I have been using meth on and off in varied amounts for almost 7 years. I don't know why I use it. I started out with Crank down in Oklahoma but when I moved to the Rocky Mountains, I found Crystal. When I started, I only used the crank because I liked to drink alot and because I couldn't control myself when I was wasted, I used crank to keep me from getting drunk.
Now I don't know why I use it. I don't even feel that good when I do. Especially when I smoke it. Strangely, it seems to make me feel tired when I smoke it but I can't sleep. When I snort it, I feel good for a while but then, my vision starts blurring and I start grinding my teeth and the fun is over. Every time I have to come down, I tell myself I don't want to use anymore.
The problem is, it's readily available to me and free. I find myself wanting it even when I really DON'T want it -know what I mean?
it sounds like you are addicted. if you find yourself wanting it even when you dont want it, it is addiction. if you want to stop using, you need to first admit to youself that you are addicted and then decide if you want to quit. quitting will be hard and you may have to get help. i really hope you decide to quit. my ex girlfriend uses and it was the reason we broke up. i love her but i couldnt handle the lies. there are many good people on here that would love to help you. I'm sure you've got people in your life that love you and would be there for you to help you. dont turn to another user for help. if you keep in touch with your parents tell them, they will love you no matter what. thats the great thing about parents. good luck with it. being addicted to meth is a bad thing. it may be free to you now but it wont always be, its a very expensive addiction.
i feel the same.its not fun anymore. i also got it for free i was in a motorcycle club. now trying to quit is the hardest thing i have ever tried to do.
i know how yall are feeling, dont even have fun gettting high anymore just do it because u have made yourself believe you need it everyday, i need it now just to get out of bed and function and today i realized im ready to quit WHY??? for my 4 year old son that begs me evry day to spend time with him and i usually dont-i owe it to him 100% to quit and give him back his mother and raise him to be a descent human being instead of a future drug user, so my advice to anyone if you havent been doin speed or ice, crank for that long QUIT, QUIT and RUN as FASt as YOU CAN away from the crowd that associates with it SPEED will RUIN your life , your family, children and everyone around you LISTEN to me RUN AS FAST AS YOU CAN!!!!!!!!!!!!
