This week I realised that I'm addicted to opiates. I've been taking a variety of them (mostly hydrocodone) for the past year and a half. I've been in denial for a while, judging people for their addictions and drug habits because their drugs seem to make them a lot less functional, but after doing some reasearch I came to realise a lot of the problems in my life that seem to be becoming more prominant might be because I have a dependancy problem. Which is not so good...
I thought I was the kind of person to be really resistant to addiction. I've dabbled in a little of everything from time to time and never felt the need to further consume it.
In retropect I've been making up excuses to continue pain killers, considering it more like really good asprin that not only gets rid of pain but my sense of reality, releives the stress. Maybe the reason I feel/am getting sick is because of the drugs I use to alleivate it. Or maybe if I quit I'll be oversome with stress again and have the same physical deterioration. I'm not sure...
I guess for me its a quick fix until I mellow out.
On another note I am a bit worried about a friend who I know is doing the same thing, except instead of taking a couple a night he takes... lots. I know he has a strong tolerance by now but i'm worried that theres going to be that one night where he takes a couple too many and I don't get to see him again. He's very subborn and we've talked about his addiction before but i don't see him quiting on his own any time soon, even though he' told me he'd rtaher not take anything.
I suppose I'm looking for a little guidance... seing how this is a addiction recovery guide.
What i'm going to do is finish up my last bottle of codeine and see if I can stay off of anything for a month or more without goin f***in nuts. See if any good comes of it health wise. My friend however.. i'm not sure how to help...I know he doesn't want help.
Dear Greeneyes,
I am not sure how to address your post. Do you want to stop using pills? If so, this is a great place to start. There are many on this board with tons of experience and wisdom. I, myself, have been sober from opiates for 7 months.
Please continue to post.
Faith
I am not sure how to address your post. Do you want to stop using pills? If so, this is a great place to start. There are many on this board with tons of experience and wisdom. I, myself, have been sober from opiates for 7 months.
Please continue to post.
Faith
Greeneyes...so I'm not sure what you're asking either. Are you taking just a couple a night? If so, you may have dodged a very big bullet. Quit now before it esculates. And it will. You will probably go through some mild withdrawals and your sleep will be interupted for awhile but it will all come back including your "real" life. You know for yourself, that no one can tell you that you need to get help or that you have a problem, that had to come from you. Your friend is no different. You can point out your own experience and hope that he gets it. Offer to get clean together? Glad you're here, hope you stick around. Cowgirl
