This is my contract. I don't care about me enough to keep promises to me, so this is my contract to all of you
signed,
Trooper
Hello there Troopster:
I'll co-sign that contract,I'm here to back you up,anything you need,a friend a sholder to cry on,or simply just someone to scream at,I'm always here,ok sweetheart.
Later,I gotta go my baby son just woke up from his nap and is crying till later,always Teena......
I'll co-sign that contract,I'm here to back you up,anything you need,a friend a sholder to cry on,or simply just someone to scream at,I'm always here,ok sweetheart.
Later,I gotta go my baby son just woke up from his nap and is crying till later,always Teena......
hey...stay strong!!! you are such a huge help to me when I need advice...keep on trucking you had a short lapse...you can do it!!
Hey sweetie:
Feeeouuu!!!The afterschool rush is finished,there changed(cause in the morning it was chilly,now it's so humide),fed their snacks,juiced,and off playing in the back yard.
I came back on and re- read your post,I once had a friend when I use to go to my methadone pregnancy meetings,(where all moms on meth have to attend,to see how were doing),and there was this girl who always use to relapes once a week,not much just 20$ worth of smack(half a point).We use to ask her how come she couldn't control herself,and she use to tell us and the worker that when your on a diet and you see a lushious,delisious,chockolate cake sitting on the kitchen counter,and no ones around,you sneek a little tast,cause it's sooo hard to resist,but not a whole piece,loll,just a little lick.Well she used to say I didn't re-laps I just took a little lick.
We used to all crack up laughing cause the way she used to say it.
You know what,she's right,that's how it feels like,like your on a diet,but it's not cake,it's whatever drug your addicted on.
Just say to yourself I took a little lickin now I'll get back on my diet.
Don't put yourself through the ringer,your only humain and a recovering addict,at least you don't continue,you get back up and dust yourself off and start trying to ride that bike once again,you don't give up.That to me is a very big plus,your trying and thinking of how you can make it better instead of saying the F!$^%K with it,I give up.You don't give up and that in my book is a very strong trooper.
Keep your head up high and keep on walking,you have nothing to be ashamed of,you hear!!!!!!
Always a friend Teena
Feeeouuu!!!The afterschool rush is finished,there changed(cause in the morning it was chilly,now it's so humide),fed their snacks,juiced,and off playing in the back yard.
I came back on and re- read your post,I once had a friend when I use to go to my methadone pregnancy meetings,(where all moms on meth have to attend,to see how were doing),and there was this girl who always use to relapes once a week,not much just 20$ worth of smack(half a point).We use to ask her how come she couldn't control herself,and she use to tell us and the worker that when your on a diet and you see a lushious,delisious,chockolate cake sitting on the kitchen counter,and no ones around,you sneek a little tast,cause it's sooo hard to resist,but not a whole piece,loll,just a little lick.Well she used to say I didn't re-laps I just took a little lick.
We used to all crack up laughing cause the way she used to say it.
You know what,she's right,that's how it feels like,like your on a diet,but it's not cake,it's whatever drug your addicted on.
Just say to yourself I took a little lickin now I'll get back on my diet.
Don't put yourself through the ringer,your only humain and a recovering addict,at least you don't continue,you get back up and dust yourself off and start trying to ride that bike once again,you don't give up.That to me is a very big plus,your trying and thinking of how you can make it better instead of saying the F!$^%K with it,I give up.You don't give up and that in my book is a very strong trooper.
Keep your head up high and keep on walking,you have nothing to be ashamed of,you hear!!!!!!
Always a friend Teena
keep on keeping on.. trooper big up davey
Hi there Trooper,
What do you mean you don't care enough about yourself? You should always love yourself.I've read quite a few of your posts & you are so great at giving all us advice when we need it,maybe you should be using some of this wisdom on yourself.I know us addicts have a tendency to beat ourselves up about things we have done in the course of having a habit but like everone else has said when you've had a lapse ( And remember it is a lapse & not a re-lapse ) you just dust yourself off & try again & again & probably again.How's it the old saying goes?!!! If at first you don't succeed bla! bla! bla!.You are a wonderful person Trooper, keep your chin up girl and take each day, each minute & even each second at a time & you will get there in the end. ( Where ever 'there' may be) Well gotta go my times up on the computer and my stomach thinks my throats been cut i'm that hungry, God you know i've put on 1/2 a stone since staring back on my script.I'm like 4ft nothing so it is quite noticeable but must admit I look so much healthier and not all drawn in and pastey looking.Keep on Trooping you can do it babe.
Love Akasha xXxXx
What do you mean you don't care enough about yourself? You should always love yourself.I've read quite a few of your posts & you are so great at giving all us advice when we need it,maybe you should be using some of this wisdom on yourself.I know us addicts have a tendency to beat ourselves up about things we have done in the course of having a habit but like everone else has said when you've had a lapse ( And remember it is a lapse & not a re-lapse ) you just dust yourself off & try again & again & probably again.How's it the old saying goes?!!! If at first you don't succeed bla! bla! bla!.You are a wonderful person Trooper, keep your chin up girl and take each day, each minute & even each second at a time & you will get there in the end. ( Where ever 'there' may be) Well gotta go my times up on the computer and my stomach thinks my throats been cut i'm that hungry, God you know i've put on 1/2 a stone since staring back on my script.I'm like 4ft nothing so it is quite noticeable but must admit I look so much healthier and not all drawn in and pastey looking.Keep on Trooping you can do it babe.
Love Akasha xXxXx
