What do you guys do to build yourself up? To keep from focusing on your past? To be able to forgive yourself?
I am so sick of others making negative comments about me to my face, or being told what so and so thinks of me. As some of you know I battled with pot for years, stopped daily use, it is a rarity if I do it now, which I am so grateful for.
I was anti depressants for 10 years and spent the past 2 years manic, drinking, impulsive. Something snapped one day and I learned that the meds could cause this. I tapered off of them. Now just like most I am sitting here with minimal coping skills, less desire to drink (also a side effect of a/d), and so confused.
My mind has been damaged from these drugs I cannot think as fast as I used to, I don't have catchy come backs for all the a**holes that I used to tolerate because I was numb from medication and alcohol.
I know that for some reason I must go through this, but why do people have to be so cruel all at once, at least give me a break to prepare for the next crap you sling my way.
I know in my head it is all their stuff....but my emotions don't believe it. :P
Hi Jamv, I'm so sorry that you're having a rough time with other's comments. Are these people ones that you can somehow get out of your life? I am doing some hypnotherapy work with my therapist. I tend to be "overly sensitive." One of the suggestions that she makes on my tape is "other people have little or no power to hurt or upset you." I repeat it to myself when I find myself reacting. My ex was an alcoholic (he died in 2000) and used to say terrible things to me and then not remember them the next day. I did catch a couple of his tirades on my answering machine and would call his # and play them back to him. Now I try to avoid people who are mean to me as much as possible....From reading your posts you seem like a kind and supportive person. I hope you can feel good about yourself and all that you've accomplished and let those negative comments roll off you like water off a duck's back. I wish you all the best with the on going struggle.
Thanks Rachael, yes the majority I can put out of my life, some I have to work with. Ugh.
I am trying to focus on my positives, my therapist says I have selective memory (only remembering the bad things I have done). Funny thing was, when I was manic, all I did was focus on how great I was. So it has been humbling, but almost too much so.
I like the statement you made, and again if I try to not focus on the pain, maybe it won't hurt so much.
I am very sensitive these days, just simple things like an email from a co worker, I take personally, in the past I would have ripped them a new one. haha.
Thanks again.
I am trying to focus on my positives, my therapist says I have selective memory (only remembering the bad things I have done). Funny thing was, when I was manic, all I did was focus on how great I was. So it has been humbling, but almost too much so.
I like the statement you made, and again if I try to not focus on the pain, maybe it won't hurt so much.
I am very sensitive these days, just simple things like an email from a co worker, I take personally, in the past I would have ripped them a new one. haha.
Thanks again.
