I Am Sorry Ashley

Im sorry I have lied, and broken so many promises to you. You don't understand how much I need you to help me. I have said I was gonna stop so many times but I really do mean it this time. You have no reason at all to trust me at all but you still do. Please help me please. I'm getting worse everyday I need you. Look where I'm writing this in a drug rehab message board I do want to stop really bad. I don't want to end of killing myself sometimes I want to down the whole bottle but I'm scared of death. I probably do need a therapist but I can't do it. I hope you understand it better.
I don't know who you are writing this to but I am concerned about you. You seem to want help and most obviously need it. The thing with addiction is that we have to help ourselves with outside help. It is almost impossible to do on our own. Stopping the substance is one thing but there is alot more to addiction. The first thing we had to do was stop taking the substance and go from there. We can't do it all at once. It takes time and help. You are in the right place and I urge you to keep coming back. There are some very helpful people here. Lying and broken promises are the hallmark of addiction. It doesn't mean you are a bad person but a sick one. Please go and talk to your friend and see if she is willing to go with you to a local NA or AA meeting. It is a good start and it is free. You may have to go by yourself. You will not be turned away there.

The longest journey begins with the first step. Many of us have come from very desperate situations and are recovering. You can do it too. Your life depends on it! I care.
Is this the poster "concernedsister" sister?

Hope you come back...let us take a few burdens off your sister and help you....because yes darlin, you do need help. You can not do this on your own.
No I'm not her sister but thank you everyone.
O I am it's for you ash also I accidently made 2 accounts