All of this stress is to much for me. I got a hold of some perks today. I took 2 of them and puked my guts!! I dont know why it made me sick. I felt batter after a while. Maybe i should just deal with 1 thing at a time right now. I dont know what to do its so hard not to think about pills.Iwill probley never get out of this mess. I wish i would get memory loss and forget about them.
Hi Misty I know it is hard, I have relasped also but I am picking myself up again and doing it again, I hope for the last time. Don't beat your self up just start again, you probably got sick because you have not been using for awhile and your body got use to that so when you took them they made you sick. You have to try again. I know there will be others on here soon so hang around and post, vent, get angry or just ramble it will help I promise.
You will never be able to break this happen until you REALLY WANT TO.
It's not easy.... and all of us have relapsed before..... but if you really want this, you will find a way to make it work.
I miss the pills sometimes. If you told me that I could take Vicodin for the rest of my life, that it would never hurt my body, that it would always be 25 cents a pill, and that it would always make me happy, I'd probably take the drug forever.
I have said hundreds of times that I wanted to quit, but I didn't really want to. I knew I HAD to quit, but I didn't WANT to. There IS a difference.
We are still here for you..... let's give recovery another try again soon, okay?
Danielle
It's not easy.... and all of us have relapsed before..... but if you really want this, you will find a way to make it work.
I miss the pills sometimes. If you told me that I could take Vicodin for the rest of my life, that it would never hurt my body, that it would always be 25 cents a pill, and that it would always make me happy, I'd probably take the drug forever.
I have said hundreds of times that I wanted to quit, but I didn't really want to. I knew I HAD to quit, but I didn't WANT to. There IS a difference.
We are still here for you..... let's give recovery another try again soon, okay?
Danielle
Misty
I know the feeling. You just have to pick yourself back up and get doing what you know you should be doing. I wished I got really sick when i took some. They didn't make me feel good the first time I took them but not bad enough to completely stop again.
You hang in and get back on track.
Frank
I know the feeling. You just have to pick yourself back up and get doing what you know you should be doing. I wished I got really sick when i took some. They didn't make me feel good the first time I took them but not bad enough to completely stop again.
You hang in and get back on track.
Frank
misty, dont give up, i have 16 days today and i saw my ex in passing and trust and believe if i didnt have this board and my na meetings i probably would have caved. i hated the feelings of total despair, pain, sorrow, sadness all flooding in at once, i am not used to feeling like that becuz i used to take alot of pills, so i would not have to deal with reality in any form. but using pills today was not a option, and just to feel anything was very strange. i have worked hard for my 16 days and refuse to give in becuz i saw my ex who is still using. tomorrow is another day and another opportunity to start again. dont give up!!
carol
carol
Misty,
All you can do is try again. We are all here for you without judgement. Do you know how many times I wish I would fall asleep wake up not an addict,LOL... A thousand. Or maybe have surgery wake up and not be an addict anymore. Wouldn't that be wonderful! We are here for you and MOST of us have been exactly where you are tonight. Hang in there girlfriend. Start again when you are ready! Let's face it, you will NEVER get clean until you are ready! That's a fact.Rae
All you can do is try again. We are all here for you without judgement. Do you know how many times I wish I would fall asleep wake up not an addict,LOL... A thousand. Or maybe have surgery wake up and not be an addict anymore. Wouldn't that be wonderful! We are here for you and MOST of us have been exactly where you are tonight. Hang in there girlfriend. Start again when you are ready! Let's face it, you will NEVER get clean until you are ready! That's a fact.Rae
