I went to counselling yesterday..... that in it's self is a miracle.. the place I went to specializes in addiction, whether it be drugs or alcohol, I had to fill out a ton of paper work, asking a whole bunch of questions on my drinking, like how many drinks I've had in the past 30 days, how many drinks I would normally have, how old I was when I first started drinking, the counsellor seemed kinda concerned with that one, I told her I was 13 and then she asked me if I'd been to a doctor to get checked out and I haven't, she was worried about my liver!! I laughed and told her when I would drink, I would always pack another one with me!!! :) It really went well, I opened up quite abit which for me is a huge thing, but you guys have really helped me with that, THANK-YOU!! without everyones support here, I probably would have never made this step!! She gave me some interesting stuff to read on relapse prevention, and on self talk, which deals with anxiety and how to control the negative voices!! also, she gave me a list of AA meetings, there are a TON around here! I joked and said I would go, if I could put a wig on and wear dark sunglasses and sit in the darkened corner!!! she laughed!! The have what is called the FIVER which apparently is the most popular one, I guess because 5:00 pm must be a huge drinking hour for most, I don't know, so I think I will go to that one, I'm nervous as h*ll.
Sorry about the long post, just wanted to share my progress and to let you know how much you guys have helped me!!
lots of love
Liz
Hey Liz, Isn't it a relief to get honest with someone else about what's really going on...I know it was and stll is for me. Hope you can go and check out the five o'clock meeting...remember everyone is there for the same reason as you....take what you need from the meeting and leave the rest...we have a similar meeting here at 5:30 pm and it is called the Commuter meeting, it's usually pretty full because it's a convenient time for people who can't get to a meeting during the day, and as you mentioned it's held around the same time that we would probably be picking up our first drink for the day, but for me it got to where I had to pick up a drink in the morning just to be able to stop the shakes. So, we also have a 6:45 a.m. meeting...every morning. Good going girl!
Hey Liz, congrats on going to see the counselor! Also going to a meeting... my friend actually told me the other night that if I want to try a meeting sometime she'd go with me if I wanted support...I'm considering it as I've been stressed and craving lately, don't know that I'd speak up but it might help just to listen. I hope you will let us know how it goes/went! But congrats again, I'm proud of you girl! Will email soon too. Lots of love and hugs...
Hey gals thanks for the support!! I probably won't say anything at the meeting either, just listen, but who knows???? I feel so darn good today!! I got sooo much off my chest yesterday, you know how sometimes you feel like you are dumping on people, and think "they don't need to hear this, well it didn't feel like that at all, because that's what she is there for...I really wish I had of done this years ago, I probably wouldn't be in the mess I am now, but better late than never I suppose.. I have "homework" or "me" work to do before I go next Tuesday, one is 10 reasons not to drink, well we've covered that here!!! too funny. I told her about this board and all the great wonderful people who were strangers and now my friends and she thinks it's great!! and I couldn't agree more!!
Big Hugs girlfriends!!
Big Hugs girlfriends!!
Hi Love-Dove....you sound so great! Positive and full of life! It is really great to know you are feeling better. How is your Dad doing? I hope better. I just wanted to post to you quickly so you'd know I was thinking of you!
Take care my friend!
Take care my friend!
Hello there Valarie!! Thanks for your post, you are such a sweetheart!! I had a really great day, I feel like a million bucks!! I just came back from seeing Dad, and he looks really good tonight and full of good cheer, singing, laughing, complaining, so he's getting better, there is a possibility he may even come home on Saturday!! :) So today I feel blessed for so many different things. Thanks for caring hun!! we'll chat soon, hope you had a terrific day!!
Lots of love
Liz xox
Lots of love
Liz xox
Hey Lovedove congrats on all things good. Hey the meetings are another place to open up and talk, for so long i was brainwashed to not show any emotion and what happens at home stays at home etc etc, now I'm like any pain in the a** noise you have ever heard i just don't shut up LMAO
Light and love Zac
Light and love Zac
Liz, I'm so happy that YOU seem to be so happy! After all the stress you've had lately you deserve to feel like a million. I'm also thrilled to hear your dad is feeling better, that's great news too! (LOL, complaining is probably a great sign that he's feeling better) I hope the good feelings just keep coming for you and dad both, love ya girl, many big hugs comin' atcha...
Hey to VW, Val, Zac and everyone too!
Hey to VW, Val, Zac and everyone too!
