I fell off the wagon. I had almost 7 mths of sobriety and on Staurday night,I drank...lots. The past couple of weeks I have been super stressed at work and marriage life has been pretty bad. I got in a fight with my husband and drank everything from 1am until 8am. I blacked out(which tends to happen when I drink) and woke up in a freezing cold bathtub. Putting together the pieces I figure I would have a bath to sober up before picking up my daughter at her friends house. Needless to say I never made it to pick her up. I am so upset with myself. I didn't go to work today, I feel to horrible. I do not know what to do. If I continue to drink I will die, I know that. I just can't seem to stop. I feel so helpless and angry at myself for not being able to fix this. I want to go away to a treatment center or something but I don't even know if that will help.If I leave though I will lose my job and I don't have anyone to look after our daughter.(my husband work tons) I am not into A.A and I just don't know what to do.
I feel like I need to scream!
steph
Hi Steph you say you've been ok for 8mths but how long have you had the problem?Please try not to beat yourself up over what you did.Hating yourself won't change Sat night.I know this is not something you want to hear but....if you pulled it off for 8mths you can try again.Yes it is going to probaly hard but you can do it.You've already proven you can.I guess none of us can escape stress.I wish there was a easy way to destress.If I can help you in anyway please let me know.Alot of people here mention AA or NA have you ever tried that......Mollyjean
Everyone makes mistakes. NO one is perfect. You screwed up. All you can do is not do it again. You have the ability and strength within you, and you know it. I'm not saying you should let yourself completlely off the hook for this, but accept the fact that it happened, and move on. Work hard not to let this happen again. You can do it.
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Mupmup
i know how u feel, its s***, im here to get some help too, how can i get some help. louis
Dear louie comming to this site is a GREAT way to get the help your looking for.Alot of us here think and feel alot alike.This site is a wounderful place and I'm sure you can find some help just by posting and reading.....Take Care mollyjean
Steph, ya know what...scream...really loud...then try to pull it together slowly. I am totally on baby steps now and I think most people have to work that way. Mollyjean is right...if you were strong enough to get sober once before, you can do it again. I haven't gotten to that point yet. It takes a lot of strength. But, think of your family...your daughter. I am not even married yet and have to try to pull it together for my fiance. And want to get pregnant soon, wondering how the heck I will do that. You're human (and have a problem w/alcohol which is a tough problem). PLEASE don't think you f***ked up so that's IT, nothing can be done for you. I had to have 2 glasses of wine this morning to get out the door. And I look at everyone on the subway and think "boy, that person sure is lucky, they can live normally"...but I bet most of them have a problem or 2 (or 3, or 4...) in their lives ;)
Don't give up b/c of a mistake. Everyday is another day to get better. I know this sounds like an idealistic view...heck I have a hard time following it. But just think it's not hopeless...cause it's not!
Hang in there!!!
Don't give up b/c of a mistake. Everyday is another day to get better. I know this sounds like an idealistic view...heck I have a hard time following it. But just think it's not hopeless...cause it's not!
Hang in there!!!
Steph the first thing you must try to do is forgive yourself.You being angry with yourself will only make it harder.I think all of us have relapsed at least 1 time.Me I keep doing it than try to get back on track.Please keep trying take care....mollyjean
