I Feel A Little Better Day 8

Pain Pills
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Hey guys

Good morning. I slept about 5 hours last night but they were very choppy, 12-3 then 3 to 5 anf that was it. I feel a little better today. My stomach does hurt a lot. I am going to take one more sick day. Im going to talk to my manager and just tell him im getting over the flu. What are they gonna do i dont miss much. Iwill work tomorrow have off for Thanksgiving and Friday is just a 3 hour shift. Then I will be nearing week 2 and good things will come

I am noticng that wd is like a swinging pendulum. The symptons act up the pendulum swings then slowly it returns back to normal but it drops a little bit to a lower level of wd

PS- I have a funky taste in my mouth the past 24 hrs anyone know what that is
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I'm glad to hear that you are getting through this. Keep up the good fight!
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It really is a fight its a winning battle. I think im making some ground, finally just a little baby steps. Im nervous to talk to my boss but it wil be ok

I hope
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Baby steps are better than no steps at all, you really are sounding much more upbeat and I'm very glad to see it.
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Hey ladies,

Hi Reddog, just think by the weekend you are going to feel like a million bucks.

There is this stuff called Emetrol otc,, great stuff for your stomach.

You are doing fantastic..

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Well im just praying very hard and I know the Lord will help me through this. I mean once the wds are behind and they slowly are leaving i can live life again.

I talked to my boss everything is ok. So im glad. Very glad. I just told him i had the flu, he said it was better to stay home with that. Plus I have the days thank God

Its gonna be ok now, im seeing a little light, I just hope i can sleep again tonight

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I just had a BIG breakfast, when i mean big it wasnt liquids like ive had all week, it was oatmeal, toast and tea. My stomach feels better maybe i have been hungry thats why it hurt soo bad. You guys know ive lost about 15 pounds this past week from the detox. I have abs lol. Well im going to shower, lets get through today, tomorrow will be better, it has to be better at this point forward
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hey reddog
i had a bad taste in my mouth for awhile too--kind of medicinal or something--cant describe it. You need to go out and make some jokes with your friends--do something to take your mind off of every little detail youre feeling. Hang in there-- youre feeling doing a great job!!!
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Thats some good advice firesign, you have been following me since the start. In your opinion do you think im over the worst. Today is the start of day 8 for me. I cant wait for 10 then 30. Ohhhh looks soo far away

Red
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for sure you are over the worst!! do you exercise at all? i dont know what youre capable of but im telling you, exercise is the best thing that works for me. I mean hard exercise--the kind where you are sweating your butt off and gasping for air. I take boxing classes and i do lots of jump rope and cirquit weight lifting with these kettlebells that kick my butt. when im done and i leave i feel like a whole new person. And i did it soon after w/d's. Its better for me to take a class, that way you cant slack off. Have you ever tried spinning? why dont you check out a gym and take a kickboxing or spinning class just for the hell of it. The gym is also a great place to meet people (girls) and start a whole new topic of your life. do it do it do it do it do it do it do it!!!
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Firesign are you my guardian angel lol. Seriously you know me. Or at least what i want in life. Yea im sore over losing the girl of 4 years, but i realized today its over. Im only 28 years old. Im not conceited but confident. The gym hmmm very tempting. I used to spin. Its good becasue I broke my ankle 2 years ago very bad, snapped all the way to the left, i have rod in my ankle, its healed but i dont run for fear of wearing it out prematurely. Whe i was 25 i was a little heavy, i took a spin class on summer and lost 25 pounds!

Im down to a good weight now about 190, i lost 15 pounds during wds

I would love to meet a woman, not this moment but soon

I am over the last girl, finally!
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so can you spin with a rod in your ankle? if so do it. and you can still box just not jump rope or kick. You can take your frustrations out on a heavy bag and lift weights. It hard to make that first move and get started but just dont think about it, just do it. And do you or do you not go to meetings? there is so much hype about this issue on here Im almost afraid to ask. exercise for the physical part of addiction and meeting or meditation or reading (and your AD) for the mental/spiritual part of your addiction. do that and you will be fixed!!! i know, easier said than done! wow---and did you say you were over that GIRL?????
ALREADY???? SEE------------EVERYONE HERE TOLD YOU SO...HAHAHAHA
WAS THAT FAST OR WHAT??!!!!!!
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My anle hasd a rod that runs maybe 8 inches down it. The nakle broke right above the joints turned all the way to the left. Oh my God i want to forget that. Anyways I think i can spin? I know i can do the eliptical trainer. My college has a gym its free I should look into it. Did you know i also go to grad school and im getting an A. LAst night i felt like total a s s . The profesor had me get up in the front of the class and demonstarte a supply and demand curve. I did it and did it well. He said "just excellent" I couldnt beleive it, i felt soo sick but did well.

Anyways today is a decent day. I pray tomorrow is equal to or better than today. I have to get back to work. Im not too scared, i did call out these 2 days but i had the flu. What are they gonna do? So yea im over the girl, its been 4 months but shes done

I have a question, my cell phone is littered with pics of her should i delete it all?

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congratulations on your A!! see, your life is already starting to get better! i would definitely go to the gym and as far as your cell phone pics go...hmmm....
do you have any other pics of her not on your phone? if yes, then i would delete them all. i always had this thing when i was finished with someone i would get rid of all evidence of them because i didnt want any reminders. im a weirdo sometimes.. anyway, have a great day-night and inbetween!!
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Firesign I do have pictures and cards etc. Its all in a big box. I put that box away months ago. My mom wanted to throw it out o said Noooooo.

So im going to go to mass right now. I have a question, probobly me worrying to much. I did take ativan to get over this. Took low doses for 3 weeks stopped for a week then i had a script for 15 1mg.ativans. I took about 6 in the last week, one last night and before that was last week

You dont think im addiced to the benzo do u? I am afraid of anything these days now lol. Mr dr said it takes months to get deep tissue tolerance. I just dont want to have a seizure. I guess i have been reading too much. Need to get out

Please write back fire
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Glad to hear you're feeling better. You're getting more sleep than I did in my second week, which should help with your overall outlook. I think you'll also find that returning to work will be a good distraction. Keep up the great work -- you're over the hump.
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I have so been waiting for this post. I knew you would get here. Take today off and you will be ready to go when Monday gets here.
I am so happy fo you, can't evem express. I do think recovery is more important than a job - I know we have to have money but with you sayign you hadnnever been out much before, I doubt they will letyou go an it does feel like the flu.
Some companiwes don't want you there withth flu -afraid it will spread. .

Just SOOOOOOOOO happy for you - all uphill with just an ocational bad day - no enogh to worry about. Work on getting your brain to say no- Just remember how horrible this has been - I never want to forget. Afraid f I do, will relapse - thinking I can handle those pills -knowing I can't. I want to stay scared to death of them

Gotta go an try and get a little sleep - pulled an all-nighetr - dd get about 2 hours this morning 4-6 but I'm falling asleep on the computer - I just had to post when I saw your thread - so KEEP IT UP!!!!!I always had a good feeling aoutyou. Now, on with your wonderful life!!!

Sorry for bad speeling and not so wellwrittem, my eyes are half open haha
You did it and you did it the hard way - don'teven know if there's an easy way.

Love,Jean
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hey reddog
i myself dont really consider myself totally clean because every once in awhile i take a benzo. i took them in the beginning of my w/d too because i couldnt sleep. I really dont have a clue to help you with this. My friend would give me a 2mg klopin and i would take crumbs of it when i needed it. LIke an 1/8 to sleep.
i am the WORST sleeper and when trying to get off the opiates i used them.
i dont take them every day now. i have a couple on hand in case of emergency.
i guess im just responding because to tell you youre not alone. But i really have no idea about addiction to benzos YET. I hope i never do either. Let me know what you find out and i will do the same--- take care---fire
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Fire

Im not addicted to benzos im thinking crazy, 3 weeks wont do it. My dr told me 2 months minimum. So i can relax, i just wont take anyomore. Oh i joined the gym. Its at my College, its free and very nice

So i start next week

Red