Okay last night I went to the place I was told to go for my NA meeting, I got there 15 mins early. At 8:15 no one else was there. Then a car pulled up, the two women walked up to me and said are you the only one here. I said yes and they told me that it happens a lot. One of them said there is another meeting a few blocks away. I flowed them to the meeting. We got there 25 mins late, but at least I made it.
I got several pamphlets about addiction. THIS IS WHAT REALLY MADE MY MAD!
You are never allowed to say in group that you are a drug addict. You Have to say "my name is Marina and I am an alcoholic." What the F**K is up with that. In my option they want drugs addicts to go to meeting for help, but you have to lie about what you are addicted to!
Anyway I went to another meeting at 10:30 this a. m It was an all women's meeting, I didn't say much until the very end. I told the group that I joined this message board, and the people on it have been a huge help in my recovery. Also I have made a lot of friends who have been in my shoes.
Those women do you want to know what they did when I said that. ( CRYING)
Almost the whole room laughed at me. It just made me feel so small. I am going to ask my Dr. if I can just use this board as my meetings and get a sponsor, I all ready asked her she said of course. She know that I don't drink, that I am just a drug addict.
Marina ~
Marina... I am very new to this but I really understand your anger.I'm afraid to go to meetings for the same reasons.People can be real cruel and I've lived my life trying to stay away from people.If this spot works for people like u and me than the hell with others laugh at I think you stand a chance.Don't ever give up without some kind of fight.
HELLO sweete dont you worry about that group of people your a good person and we love you here so you keep on posting my little darling OK ok OK WIPE YOUR EYES you be fine love yspearing
hiya marina -
look at you go, grow, glow! i've been following some of your messages and i have to say that sobriety sure does look good on you!
i'm not familiar with a NA group that says you are never allowed to say you are an addict. guess there's a first time for anything, but this is something i have never heard. in NA (the ones i go to) everyone identifies as an addict and some also identify as an alcoholic. you see, NA looks on alcohol as a drug, as opposed to AA where there is a singleness of purpose to carry the message of recovery to those still suffering from alcohol only.
as a matter of fact, when doing the first step of NA, we admitted we were powerless over our addictions; our lives had become unmanageable. in AA, we admit we were powerless over alcohol.... when admitting we were powerless over our addictions, this may include alcohol for some.
it took me about 10 times before i found a NA meeting that i enjoyed going to. i can't imagine why a group would laugh at someone, unless they were laughing at the statement you made regarding online recovery. i have seen some people who know very little about online recovery poke fun at it. but that's ok...they just don't realize that it doesn't matter where one finds recovery - in a church basement, or a meeting house, or a computer screen, as long as they find it. i find online recovery a wonderful adjunct to my face-to-face recovery program. i hope you do too. i've had the distinct pleasure to meet some of the people in the flesh whom i have met in various online recovery groups and my life has been blessed by their presence, both online and f2f.
so dry your tears, pick yourself up and find another meeting to attend. and marina, i'm not sure where you live but there are also meetings called pills anonymous whose purpose are for recovery from prescription drugs. if you go here:
www.pillsanonymous.com
and join, you can view the calendar of f2f meetings that we know are available in the u.s. if there are no PA meetings in your state, then i would suggest to try some more NA meetings or an open AA meeting. in open AA meetings you may find more cross-addicted people.
i hope this helps and i'm so proud of you.
namaste'
sammy
look at you go, grow, glow! i've been following some of your messages and i have to say that sobriety sure does look good on you!
i'm not familiar with a NA group that says you are never allowed to say you are an addict. guess there's a first time for anything, but this is something i have never heard. in NA (the ones i go to) everyone identifies as an addict and some also identify as an alcoholic. you see, NA looks on alcohol as a drug, as opposed to AA where there is a singleness of purpose to carry the message of recovery to those still suffering from alcohol only.
as a matter of fact, when doing the first step of NA, we admitted we were powerless over our addictions; our lives had become unmanageable. in AA, we admit we were powerless over alcohol.... when admitting we were powerless over our addictions, this may include alcohol for some.
it took me about 10 times before i found a NA meeting that i enjoyed going to. i can't imagine why a group would laugh at someone, unless they were laughing at the statement you made regarding online recovery. i have seen some people who know very little about online recovery poke fun at it. but that's ok...they just don't realize that it doesn't matter where one finds recovery - in a church basement, or a meeting house, or a computer screen, as long as they find it. i find online recovery a wonderful adjunct to my face-to-face recovery program. i hope you do too. i've had the distinct pleasure to meet some of the people in the flesh whom i have met in various online recovery groups and my life has been blessed by their presence, both online and f2f.
so dry your tears, pick yourself up and find another meeting to attend. and marina, i'm not sure where you live but there are also meetings called pills anonymous whose purpose are for recovery from prescription drugs. if you go here:
www.pillsanonymous.com
and join, you can view the calendar of f2f meetings that we know are available in the u.s. if there are no PA meetings in your state, then i would suggest to try some more NA meetings or an open AA meeting. in open AA meetings you may find more cross-addicted people.
i hope this helps and i'm so proud of you.
namaste'
sammy
Hi Marina...
It sounds like you are doing good. ARe you off the sub yet? How do you feel....Tomorrow is day 14 for me. I can't believ it.
It sounds like you are doing good. ARe you off the sub yet? How do you feel....Tomorrow is day 14 for me. I can't believ it.
I am of the Subxonod, Today I started the Subutex. There are in the same family, but
Today taking the subutex I am extremely tried. I am fighting to stay awake.
Sorry guys I am just to tried to post tonight.
I pray that everyone gets a goods nights rest ~
Marina ~
I don't feel so well either
Today taking the subutex I am extremely tried. I am fighting to stay awake.
Sorry guys I am just to tried to post tonight.
I pray that everyone gets a goods nights rest ~
Marina ~
I don't feel so well either
Mariana,
Wow lady you are running for it. I'm so proud of you for going!!! I haven't had a chance to write lately. I know you were looking forward to pregnancy. I also know it could have worked well but things always work for the best and I am happy you are where you are. Now you have some time to really be ready and bring the baby in consciously. What a gift to the baby!!!!
As for the meeting. Don't let them get ya down. So many people think they know it all and really they know only what their world shows them. We are all unique people living lives to our ability and in different stages of addiction, recovery, awareness of life.
I think you will find your nitch. Just keep hanging onto your recovery. Focus there and do whatever you need to to grow and become more free. I think you are doing great. I'm proud of you for the choices and ways you have handled things.
Life is what it is and not what it's not. I think the greatest gift we can give ourselves is to open to who we really are and grow in our spirit. You are doing that. Once you begin on this path noone will steal your thunder. So good job!
It's great to hear from you.
Love,
PM
Wow lady you are running for it. I'm so proud of you for going!!! I haven't had a chance to write lately. I know you were looking forward to pregnancy. I also know it could have worked well but things always work for the best and I am happy you are where you are. Now you have some time to really be ready and bring the baby in consciously. What a gift to the baby!!!!
As for the meeting. Don't let them get ya down. So many people think they know it all and really they know only what their world shows them. We are all unique people living lives to our ability and in different stages of addiction, recovery, awareness of life.
I think you will find your nitch. Just keep hanging onto your recovery. Focus there and do whatever you need to to grow and become more free. I think you are doing great. I'm proud of you for the choices and ways you have handled things.
Life is what it is and not what it's not. I think the greatest gift we can give ourselves is to open to who we really are and grow in our spirit. You are doing that. Once you begin on this path noone will steal your thunder. So good job!
It's great to hear from you.
Love,
PM
Marina....HI....hope you are feeling better. When will you be off the sub? I hope your w/ds aren't too bad....stay with it. I am at day 13 and I am feeling better. I actually bought a Christmas decoration today....that is a sure sign that I am feeling better.
Keep me updated.
Kat
Keep me updated.
Kat
I dont understand why they even differentiate the aa from the na. everything is for aa. There are many na meetings. I went to one with my boyfriend and everyone was supportive and no one laughed. You got a bad group. Try again.
My first NA meeting last week was a much better experience. People were gave me support, listened. I took the literature and started reading th IP's. There are bad groups any where and there are some awesome ones.
