hello all, i am having a major break down , i am Broke as a joke, my mom , noone will help me all i do is cry, cry and cry more.. i do not even have gas to go to the local food bank, talk about wanting to numb out!! i went to her house an hour ago in tears and got the nerve to ask for 20 bucks for gas and milk and she said no she had none , mine u she was on her way to wal-maer w/my bother and she just bought a whole new living room set. they have money, my sister is her favorite and that hurts, i am rambling on sorry, look any words for me? i am trying to have u feel sorry 4-me but between my husband and my mom , sister and my life and i still stay clean,?? i feel like my self breaking,
PLEASSSSE help me friends... :( :( sadestest jasmine in the world...
i could send you moeny but i guess thats no no .. giving out adress I hate to see anyone with no moeny poor thing god bless is your mom worried about spending on pille sweetie love yspearing
Jasmine, Im guessing that you havent gotten my e-mail, but dont worry, tomorow i will figure it out and send you another one. For now i will talk to you on this post.(if thats o.k. with you) I miss ya. Havent talked to you much since the other night.
I have a question for you and i want you to be as honest as possible!!! We dont know each other but from talking on here and you have nothing to hide. Or no reason to hide it. Myquestion is, have you taken anything at all in the past 48 hours. Its o.k. if you say yes. I have and it sucks, but we all have had our break down periods. Also, whats the story with your sister and the family thing? Do you want to talk????????
Your FRIEND always,
Christina
I have a question for you and i want you to be as honest as possible!!! We dont know each other but from talking on here and you have nothing to hide. Or no reason to hide it. Myquestion is, have you taken anything at all in the past 48 hours. Its o.k. if you say yes. I have and it sucks, but we all have had our break down periods. Also, whats the story with your sister and the family thing? Do you want to talk????????
Your FRIEND always,
Christina
Jaz, go strait to your e-mail. I figured out how to write to you i got your #.
Christina
Christina
Hi, Jasmine
Here is the prayer I promised you. I too always played second fiddle to my sister and it was NO SECRET! When my mom started with dementia (a form of Alzheimers) I had to force myself to take turns every other night to give mom her medicine, take her dinner or bring her to my house for dinner, and spend time with her. The blessing that came from that is that I actually started to enjoy it and so did she even though it was another responsibility. In fact, since my little granddaughter lives with us (with her mom), my mother got particularly close to her and they love each other a LOT.
I had been saying this prayer that I mentioned before for healing relationships every night when I brushed my teeth (I posted it on the bathroom mirror), and I feel my mom and mine has been healed. I tease, however, that it took losing her mind (memory) to love me. I KNOW how much it hurts when you feel a parent loves a sibling more than you. Sometimes we are damaged from something in the past and we imagine the favoritism. I will keep you in my prayers.
You have to concentrate on what you DO have rather than what you don't. I learned that when my father passed away. You have your beautiful children and you have your sobriety that was very, very difficult to accomplish. Don't lose what you've worked for so hard because of what someone else is doing. You have to remember that your mom loves you so much that she doesn't want you to buy something to hurt yourself with the money she lends/gives you and you haven't regained her trust yet. I'm there right now with my son. I would do ANYTHING to help him, but I'm very cautious with him right now because of all his sneakiness and manipulation to get money. I told him I could never forgive myself if I was responsible for helping him do his drugs.
Here's the prayer.....
Healing Prayer at Bedtime
Lord Jesus,
Through the power of the Holy Spirit, go back into my memory as I sleep.
Every hurt that has ever been done to me, heal that hurt.
Every hurt that I have ever caused another person, heal that hurt.
All the relationships that have been damanged in my whole life that I am not
aware of, heal those relationships.
But, Lord, if there is anything that I need to do,
If I need to go to a person because he or she is still suffering from my hand,
bring to my awareness that person.
I CHOOSE to forgive, and I ask to be forgiven.
Remove whatever bitterness may be in my heart or their hearts, Lord, and fill
the empty spaces with your love.
Amen.
It's a very powerful prayer! God bless!
Susan
Here is the prayer I promised you. I too always played second fiddle to my sister and it was NO SECRET! When my mom started with dementia (a form of Alzheimers) I had to force myself to take turns every other night to give mom her medicine, take her dinner or bring her to my house for dinner, and spend time with her. The blessing that came from that is that I actually started to enjoy it and so did she even though it was another responsibility. In fact, since my little granddaughter lives with us (with her mom), my mother got particularly close to her and they love each other a LOT.
I had been saying this prayer that I mentioned before for healing relationships every night when I brushed my teeth (I posted it on the bathroom mirror), and I feel my mom and mine has been healed. I tease, however, that it took losing her mind (memory) to love me. I KNOW how much it hurts when you feel a parent loves a sibling more than you. Sometimes we are damaged from something in the past and we imagine the favoritism. I will keep you in my prayers.
You have to concentrate on what you DO have rather than what you don't. I learned that when my father passed away. You have your beautiful children and you have your sobriety that was very, very difficult to accomplish. Don't lose what you've worked for so hard because of what someone else is doing. You have to remember that your mom loves you so much that she doesn't want you to buy something to hurt yourself with the money she lends/gives you and you haven't regained her trust yet. I'm there right now with my son. I would do ANYTHING to help him, but I'm very cautious with him right now because of all his sneakiness and manipulation to get money. I told him I could never forgive myself if I was responsible for helping him do his drugs.
Here's the prayer.....
Healing Prayer at Bedtime
Lord Jesus,
Through the power of the Holy Spirit, go back into my memory as I sleep.
Every hurt that has ever been done to me, heal that hurt.
Every hurt that I have ever caused another person, heal that hurt.
All the relationships that have been damanged in my whole life that I am not
aware of, heal those relationships.
But, Lord, if there is anything that I need to do,
If I need to go to a person because he or she is still suffering from my hand,
bring to my awareness that person.
I CHOOSE to forgive, and I ask to be forgiven.
Remove whatever bitterness may be in my heart or their hearts, Lord, and fill
the empty spaces with your love.
Amen.
It's a very powerful prayer! God bless!
Susan
Thanks for all of your replys i was just really tired and sad and had a real bad headache from crying and my mom doesnt give me money because she doest trust me because i really need milk and food and gas for my kids, its that she and i dont get along, I wouldnt spend the money on drugs~~!!
thanks for the preyer & chris call me...it is 7:34 am here, so u can do the math...
thanks for the preyer & chris call me...it is 7:34 am here, so u can do the math...
Hi Jasmine I can't belive I'm doing this Damn it I'm so freakin mad at myself.I have sat here for the last 1/2hr trying to talk myself into posting.I really wanted to start a post but I'm so ashamed and mad at myself.I'm sorry I kinda zeroed you out but you always have a soothing way.I was doing OK I cut back for 2 -3?days.For reasons unknown to me I freaken jumped back up to 15.What The heck is wrong Am I ever gonna be able to slow down.God even my boyfriend who is so great he has never said quit just get back down to what the Dr orders.I am worried about even posting this because when I first came on this morning their were mean people saying mean things(not about me)but it makes me I don't know feel funny.I would cry 1million tears but my daughter and my boyfriend will get real worried and I don't want to do that.I know you can't really answer this but I feel the need to say.....WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME.Jasmine I am so sorry for writing all this.Maybe I just am not ready?Why does part of me want to slow down and the other part just wants more and more.Sorry once again......Mollyjean
Oh Honey, it is ok, look i went thru that for so many years, weaning off then jumping back up to like 30, please sweetie dont feel badly about yourself, i care about you and it will be ok:).. look we all battle with this sometime in our lives. still do, look if your not ready, than so be it, i still luv you & will be here for you even if you used a million drugs..:) look my e-mail is always available for your use , jasmine49@comcast.net..
Just please keep comming back and talking about it, you have taken such a HUGE step, admitting its a problem and for that i send you a huge hug!!!
keep me posted! luv jasmine:) {{{{{{{{hugs}}}}}}}}}}
Just please keep comming back and talking about it, you have taken such a HUGE step, admitting its a problem and for that i send you a huge hug!!!
keep me posted! luv jasmine:) {{{{{{{{hugs}}}}}}}}}}
Jasmine, I hear you. I am having the same sort of day here. I do know that taking pills won't help; I just have feeling like a crazy mad deranged woman.
It will pass. I hate the money situation. It goes so fast with kids. And they have to eat. People look at moms like we are supposed to be able to be superpeople...work, feed the kids, clean the house...and if we need a little help doing it, we are some how failing. I am ready to kill my ex...I asked him for food money and he went off on me. The jackass does nothing for his kids. I asked him for money for food....food...for his kids....food money, not money for macy's....
I don't get how people can be so f***ed up.
I swear, I would run him over right now if I could.
At least I would get social security for my kids..
kerry
It will pass. I hate the money situation. It goes so fast with kids. And they have to eat. People look at moms like we are supposed to be able to be superpeople...work, feed the kids, clean the house...and if we need a little help doing it, we are some how failing. I am ready to kill my ex...I asked him for food money and he went off on me. The jackass does nothing for his kids. I asked him for money for food....food...for his kids....food money, not money for macy's....
I don't get how people can be so f***ed up.
I swear, I would run him over right now if I could.
At least I would get social security for my kids..
kerry
AMEN SISTER:) I glad we are on the same page..you take care:) and i will talk to ya soon, and no killing anyone, ok..hehe..
I am actually not really into the whole murder thing. But if you look at it logically, since the Child Support Enforcement agency can't do anything for me, if he is dead, Social Security is automatic.
But then there is the whole jail thing that I would have to contend with.
But if I got a jury of single mom who's exs did the same thing, I just might walk on it.
HHMMM....food for thought.
hang in there, Jazzy, it does get better. I am sure we both will be feeling way better tomarrow, so I guess it is just another one to ride out..
kerry
But then there is the whole jail thing that I would have to contend with.
But if I got a jury of single mom who's exs did the same thing, I just might walk on it.
HHMMM....food for thought.
hang in there, Jazzy, it does get better. I am sure we both will be feeling way better tomarrow, so I guess it is just another one to ride out..
kerry
Kerry,
What are you plotting in that head of yours......LOL Did you find that song yet? You must get it and listen. I promise you will laugh and feel much better.
Tina
What are you plotting in that head of yours......LOL Did you find that song yet? You must get it and listen. I promise you will laugh and feel much better.
Tina
My ex makes 80K a year and gets $1000/month ($18K Gross a year) from me and $1000/month from her other ex husband. I see my daughter half the time. Let's not go bashing dads. The door swings both ways.
Ed, I am not bashing dads. I am bashing my ex. You pay your child support, mine doesn't. Do not take it personal. It is a personal thing with me. I know there are wonderful dads out there. Mine doesn't support his kids, whatsoever. He makes alot of money, but it is under the table. Because of that, I get told at child support that there is nothing they can do, after a judge ordered me $1,500 a month. I would be happy with $500 at this point. I can go rape and rob the welfare system, but that isn't in my nature. I feel it is his responsibility, not the taxpayers, of which I am one.
There are alot of evil women out there too.
Peace to you.
kerry
and any man that would buy a 21 year old clothes instead of his own daughter's clothes, food or shoes, just so he can get laid should be shot anyway.
kerry
There are alot of evil women out there too.
Peace to you.
kerry
and any man that would buy a 21 year old clothes instead of his own daughter's clothes, food or shoes, just so he can get laid should be shot anyway.
kerry
Kerry - I hear ya. There are a lot of horror stories out there. With all of the garbage I have been seeing on this site lately, I just wanted to lighten the mood.
Hey Kerry -
NO - dont do it!!! I know you are not serious, but on a serious note, its sad to say that I had the same problem with my childrens father - we used to fight constantly because he would "party" with all his money and go out with the guys and be "Mr Big Shot" - everything on him. He did make good money, but between boozing, drugging and gambling - WE never saw a penny of it. I remember screaming at him "the only time the kids will see any of your money is when youre dead" when I was angry - I'm serious - thank God I worked and made good money - enough to support me and the three kids.
Sadly, he passed away in April. He suffered from Hep C and even after he found this out, he continued to drink and do drugs - cocaine was his DOC. He thought nothing could keep him down. Now my kids get a check every month for the death benefit from their father. I wish things could have been different.
Love,
Marie
NO - dont do it!!! I know you are not serious, but on a serious note, its sad to say that I had the same problem with my childrens father - we used to fight constantly because he would "party" with all his money and go out with the guys and be "Mr Big Shot" - everything on him. He did make good money, but between boozing, drugging and gambling - WE never saw a penny of it. I remember screaming at him "the only time the kids will see any of your money is when youre dead" when I was angry - I'm serious - thank God I worked and made good money - enough to support me and the three kids.
Sadly, he passed away in April. He suffered from Hep C and even after he found this out, he continued to drink and do drugs - cocaine was his DOC. He thought nothing could keep him down. Now my kids get a check every month for the death benefit from their father. I wish things could have been different.
Love,
Marie
it sounds like I need to pray, and go to a meeting..lol..
kerry
kerry
I wouldn't know about the clothes thing...I'm too poor to date :)
eddie, I am a cheap date...lol...
cheap, but not easy...
kerry
cheap, but not easy...
kerry
misty, I am going to look for the lyrics now..
kerry
kerry
