I just wanted to post about my taper from suboxone.
Its only been 5 days, but I cut my dose by 4mgs! I know that might not seem like much however the difference that I feel is unbelievable. I did go through a couple of uneasy nights...last night was strange, I woke at least 4 or 5 times but I realized that I was dreaming!!
I never dreamt while on pain pills and very rarely if ever while on sub. The difference that I feel mentally is huge. I feel like I am taking back some of the power that I lost during this whole addiction issue.
I would never recommend that anyone get off sub if your not ready this is just my experience. While so very helpful for me in the beginning its time for me I just know in that to my core.
I am very grateful that I had this opportunity for it has allowed me the much needed time to heal and learn to live without the behaviours of obsessing about drugs.
My only issue is that I am extremely impatient and that has got me into so much trouble in the past. I have had to learn that my program of recovery has never worked so I am feeling a little torn over this and to honest a little scared.
I am intelligent enough to know that if I am not careful I could be in trouble. I have no fear of relapse. I would rather die before that happens so I am so very aware of that.
Anyway...I feel good and am happy about this decision to get off all drugs. I have always hated drugs and have lived many many decades without pills...so why this happened I am not at all sure.
As I move forward with this taper I am going to keep you all informed because I think it might be useful information for those to follow me!
Bottom line....I feel more like myself than ever...hmmmm...not sure if this is good or not! LOL...I am on my way!
What a wonderful post to read...you are amazing Kerry. Like you said though, impatients got you in trouble before..keep that in mind. You've got all the time in the world to get this right. Love, Lisa
Thank you Lisa! That's the problem...I don't feel as though I have all the time in the world! But I guess you are right....maybe I do...slow and steady...thanks for your support!
It means so much!
I love that picture in your signature...its so cool. I can't take my eyes off of it!!!...LMAO
It means so much!
I love that picture in your signature...its so cool. I can't take my eyes off of it!!!...LMAO
That's right, I was suppose to find you a good picture for your sig line...
You do have time. Time takes time. It's such a crappy cliche but it's so true and we've got nothing but time to do this. Just slow down, breathe, stick to a schedule and keep going to meetings. You are going to be one of the success stories Kerry..I can feel it in my bones!!! xxxooo
You do have time. Time takes time. It's such a crappy cliche but it's so true and we've got nothing but time to do this. Just slow down, breathe, stick to a schedule and keep going to meetings. You are going to be one of the success stories Kerry..I can feel it in my bones!!! xxxooo
I know your right...failing has never been an option for me! Sometimes I take detours and get caught up in the "lost" but I am on the right road this time and no detours!!
Don't you just wish you could really reach through the computer screen and do that! Or even just a pinch or a poke!
Don't you just wish you could really reach through the computer screen and do that! Or even just a pinch or a poke!
Kee kee HI
If your at 4mg hopefully you have 2mg pills if not get them. It makes the weaning easier and safer as its quite easy to cut a 2mg pill in half.
How do you plan to go from 4to 3mg? Man what a weekendwe had here. The weather was tropical. AWESOME
Jeff
If your at 4mg hopefully you have 2mg pills if not get them. It makes the weaning easier and safer as its quite easy to cut a 2mg pill in half.
How do you plan to go from 4to 3mg? Man what a weekendwe had here. The weather was tropical. AWESOME
Jeff
Kerri,
I'd like to reach through the computer and give you a pat on the back followed by a big hug. This is a wonderful thread to read.
It's a very good thing that you are feeling more and more yourself. Thanks for letting us follow your taper. And yes, nice and slow. You've used the sub while you honed your other recovery tools and now you sound so ready to move on.
Congratulations!
Love,
Gina
I'd like to reach through the computer and give you a pat on the back followed by a big hug. This is a wonderful thread to read.
It's a very good thing that you are feeling more and more yourself. Thanks for letting us follow your taper. And yes, nice and slow. You've used the sub while you honed your other recovery tools and now you sound so ready to move on.
Congratulations!
Love,
Gina
Hey Jeff...I am happy that you had a nice weekend!
The weather can make such a difference to a persons well being. Besides having good weather sounds like you had a good opportunity at a prospect for your love life!! I read that on another thread!
Good for you...I hope you meet someone that rocks your world...as we age, we get a little pickier on whom we allow in!
I am currently at 8mgs down from 12. I plan to go down another 4mgs over the next few weeks...maybe days.....I will test it to see how I feel. When I get to 4mgs I may get the 2mg pills, I think your right they will be easier for tapering. The only issue is that the 8mgs are less expensive than the 2mg pills...so for insurance purposes I will just cut the 8mg in quarters...you get a little dust but that dust is precious for tapering.
I will keep you posted on how it works!
Gina!
Hi ya doll!
Thank you so much for your encouraging words...my god you are such an inspiration to recovery! I know all the drama and crap that you have had to deal with while recovering from this horrible disease.
You make me so proud and are a hard act to follow. I have a lot to be thankful for and am ever aware of that as I move forward. One on the best things that I ever did for myself and my family was to get real and to get clean!
My recovery program most definitely includes the program of AA! For without it...I don't think I would be where I am!
The people that I have met there are true friends! I had a lot of friends while using and much to my dismay...they weren't really friends at all! There for the long haul while my expense account was always available for us and our many nights on the town!
Where are they now? Well for one thing back in Canada..however I am positive that they wouldn't be of much help to me now. In fact most of my dearest friends had no idea what I was going through...incredible I know!!
I so value your friendship and encouragement!!!
The weather can make such a difference to a persons well being. Besides having good weather sounds like you had a good opportunity at a prospect for your love life!! I read that on another thread!
Good for you...I hope you meet someone that rocks your world...as we age, we get a little pickier on whom we allow in!
I am currently at 8mgs down from 12. I plan to go down another 4mgs over the next few weeks...maybe days.....I will test it to see how I feel. When I get to 4mgs I may get the 2mg pills, I think your right they will be easier for tapering. The only issue is that the 8mgs are less expensive than the 2mg pills...so for insurance purposes I will just cut the 8mg in quarters...you get a little dust but that dust is precious for tapering.
I will keep you posted on how it works!
Gina!
Hi ya doll!
Thank you so much for your encouraging words...my god you are such an inspiration to recovery! I know all the drama and crap that you have had to deal with while recovering from this horrible disease.
You make me so proud and are a hard act to follow. I have a lot to be thankful for and am ever aware of that as I move forward. One on the best things that I ever did for myself and my family was to get real and to get clean!
My recovery program most definitely includes the program of AA! For without it...I don't think I would be where I am!
The people that I have met there are true friends! I had a lot of friends while using and much to my dismay...they weren't really friends at all! There for the long haul while my expense account was always available for us and our many nights on the town!
Where are they now? Well for one thing back in Canada..however I am positive that they wouldn't be of much help to me now. In fact most of my dearest friends had no idea what I was going through...incredible I know!!
I so value your friendship and encouragement!!!
I'd like to reach through the screen and give you a big hug to kee kee.........
what a wonderful post to read............
i love ya kee kee...............
always
thumper
what a wonderful post to read............
i love ya kee kee...............
always
thumper
Kee Kee I assume your working with your doctor. I think you may find weaning down from 8-4 to be painless. Were all different. Anyway if your able to cut the 8mg pills that's cool. I never cut one as I never had one in my possession.
Anyway you will figure the best way to wean by experimenting.
Kee kee do you have a co-pay for your pills. Or do you pay for each pill individually?
Yea youbet the weather helps. I just walked 25 minutes and am sweating like a pig. Its awesome the time change.
Amazing what good weather does for the spirit.
Jeff
Anyway you will figure the best way to wean by experimenting.
Kee kee do you have a co-pay for your pills. Or do you pay for each pill individually?
Yea youbet the weather helps. I just walked 25 minutes and am sweating like a pig. Its awesome the time change.
Amazing what good weather does for the spirit.
Jeff
Thumper...if we could reach through the screen...honey...I am sure you would need plenty of wipes nearby....as you would be getting plenty of slobbering smooches!
Jeff...yes I do have a co-pay...I pay about 40 dollars a month for several hundred dollars worth of suboxone.
My doctor does not know as of yet...I have my monthly appointment with him on Friday and will share with him at that time what I have been up to. I hope he is on board...he is very strict and made it clear to me from the start that he is in charge...not me!
Its easy to cut the 8mg pills as they have a line in them already...but you really do need a good pill cutter.
Are you done with the suboxone? I know you went back on it for a time...is that over now? What did you do? How much were you taking? How long did it take you to come off?
I am hoping that I won't feel the drop from 8 to 4.....12 to 8 was a breeze!
Thanks y'all for your support!
Jeff...yes I do have a co-pay...I pay about 40 dollars a month for several hundred dollars worth of suboxone.
My doctor does not know as of yet...I have my monthly appointment with him on Friday and will share with him at that time what I have been up to. I hope he is on board...he is very strict and made it clear to me from the start that he is in charge...not me!
Its easy to cut the 8mg pills as they have a line in them already...but you really do need a good pill cutter.
Are you done with the suboxone? I know you went back on it for a time...is that over now? What did you do? How much were you taking? How long did it take you to come off?
I am hoping that I won't feel the drop from 8 to 4.....12 to 8 was a breeze!
Thanks y'all for your support!
Kee-
I am so glad to hear this............You are amazing!!!!
So strange that you posted this today, I was just wondering about you and the taper.
I cant believe it myself but I am doing well also............Today I got by on 5mg's as well as yesterday............I cant believe it...........So last 3 days I went 6, to 4 then to around 5 today. I am noticing no side effects so far, exept that I have more energy, so I think that is a good side effect right? I am waking at night, but that is fairly normal for me, and I do go back to sleep eventually. I also found myself more ready to wake up this morning, and it didnt take me an hour to wake up :)
Trying not to get in a hurry as well, but You are really inspiring me, I mean it. I have to admit there were times when I was taking as much as 14mg's per day late last year. Why? I will never know, it certainly didnt make me feel better.
The fog is beginning to lift :) Thank god.
Thanks so much for posting this...........We can do this :)
Big Huge Hugs.
I am so glad to hear this............You are amazing!!!!
So strange that you posted this today, I was just wondering about you and the taper.
I cant believe it myself but I am doing well also............Today I got by on 5mg's as well as yesterday............I cant believe it...........So last 3 days I went 6, to 4 then to around 5 today. I am noticing no side effects so far, exept that I have more energy, so I think that is a good side effect right? I am waking at night, but that is fairly normal for me, and I do go back to sleep eventually. I also found myself more ready to wake up this morning, and it didnt take me an hour to wake up :)
Trying not to get in a hurry as well, but You are really inspiring me, I mean it. I have to admit there were times when I was taking as much as 14mg's per day late last year. Why? I will never know, it certainly didnt make me feel better.
The fog is beginning to lift :) Thank god.
Thanks so much for posting this...........We can do this :)
Big Huge Hugs.
KeeKee-What a great post to start my day to.
I think this shows a lot of growth on your part.
I think this shows a lot of growth on your part.
kee-kee, I have followed you story since I first joined this board. You have had alot of trials along the way but I always knew you were a fighter and would come out on top. You have helped me through alot in my journey and for that I thank you. Shantel
Java!
OMG...what a heartwarming post from you. I know that you are on your way too.
I know that you feel exactly the way I do!
Its amazing that even a little tiny cut brings so much more...life! I wouldn't have believed it if I didn't experience this first hand!
I truly believe that as a medication sub is excellent but one should plan to come off it....on a slow taper with supervision, but this drug is powerful and really alters your life! Both good and not so good! I am really torn because it was very healing in the beginning....actually it could be reminiscent of pain killers and how they work.
I am just talking out loud....I am really proud of you Jodi...we will get through this together....yipeee!!
Tim...I respect and admire your recovery...thanks so much...I appreciate your input and support!
Shantel.....yes you and I joined around the same time and your journey has been one that I have followed as well....I am so inspired by your journey into recovery as well!!!
Keep up the amazing work!
OMG...what a heartwarming post from you. I know that you are on your way too.
I know that you feel exactly the way I do!
Its amazing that even a little tiny cut brings so much more...life! I wouldn't have believed it if I didn't experience this first hand!
I truly believe that as a medication sub is excellent but one should plan to come off it....on a slow taper with supervision, but this drug is powerful and really alters your life! Both good and not so good! I am really torn because it was very healing in the beginning....actually it could be reminiscent of pain killers and how they work.
I am just talking out loud....I am really proud of you Jodi...we will get through this together....yipeee!!
Tim...I respect and admire your recovery...thanks so much...I appreciate your input and support!
Shantel.....yes you and I joined around the same time and your journey has been one that I have followed as well....I am so inspired by your journey into recovery as well!!!
Keep up the amazing work!
Hey all...I just wanted to add that today is the 6th day of my taper and I am not exaggerating at all when I say.....I feel better today than I have in years!
I was so worried and scared that I would feel some backlash, I mean lets face it...I bought the ticket now I have to take the ride. But I have NOT felt anything but good!
It just leads me to believe that this is so the right thing to do. I mean once I get to my Doctor on Friday and tell him what I have been up to, whats he gonna say? "Stop tapering! Go back up!" I doubt it...especially when I tell him how positive it has been.
I am just concerned that he will take it as me trying once again to "run the show". I can't stress enough about how this Doctor made it crystal clear to me that he is in charge of my recovery!!!
Man, how can someone that is so loving and caring be so scary! I feel like I am admitting something I did to my Dad! How strange!
Anyway...today is good...real good and that all I have...today!
It is my hope that anyone out there that is still suffering with the pain of addiction know that there is relief...there is a life after addiction. A good one, an amazing one. You just have to want it enough that you are willing to go to any length to get it. if I can help anyone, just one person then my duty today is fulfilled...well one of them!
Huggies!!
Where is everyone!!!!???? I am supose to be working but am having a hard time focusing on this stack of resumes. I think I am just relieved that my deadline is over as of last Friday! I am slacking a bit...exhaling here!
Come out and play people!!!
I was so worried and scared that I would feel some backlash, I mean lets face it...I bought the ticket now I have to take the ride. But I have NOT felt anything but good!
It just leads me to believe that this is so the right thing to do. I mean once I get to my Doctor on Friday and tell him what I have been up to, whats he gonna say? "Stop tapering! Go back up!" I doubt it...especially when I tell him how positive it has been.
I am just concerned that he will take it as me trying once again to "run the show". I can't stress enough about how this Doctor made it crystal clear to me that he is in charge of my recovery!!!
Man, how can someone that is so loving and caring be so scary! I feel like I am admitting something I did to my Dad! How strange!
Anyway...today is good...real good and that all I have...today!
It is my hope that anyone out there that is still suffering with the pain of addiction know that there is relief...there is a life after addiction. A good one, an amazing one. You just have to want it enough that you are willing to go to any length to get it. if I can help anyone, just one person then my duty today is fulfilled...well one of them!
Huggies!!
Where is everyone!!!!???? I am supose to be working but am having a hard time focusing on this stack of resumes. I think I am just relieved that my deadline is over as of last Friday! I am slacking a bit...exhaling here!
Come out and play people!!!
You're doing great Kee Kee, you SHOULD feel good about yourself.
As a former sub user I can tell you slow and steady is the best approach to getting off sub. Sub was awesome for me, but I'm glad I'm off of it.
I'm really happy for you Kee Kee. Take care of yourself.
xx
KeeKee
Hi.KeeKee.
I know you are probably going to bust my balls but I could not disagree more with that last statement.I'm sure your Doc is a good guy but there comes a time when we and the Power of our Understanding have to make the decisions about our own recovery.Some people call it a gut feeling.I think that is exactly what you are experiencing.
Nobody is in charge of your recovery but you.
There is no reason why you can't taper yourself off Suboxone.I've seen you growing spiritually as well as mentally in the last few months.You go to meetings and obviously have the support of those people.I think you are ready and I know you can do it.You have a strong character and I can tell you're stubborn.Sometimes that's good.Those personalities tend to trust their own instincts a bit more.I don't see this as "doing it your way."It helped you in the beginning but that freedom you will experience getting everything out of your system will be immeasurable.
Also,remember....this is coming from a guy who doesn't put much credence in any doctors.That whole"better living through chemistry angle" got me into a lot of trouble.LOL
I say listen to your gut.Pray about it and the answer will be revealed.
It sounds like that's happened.
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Hi.KeeKee.
I know you are probably going to bust my balls but I could not disagree more with that last statement.I'm sure your Doc is a good guy but there comes a time when we and the Power of our Understanding have to make the decisions about our own recovery.Some people call it a gut feeling.I think that is exactly what you are experiencing.
Nobody is in charge of your recovery but you.
There is no reason why you can't taper yourself off Suboxone.I've seen you growing spiritually as well as mentally in the last few months.You go to meetings and obviously have the support of those people.I think you are ready and I know you can do it.You have a strong character and I can tell you're stubborn.Sometimes that's good.Those personalities tend to trust their own instincts a bit more.I don't see this as "doing it your way."It helped you in the beginning but that freedom you will experience getting everything out of your system will be immeasurable.
Also,remember....this is coming from a guy who doesn't put much credence in any doctors.That whole"better living through chemistry angle" got me into a lot of trouble.LOL
I say listen to your gut.Pray about it and the answer will be revealed.
It sounds like that's happened.
Kerri,
You sound so happy. I'm sure you know what you're doing. But if you're angsting about what your doctor is going to say, can't you call him today and just let him know what you've done? He may be all in favor of a drop at this time. Why worry about it until Friday?
Love,
Gina
You sound so happy. I'm sure you know what you're doing. But if you're angsting about what your doctor is going to say, can't you call him today and just let him know what you've done? He may be all in favor of a drop at this time. Why worry about it until Friday?
Love,
Gina
Someone emailed this to me and I thought you might like a reminder of all that you left behind, Kerri. (Dedicated elk crossing, LOL)
