Ive been smoking weed regularly since 2009 if i dont smoke everyday, at least twice a day
I'm extremely mean
cry for no reason
try killing myself
dont eat for five days
dont sleep for 5 days
i wake up in puddles of sweat
i have the worst nightmares i've ever had in my life, ( all of these lasts for about 5 to 6 days then i usually smoke again, i cant make it past 6 days anymore, by the 3rd day im trying to kill myself or hurt other people, its like blind rage, i dont even remember half the s*** i say or do to people)
I feel sick, like throwing up sick if i dont smoke, when i do smoke, probably the cig tobacco it makes me puke
i dont even get high anymore
i dont get the munchies
i dont see an enjoyable future, the thought of not smoking weed again is terrifying, this is so embarrassing
I have no idea how to change this way of thinking and living. My normal is to be high, when im not i go crazy, its to the point where its all i think about now, i have to plan my days and what i do around weed, because i either wont have energy or i will feel too sick to be around anymore, or to angry to be around people. I've been actively trying to quit weed and cigs (i fill my bong bowl all the way with cig tobacco, then i pepper on some weed on top) for a year now, i give up, i spend 10-15 bucks a day on weed. i cant buy in bulk, ill smoke it all in one day. so its gas money, and money, my life is consumed, i need help. idk what to do anymore
ive been in the nut house before so going to a real rehab is not only embarrassing, because its just weed, im not on herion, i also dont want to go to a place and get sober for a week then want to leave, they wont let me. f***, im over thinking and obsessing with this
You sound just like me in 1989 !!
Hopeless, helpless, suicidal, psyche wards.
Can't live with the booze/drugs and can't live without them.....
I didn't know who I was. I didn't know how to love .... and I felt so crazy!
In July, 1989, I entered a recovery home for 90 days then straight into AA/NA.
I went to meetings almost every day for 10 yrs then cut back to 4-5 a week.
That was more than 25 yrs ago and life just keeps getting better just as the oldtimers said it would.
You could do the same thing if you wish .. turn your life around 1 day at a time. Just look up your local AA or NA in the phone book or on-line and give them a call.
All the best.
Bob R
Hopeless, helpless, suicidal, psyche wards.
Can't live with the booze/drugs and can't live without them.....
I didn't know who I was. I didn't know how to love .... and I felt so crazy!
In July, 1989, I entered a recovery home for 90 days then straight into AA/NA.
I went to meetings almost every day for 10 yrs then cut back to 4-5 a week.
That was more than 25 yrs ago and life just keeps getting better just as the oldtimers said it would.
You could do the same thing if you wish .. turn your life around 1 day at a time. Just look up your local AA or NA in the phone book or on-line and give them a call.
All the best.
Bob R
Normally I don't agree with Papa for NA for marijuana, but in your situation I would take his advice.
