Last week I posted because I felt guilty about not going to my 9 year old daughters first basketball game. Since I went off methadone in Sept., I have become a bit of a homebody. I just don't feel like being out around others. Anyway, my little girl started playing basketball and I skipped her first game because I was in "a mood". My husband went though. Today was her second game and I almost didn't go. But at the last minute, I just through on my sweats, put on a little makeup and forced myself to go with my husband. At first I was miserable and just wanted to come home. After a while though, I started to enjoy the game. The best part was the end of the game when my daughter ran up to me and hugged me. She said "Mommy, are you proud of me?" And I told her I was so proud of her words couldn't describe it. Sometimes, you have to just go through the motions but it ends up being so worth it!
Shelly
Shelly
Hang on to that feeling. There will be more and more of them believe me. You sound so much like me. I had to force myself to go out and do things. My son would want to go play basketball or my daughter softball but all I wanted to do was sit in front of the stupid TV. I realized you can't go back in time so you better do everything you can with your kids now. You don't get a second chance when it comes to spending time with your kids.
I'm happy you had a good time. I can just see you daughter hugging you and asking you if you are proud of her. That brings a smile to my face.
Frank
What a nice share, Shelly. This is one of those threads you read that makes you smile and grateful for recovery.
Love, Kat
Love, Kat
Shelly, so glad you decided to go at the last minute. Being clean means we finally get to be present in our families lives. It takes a bit of doing, but as you saw, it was worth the outcome.
Good for you.
What are you doing for support? Isolating is one of the best ways to get into trouble again.
Good for you.
What are you doing for support? Isolating is one of the best ways to get into trouble again.
shelly
congratulations for stepping out of your comfort zone. i'm sure that your presence meant a great deal to your daughter.
i know when i first got clean it was nearly impossible for me to function in the world at all. in fact, i was so paralyzed with fear that just going to the market seemed like an insurmountable task - i couldn't wait to get back home!
little by little i came to realize, as you have shared, that if i could just get myself out the door - that was half the battle.
i'm reminded of the nike commercial - "just do it!"
i bet you'll be seeing a lot more of your daughter's basketball games now - welcome back to reality!
thanks for sharing your victory with us.
*sdr*
congratulations for stepping out of your comfort zone. i'm sure that your presence meant a great deal to your daughter.
i know when i first got clean it was nearly impossible for me to function in the world at all. in fact, i was so paralyzed with fear that just going to the market seemed like an insurmountable task - i couldn't wait to get back home!
little by little i came to realize, as you have shared, that if i could just get myself out the door - that was half the battle.
i'm reminded of the nike commercial - "just do it!"
i bet you'll be seeing a lot more of your daughter's basketball games now - welcome back to reality!
thanks for sharing your victory with us.
*sdr*
shelly,
thast so awesome, i have been right where your at, and sdr is right if your husband is going to the hardware store, throw your shoes on and go. just to get yourself familiarised again with being back out in society. any chance you can go out to do that at least once a day.....i have to tell a cute lil story sunday i was out (didnt wanna go) it was a kids christmas party. well this lil 7 yr old boy showed me his poloroid picture of him and santa and we talked about it for a few, then just before i left he asked me if i would come to his house and wear a red dress hahahahaha. even though it was a 7 yr old kid it was still flattery lol oh and i always get it from the strangest places. every year its this same party. and its the same santa, he has a real beard and stache. and every year he insist on getting his pic taken with me (that santa's a perv but again i am getting old and can use all the flattery i can get : ) i have 2 other sisters who are there and he never asks them hahaha prolly cause santa knows they are mean hehehe. point is get out there in life, there is always a lil fun something that happens if you just show up and smile. you dont even need make up, the best accessory anyone can wear is a smile. so get out there and make some memories onestep at a time.
terrianne
thast so awesome, i have been right where your at, and sdr is right if your husband is going to the hardware store, throw your shoes on and go. just to get yourself familiarised again with being back out in society. any chance you can go out to do that at least once a day.....i have to tell a cute lil story sunday i was out (didnt wanna go) it was a kids christmas party. well this lil 7 yr old boy showed me his poloroid picture of him and santa and we talked about it for a few, then just before i left he asked me if i would come to his house and wear a red dress hahahahaha. even though it was a 7 yr old kid it was still flattery lol oh and i always get it from the strangest places. every year its this same party. and its the same santa, he has a real beard and stache. and every year he insist on getting his pic taken with me (that santa's a perv but again i am getting old and can use all the flattery i can get : ) i have 2 other sisters who are there and he never asks them hahaha prolly cause santa knows they are mean hehehe. point is get out there in life, there is always a lil fun something that happens if you just show up and smile. you dont even need make up, the best accessory anyone can wear is a smile. so get out there and make some memories onestep at a time.
terrianne
Shelly:
One of the things I have learned in Recovery is "Suit up and Show up." I hold onto this addage when I don't want to go to the gym, meetings, work, a party. I think it was Woody Allen who said, "90% of life is showing up." That is something I always hold onto.
Rachel
That was a great story-- I must say ive pushed myself to go to every little thing of both my kids--mostly to do w/karate. The bad thing was I seemed to always have been detoxing and feeling miserable--not being able to enjoy the moment. I feel so good to get to do things with my kids again and be normal--- it is such a relief i cant even put it into words. Anyway, thanks for sharing that again.. it made my eyes water up!!!--- fire
