Hello everyone. Sorry it has been do long since I posted. But I have fallen back into that pill nightmare again. I can't believe I let myself do it. And all I can think about is getting more.
I know it is stupid to ask for advice, considering you all have helped me so much. Yet I still can't manage to kick this. I don't think I ever will.
I guess this is just a really bad day.
Oh yeah, and I think one of my docs has caught on, and I am so paranoid that I am going to get into trouble. Any suggestions???
OMG Britney! It is so good to hear from you! DO NOT BE SO DOWN ON YOURSELF and say you can never quit. Of course you can when the right things come together. I truly think you have too much on you while trying to quit. Just my opinoin. Maybe you need a vacation from work and someone to keep the kids for a few days while you w/d.
And you didn't burn your bridges. Leaving the door open to your pill supply is just too tempting. Relapse is very common and nothing to be ashamed of!!!!
Please know we are not going to judge you here. Hell, some of us have been going through your same situation for years! Keep posting and listening. It will help!
Welcome back. Some of us have been worried about you!!! Let me know if I can do anything to help. Take CARE OF YOURSELF!!!!!!!!
Carol
As for the doc, quit using him.
Hi Brit,
I am so sorry that you are back on the pills, but very glad you are posting.....Atoz has been looking for you and worried about you as have a bunch of others......You were doing so well, meetings and all.....I haven't lost faith in you, I know that you can get through this.....You did all the right things, now you need to pick yourself up and try to start over again.....I thing quitting the doc like Carol said would be a great first move.....Then figure out a plan that may work for you.....don't know how to tell you to start, but I guess flushing lol would be a good way!
You take care and don't beat yourself up to much.....
Hugs,
Tina
I am so sorry that you are back on the pills, but very glad you are posting.....Atoz has been looking for you and worried about you as have a bunch of others......You were doing so well, meetings and all.....I haven't lost faith in you, I know that you can get through this.....You did all the right things, now you need to pick yourself up and try to start over again.....I thing quitting the doc like Carol said would be a great first move.....Then figure out a plan that may work for you.....don't know how to tell you to start, but I guess flushing lol would be a good way!
You take care and don't beat yourself up to much.....
Hugs,
Tina
Britney, I quit twice and slipped, it took me three times for it to stick, its a hard thing to do.
The light always on here, no one goona turn their back on you because you went back to using, thats what addicts do.
I hope you find the strenght to quit this time because it can get harder as time goes on.
Good luck
JohnDee
The light always on here, no one goona turn their back on you because you went back to using, thats what addicts do.
I hope you find the strenght to quit this time because it can get harder as time goes on.
Good luck
JohnDee
Oh Brit, i have been woundering about cha! i also am having sooooo much trouble as well, i am going into treatment again, as soon as i can find one?? you are not the only one hun..... look email me so that we can chat in private at jasmine49@comcast.net, if you would like to? take care..................
Brit call this number # 1-800-711-6402 this is a nation drug help line!! use it, i did!! they can help you, i am on the phone right now.....pleaseeeee...
Don't give up Brittany! Sometimes it takes many tries. Relapse is statistically very common. If at first you don't succeed.......try try again!! Figure out what caused you to relapse and that will help you not to repeat that mistake again. Consider this a learning experience. Get a good back up plan too. Make some meetings, gain some knowledge and stregnth. Don't beat yourself up about it, it just happens. Tommorrow is a new day! Good luck, love, Kat
We are just glad you are back....
Take it from someone who totally understands how you feel, relapse sometimes is part of the process....
I echo Kat, just figure out what you did wrong, andsometimes it takes going deeper into the reasons why we use..
Stay strong, and please don't beat yourself up.
Kerry
Take it from someone who totally understands how you feel, relapse sometimes is part of the process....
I echo Kat, just figure out what you did wrong, andsometimes it takes going deeper into the reasons why we use..
Stay strong, and please don't beat yourself up.
Kerry
Hello Britany its 8am eastern time.Listen kiddo you CAN DO THIS.Stop beating yourself up over what has happen.If your Dr is adding or helping you abuse pills than you must find a new one.take care....mj
britney
i am so glad to see that you posted, i was beginning to worry. i remember the last posts you gave that you were struggling. i believe you are gonna come out of this thing. it is a very hard thing to do, believe me i know. please don't give up. and don't quit posting no matter what. keep the faith. we are gonna pray for you alot today so be ready for a miracle, i am!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
standing in the gap for you
johnny
i am so glad to see that you posted, i was beginning to worry. i remember the last posts you gave that you were struggling. i believe you are gonna come out of this thing. it is a very hard thing to do, believe me i know. please don't give up. and don't quit posting no matter what. keep the faith. we are gonna pray for you alot today so be ready for a miracle, i am!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
standing in the gap for you
johnny
I honestly don't know how many times I tried to
stop on my own. I remember ever night saying to
myself Okay.. Tomorrow Marina I am going to
stop. I would wake up the next day and what did
I DO TOOK 2 PILLS. It made me sick to not have
any control.
stop on my own. I remember ever night saying to
myself Okay.. Tomorrow Marina I am going to
stop. I would wake up the next day and what did
I DO TOOK 2 PILLS. It made me sick to not have
any control.
This sounds all too familiar. I had cut down from 4-5 pills daily over a 8-10 year period to only one pill a day. Now I am back up to 2 or 2-1/2 and I feel horrible. I want to end this vicious cycle, the fuzzy headed feeling that results after the initial feeling of feeling good but I just can't seem to do it either! At least you know you're not alone. I would appreciate any thoughts or suggestions you all have.
Dear Maggie, do you have a support system? Have you tried going to meetings? Getting a sponser? We need alot of help to beat this. Our biggest downfall seems to be when we think we can figure it out or do it on our own. If anything will make you humble, it's addiction. Much love, Kat
