats more than anyone can ask for. I don't know alot of your history, but you know what's best for you, and good luck.
He doesnt use the pills because for some reason if he wants to use that day he just wont take the pill ya know? the pellet is much harder to get around and just not worth even trying to shove a needle in a vein that is pretty much killed anyway ya know?
hes there hes safe and not sick yet so yea thats all i guess for now
hes there hes safe and not sick yet so yea thats all i guess for now
O and he goes to Cali because he doesn't know where to get drugs out there and can stay clean for the week instead of staying in jersey and having a craving and just driving up the street and getting stuff
Good idea then! I'll pray for you girl. I was thinking If I were you I'd shove the pill down his throat but there are ways around that, he is wise to get an insert.
Hahah I have thought about that...the shoving it down his throat...but he took a naltrexonepill before when he didnt have the whole week clean...and boy was that a mess...puking everywhere...and just a night of NO sleep...he was having insane dreams etc tossing and turning...it was awful...he was supposed to get the pellet the next day but didnt because he was scared that if it was in him he would go insane again...but after he cancelled his appointment and went back to the drug doc a few days later...the doc said that he would have only had that one night of craziness...DUH...why wouldnt the doc tell him that when he cancelled the pellet appointment! then we still wouldnt be doing this crap!!! and he would have a pellet...o well...
How are you doing on this sunny morning?
How are you doing on this sunny morning?
